tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-73281199018993048242024-02-06T18:25:57.850-08:00Life, Love and SinnThis is the blog of Sinnamon Love. You think you know but you have no idea! Welcome to my world where nothing is more important to me than life, love, family, friends, my writing, good food and true Hip Hop. :) I am a Porn Star, Fetish Model, Pro-Domme, Mother, Daughter, Sister, Lover and Friend. Society deems me a Whore. I think I'm just a Girl. Want to know more? Follow Me.Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.comBlogger132125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-47341381516098594552011-12-11T20:31:00.001-08:002011-12-11T20:31:22.303-08:00formspring.meAsk me questions about music. <a href="http://www.formspring.me/SinnamonLove" target="_blank">http://www.formspring.me/SinnamonLove</a>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-89147762678994711472011-12-01T15:17:00.001-08:002011-12-01T15:17:57.939-08:00formspring.meAsk me questions about anything but porn and sex <a href="http://www.formspring.me/SinnamonLove" target="_blank">http://www.formspring.me/SinnamonLove</a>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-88554491169714040412011-09-19T22:41:00.000-07:002011-09-19T22:47:47.290-07:00Yoga as a Way Towards World (Female,) DominationWhat an amazing day... started the day off with continuing my quest to clean out and organize my over-stuffed email inbox then ventured into Manhattan, armed with yoga mat and a copy of The Perfection of Yoga and made my way to Bikram Yoga for an intense, sweaty 90 minutes of bliss. During my practice, I noticed a few things; <br /><br />1) my hips are super tight, <br />2) I'm not nearly as flexible as I was about 6 years ago, <br />3) my balance is off <br />4) the right side of my body is off kilter more than my left and <br />5) I don't nearly sweat as much as other people. :)<br /><br />I couldn't help but think afterwards how I wished a slave were waiting for me at the dungeon to smell my smelly armpits and ass drenched in sweat. :) Instead, my 6pm session was stuck on the train for over an hour due to a water main that broke; flooding the tracks and shutting down several train lines. No matter, I was able to hang with my girl Bossy Delilah at the dungeon and furthered my quest to break through more emails. Back on the still crowded train toward Brooklyn, when I emerged from the subway, a gentleman tapped me on the shoulder and said, "Excuse me, miss?" I turned and he smiled, "I'm a big fan of your work..." and kept it moving. I love it here. :)<br /><br />Oh, Did I mention I'll be in D.C. on Wednesday for 1 day only taking FemDom sessions? No? Oh... Yeah. That. Email non-explicit details of your kink & be prepared to send a deposit to secure a time slot for your session.<br /><br />Namaste'. :) Peace out.<br /><br />~*~ Sinny ~*~<br />aka Miss Love (if you're kinky.)Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-31228273773046135512011-08-29T02:16:00.000-07:002011-08-29T03:49:19.579-07:00Not a Love Letter #1<iframe width="480" height="390" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/jTAW4G4BZIw" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
<br />
<br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">"Be Still My Beating Heart" - Sting</span>
<br />
<br /><blockquote>"Be still my beating heart
<br />It would be better to be cool
<br />It's not time to be open just yet
<br />A lesson once learned is so hard to forget
<br />Be still my beating heart
<br />Or I'll be taken for a fool
<br />It's not healthy to run at this pace
<br />The blood runs so red to my face
<br />I've been to every single book I know
<br />To soothe the thoughts that plague me so
<br />
<br />I sink like a stone that's been thrown in the ocean
<br />My logic has drowned in a sea of emotion
<br />Stop before you start
<br />Be still my beating heart
<br />
<br />Restore my broken dreams
<br />Shattered like a falling glass
<br />I'm not ready to be broken just yet
<br />A lesson once learned is so hard to forget
<br />
<br />Be still my beating heart
<br />You must learn to stand your ground
<br />It's not healthy to run at this pace
<br />The blood runs so red to my face
<br />I've been to every single book I know
<br />To soothe the thoughts that plague me so
<br />
<br />Stop before you start
<br />Be still my beating heart
<br />
<br />Never to be wrong
<br />Never to make promises that break
<br />It's like singing in the wind
<br />Or writing on the surface of a lake
<br />And I wriggle like a fish caught on dry land
<br />And I struggle to avoid any help at hand
<br />
<br />I sink like a stone that's been thrown in the ocean
<br />My logic has drowned in a sea of emotion
<br />Stop before you start
<br />Be still my beating heart"</blockquote>
<br />
<br />
<br />5 am and here I am...
<br />headphones in my ear listening to this track on repeat.
<br />I'm rarely one for remakes of classic songs...
<br />Especially being a 70s baby and having very intimate memories of the originals.
<br />This one however not only does it justice...
<br />It helps me relate in a way that Sting's version didn't.
<br />Through Nikki Jean's voice I hear my own..
<br />Once naive and vulnerable...
<br />Finding my way through rebounds trying not to carry baggage from one relationship into the next.
<br />Perhaps more well known than my wet blowjobs on television screens
<br />I am best known for saying,
<br />
<br /><blockquote>"I will not hold a man responsible for the mistakes of those that have come before him... Instead, I'll hold each man responsible for his own fuck-ups."</blockquote>
<br />
<br />In doing this, I allow myself to feel whatever I feel.
<br />I let myself experience whatever moment is there...
<br />Fully, completely, and without shame or fear.
<br />Because if it doesn't work out?
<br />There are tons of other fish in the sea.
<br />
<br />I've never been one to walk up to a velvet rope and demand star treatment on some,
<br />
<br /><blockquote>"Do you know who I am?!?!"</blockquote>
<br />
<br />type shit... Even though I could... Because hell, I'm legendary...
<br />But instead, I stay humble.
<br />However, in relationships I'm a little different...
<br />Because I know I'm the shit.
<br />Fortunately for me,
<br />I had good home training.
<br />
<br />I've always been the girl with lots of guy friends.
<br />I hear what they complain about...
<br />Chicks that can't cook their way out of a cardboard box
<br />Chicks that keep a filthy house
<br />Chicks that don't raise their kids
<br />Chicks that know the lastest pop artist's favorite color
<br />But don't know who Qaddafi is.
<br />Or What the Middle Passage was
<br />Or that they are a part of the African Diaspora...
<br />
<br />And worse...
<br />
<br />Act like their are too good to rub their man's shoulders
<br />after a long day.
<br />Or argue with him over some chick whose ass he happened to glance at walking down the street
<br />Even though he's holding her hand...
<br />Or tell him he ain't shit because he's struggling to find a job
<br />Even though he's college educated
<br />and goes out every day looking
<br />and not just...
<br />sitting on the sofa smoking weed and playing video games.
<br />
<br />Yeah... I'm not that girl.
<br />
<br />I'm the one that will fall asleep on the sofa waiting for him to come home from work at 2am and make him a hot meal...
<br />And bring home my pay check so we can take care of "Us" because I know there's no "I" in "Team."
<br />I'm the woman that will admire the hot ass walking by with my man
<br />and can carry on a conversation about world affairs and introduce my man to artists that never get played on the radio...
<br />
<br />I'm not the one trying to rush a man to the alter
<br />Or trap him with a baby...
<br />Or tell him he ain't shit because I know that unemployment is at an all time high
<br />and that shit isn't about to change overnight just because we have a Black President.
<br />I'm the woman that will make dinner every night so we can not only balance our budget but insure the health of the family that I was blessed by the universe to care for...
<br />I'm the woman that will make his grandmother's chicken soup when he's ill
<br />and call his mother when I have done the best I can
<br />and shed so many tears that they can be measured on a scale.
<br />
<br />In short... I'm every man's fantasy...
<br />And not just because I spread my legs on screen.
<br />
<br />So when the time comes and I move on... I move on.
<br />I'm not here to play games.
<br />
<br />I haven't been single since 1989 and for a good reason
<br />Good women are hard to find.
<br />Most men are smart...
<br />When they find a woman that
<br />cooks and cleans and displays intellect
<br />and cares for family and community
<br />and Him...
<br />And is willing to give him what he needs emotionally
<br />and satisfies his desires in the bedroom...
<br />
<br />They grab hold of her and lock her down with the quickness.
<br />
<br />For the first time in a long time I find myself single.
<br />I have shared much of my romance with "J" over the last 2 years,
<br />and my relationship with "Jax" for the two years prior,
<br />and before that my on-going love affair with "myLove,"
<br />and various other suitors with my fans online.
<br />Never before have so many of you become so involved in my love life before.
<br />Perhaps the advent of twitter allowing you into our home
<br />so that you could experience our highs, lows, love and pain alongside us
<br />has given you all a vested interest in our lives together.
<br />
<br />Before anyone asks... I don't hate him.
<br />He doesn't hate me...
<br />We still love one another very, very much...
<br />but at this time, we need to pursue other paths in life.
<br />
<br />Its ironic... I don't remember the last time a relationship ended because the other person broke up with me...
<br />and yet it always pains me so much to end something that has meant so much to me.
<br />When I broke up with J last month...
<br />I cried for days...
<br />I love him that much but I realized its time to move on...
<br />at least for now.
<br />Up until yesterday we have only spoken by text or IM because speaking by voice was just so painful we'd merely start arguing. Its my hope that one day we make our way back to baseline.
<br />
<br />That may never happen because as in true form...
<br />
<br />I've already started seeing someone new.
<br />
<br />And a significant person from my past has resurfaced.
<br />
<br />Oh... and the first woman I ever fell for has popped up as well...
<br />
<br /><blockquote>"The sharks can smell always smell blood when there's a wounded fish in the water..."</blockquote>
<br />
<br />As for this someone new...
<br />He's almost perfect for me on paper.
<br />He's 44, from Brooklyn, educated, with a dry wit and an intense love for hip hop. He takes care of his mother, doesn't have any children - but wants them. Never married, but wants to before having children. He's spiritual, civic minded and is a huge Sinnamon Love fan.
<br />
<br />And there's the crux.
<br />I don't date fans.
<br />You never know where they are coming from...
<br />And we are definitely dating.
<br />Definitely.
<br />
<br />Ugh and Grr...
<br />
<br />I've rationalized that if I allow myself to just enjoy it and not think too much about it then it will be fine...
<br />But I think to much
<br />And I'm still in love with another man
<br />And the new guy...
<br />well I think he underestimates the potential impact that who I am could have on who he is...
<br />So I withhold
<br />and pull-back
<br />and resist...
<br />
<br />And he seems to want to delve deeper..
<br />And so I open up a little more...
<br />And let him refer to us as a "relationship" and "friendship"
<br />in separate terms and yet at the same time...
<br />Until that moment when he reminds me that
<br /> I was never supposed to move to New York
<br />And makes me wonder if he's scared
<br />or confused
<br />or worried that I may be placing expectations that he isn't ready for...
<br />Even though...
<br />He's the one that hunted me...
<br />
<br />And so.. I recoil.
<br />Still fragile from ending a relationship that I thought would last forever
<br />I be still my beating heart...
<br />Before I'm taken for a fool...
<br />Because I'm not ready to be that open again.
<br />I'm so easily convinced to fall...
<br />But I don't want to get hurt.
<br />I learned my lessons from the last relationship
<br />so as to not make the same mistakes in the next one.
<br />
<br />I think he thinks that I want more than I want right at this moment...
<br />When what I really want is his warm body next to mine
<br />His strong hands clasping mine while he whispers in my ear...
<br />His, expert fingertips running through my hair
<br />and tracing my face and committing it to memory...
<br />His tongue exploring my mouth...
<br />
<br />I want him to make me think its real...
<br />even if for a few moments so I can forget that I'm still in love with someone else...
<br />I want him to fall so madly for me that I have no choice but to follow suit...
<br />Even if for a few hours.
<br />
<br />I just want to feel free to be myself with him
<br />I want him to be a substitute for the man I love for a little while
<br />until I get over the pain so I won't feel weak and go back to him...
<br />
<br />The bad part is...
<br />I really like this guy.
<br />He knows it
<br />J knows it...
<br />
<br />And that's dangerous.
<br />
<br /><blockquote>"I sink like a stone that's been thrown in the ocean
<br />My logic has drowned in a sea of emotion"
<br /></blockquote>
<br />
<br />The hunted is trying not to be prey...
<br />
<br /><blockquote>"Stop before you start"</blockquote>
<br />
<br />Take a deep breath Sinn...
<br />
<br /><blockquote>"Be still my beating heart"</blockquote>
<br />
<br />I'd love to imagine something more with this guy...
<br />but I'm still trying to figure out his angle.
<br />Until I can..
<br />or he adequately convinces me that he really just wants me..
<br />for no other reason than he can't imagine not having me
<br />I think I'm going to take that breather
<br />Because I tried responding in kind to his advances..
<br />and now I feel like he's confused.
<br />
<br />And I refuse to give chase.
<br />
<br /><blockquote>"Don't you know who I am? I'm Sinnamon Love...</blockquote>
<br />
<br />
<br />I Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-89342200995134962752011-05-29T08:14:00.001-07:002011-05-29T08:14:58.475-07:00Here's one for my cyber stalkerFuck you.Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-75247131054468447682011-05-11T14:21:00.000-07:002011-05-13T13:38:18.703-07:00Back to WellnessI have always been very open about my battle with Ovarian Cancer and the multiple surgeries that I have endured. What a lot of people don't know is that I have dealt with chronic neck, back and shoulder pain as well for as long as I can remember.<br /><br />When I was 14, I was in a horrific car accident. What I was told when I woke up in the hospital, is that a drunk driver, driving a semi-truck, came barreling down a hill and hit the car I was sitting in head on. I hit the wind shield, and it was impossible for a skin graft to be done on my forehead as there was nothing to graft it to. I had to wait for it to regenerate naturally. The scars I was left with are easily covered with makeup and don't bother me, but I can still pin point the spot where the doctors could not remove glass that was buried deep. To me, its merely a piece of my childhood, no different than a scrape on the knee from learning to ride a bike. After the accident I underwent physical therapy, but to me it was nothing more than getting in a whirlpool and getting a massage The bare minimal was done to satisfy the lawyers that needed to sue this guy's insurance company. Years later I was in another, far less intense car accident, where a little old lady side swiped my car. It was totaled, but I got out of the car through the window and was perfectly fine... except that I developed massive anxiety and refused to get behind the wheel of a car for 10 years.<br /><br />I dealt with my anxiety years ago through therapy, but one thing that remained was the chronic pain from the accidents. For the longest, I saw the most amazing Chiropractor in Beverly Hills. Dr Ty Essiegian is absolutely amazing. His reasonable pricing and jovial bedside manner allowed me to get past my fear of adjustment and start experiencing relief from constant aches and pains. Ty was the first doctor to tell me that what we had always called being "double-jointed" when I was a kid was actually hyper-mobility in my joints. He explained that the shoulder pain I was feeling and the pain in my neck was primarily due to my shoulders being slightly dislocated out of socket. I remember the first time Ty reset my right shoulder... it hurt so much I cried but the relief afterwards was amazing. He recommended that I seek physical therapy for my shoulder so I could prevent my rotator cuff from tearing later on down the line When I left LA for the Valley, distance and time made it more difficult to see Ty, so for the last 7 years I've received fewer adjustments even though my pain still persists.<br /><br />Recently, I came to realize that not only was my pain increasing, but my shoulders hurt so badly that I could not practice certain yoga postures as I simply couldn't put pressure on my arms or shoulders without extreme pain. As my arms started getting weaker, I found myself exercises less. I have spoken to several personal trainers that simply don't know how to rehab an injury such as mine safely. This began my hunt for someone more qualified.<br /><br />Yesterday, I started treatment at a wellness center that offers chiropractic, acupuncture, physical therapy, pilates and massage. My session yesterday with the chiropractor brought some relief; I have more range of motion in my neck now and the massage certainly left me a bit sore much of today. The doctor created a treatment plan that includes chiropractic adjustments and massage along with 3-4 pilates sessions to start to begin to strengthen my core and begin to heal my shoulder. He also recommended a consult with the staff acupuncturist, to address not only my pain but other health issues such as my chronic allergies & bronchitis amongst other things. He feels that for now there is no reason to add a consult with the physical therapist but will re-evaluate later if we need to add her input.<br /><br />I'm so excited to have found someplace that offers such holistic full body care. I'm back on Friday with the Chiropractor and Monday with the Acupuncturist for his treatment plan which may include herbs in addition to needles. Of course, my insurance doesn't cover treatment and its not cheap. I'm not asking for donations, but if you see something on one of my auctions, or want to book a cam show let me know. :) And yes, if you'd like to donate towards treatment let me know and I'll provide you with info on how you can help.<br /><br />Thanks all!<br /><br />SinnSinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-47061608226927562172011-04-21T02:38:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:31:23.166-07:00Love Letter #13: Perhaps...my love for you is stronger than i ever imagined.<br />perhaps God intended it to be that way.<br />for you and i to meet<br />and fall in love<br />unexpectedly<br />unabashedly<br />untainted...<br />so that we would know how deep our love could go.<br />perhaps...<br />God knew the struggles that would come along the way<br />and knew we needed one another<br />to lean against in times of strife<br />so we would have the strength<br />and resolve to fight<br />not just for ourselves<br />but for one another.<br />perhaps...<br />God saw this man and this woman<br />each with troubled pasts<br />each with similar vices<br />each with the desire for change<br />and the need for love<br />and directed us to one another.<br />I was never supposed to be in Miami that weekend<br />but I'm glad I was.<br />i needed to meet a man<br />that would be attracted to me physically<br />want to engage me sexually<br />learn my mind and respect me<br />hear my past and hold me<br />see my heart and love me<br />and God sent me you.<br />its amazing that through all this...<br />we are still fighting to hold on<br />out of love<br />not anger<br />or hate<br />or fear...<br />but because we both see the value<br />in what God has given us.<br /><br />In the past I've often fought the gifts God laid before me. Afraid and angry after all the pain life brings. I am so grateful for this life I've been given, and recognize that he has brought me someone that truly loves me for me. All of me. Warts and all. Thank you for taking a walk with me last night. I love you J. Always. In all ways. Warts and all. :)Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-12219794714549331092011-04-19T08:20:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:09:18.123-07:00Love Letter #12: What You Won't Do For Love - Bobby Caldwell"I guess you wonder where I've been <br />I searched to find a love within <br />I came back to let you know <br />Got a thing for you and I can't let go <br /><br />My friends wonder what is wrong with me <br />Well I'm in a daze from your love, you see <br />I came back to let you know <br />Got a thing for you and I can't let go <br /><br />Some people go around the world for love <br />But they may never find what they dream of <br />What you won't do, do for love <br />You've tried everything but you don't give up <br />In my world only you makes me do <br />For love what I would not do <br /><br />But then I only want the best it's true <br />They can't believe the things I do for you <br />What you won't do, do for love <br />You've tried everything but you don't give up <br />In my world, only you makes me do <br />For love what I would not do <br />Makes me do for love what I would not do"<br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/clFGTS3jpsA?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-65904025455373781682011-04-11T08:41:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:11:40.303-07:00Love Letter #11: Bob marley "no woman no cry" 1979I swear. Yesterday was tears because I missed you. Today I have no tears despite listening to your heart bleed. When you figure it out, let me know..."don't worry, everything's gonna be alright."<br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/jGqrvn3q1oo?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-21663273444896538712011-04-10T20:03:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:12:34.173-07:00Love Letter #10smh.<br /> <br />my heart just breaks in silence.<br />patience has never been my friend.<br />i'm hurting and no one understands why.<br />love is the hardest mountain to climb.<br />in his absence<br />my heart acts as though its forgotten how to pump blood<br />and my lungs deflate from lack of air.<br />i try...<br />but can't seem to catch my breath.<br />i fill my minutes with busy work<br />so the devil can't take my hands<br />but all i seem to think of<br />is counting the seconds<br />until he holds me tightly in his arms<br />and kisses away the tears<br />that streak my face like war paint.<br />i wish he could understand<br />the pain his absence brings<br />the heartache that i endure<br />just listening to his sweet words<br />on the other end of the phone line.<br />i long for the look in his eyes<br />that tell me i'm the only woman<br />that's ever loved him<br />the way that he loved them back.<br />i miss the way he laughs<br />and holds me when i'm lost<br />and brings me back to life<br />when illness has taken me down.<br />he encourages a part of me<br />that no one ever has.<br />and i miss that...<br />more than anything...<br />right now.Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-35112881519755722822011-04-01T13:21:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:15:02.047-07:00Love Letter #9: Nicki Minaj - Moment 4 Life (MTV Version) ft. DrakeEvery time I hear this song on the radio I think of you... Instantly, I see flashes in my head of you driving along the beach next to me, jazz playing in the car, you turn and smile at me knowing that its my favorite genre and just what I need to hear. :) I see you standing in your tuxedo on my birthday... tears in my eyes as Beyonce sings so her man can grab a glass. I see all the moments we've shared in our life together. Its been an amazing ride so far.. I can't wait to see what the next 2 years will bring. I love you.<br /><br /><iframe width="480" height="295" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Ks3_kuRAzHs?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-28614840220894991242011-04-01T01:31:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:23:29.568-07:00Love Letter #8: The Family - River Run Dry"How long I cry till the river run dry? <br /><br />U used 2 see me <br />But U don't see me no more <br />U used 2 touch me <br />But U don't touch me no more <br /><br />Our love affair I thought would be <br />6 4evers and a week <br />Stick pin jab in the middle of a dream <br />No love at the end of the rainbow <br /><br />300 tears crystaline <br />Each one contaning a memory it seems <br />Stick pin jab in the middle of a dream <br />No love at the end of the rainbow"<br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/ZiHeCmoxrWc?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-48325401082148059212011-04-01T00:09:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:16:29.117-07:00Love Letter #7: Prince - And God Created Woman"In a deep sleep I fell<br />And the music starts 2 swell<br />One of my ribs He took and it shall be<br />Bone of my bones (bone of my bones)<br />And God created woman<br />And we were naked and did not care<br />There's a time 2 take and a time 2 share<br />2 in love, all around and all aware<br />Flesh of my flesh (flesh of my flesh)<br />And God created woman<br /><br />Temptation sweet and so much (sweet and so much)<br />Surely die if neither one of us shall ye touch <br />(shall ye touch)<br />Then again we could die from the rush (rush)<br />Heart of my heart (heart of my heart)<br />And God created woman (woman)<br /><br />Woman<br />My-my-my-my-my-my woman<br /><br />In my darkest hour I find<br />Many serpents who have lied (lied)<br />Given half the chance still I'd run 2 your side<br />(run 2 your side)<br />Love of my love (love of my love)<br />And God created woman (woman)<br /><br />And if I never see u again<br />It's alright 4 I am guilty of no sin<br />They can have u, I'll have your love in the end<br />Soul of my soul (soul of my soul)<br />And God created woman<br /><br />(God created woman)<br />(God created woman) (woman)<br />Flesh of my flesh<br />(God created woman) (soul)<br />(God created, God created woman)<br />(God created, God created woman)"<br /><br /><iframe width="480" height="295" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/jE-Pbxoevpo?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-92065325786239379012011-03-29T00:40:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:24:21.373-07:00Love Letter #6: Look into your Heart (Sparkle)Dear J,<br /><br />Remember this?<br /><br />"If you look into your heart <br />With a positive mind <br />Take some inventory <br />of your woman and your glory <br />Leave the bad things behind (ooh)<br />Everybodys got a story (yes they do) <br />About love and the good things <br />But all the spices of your life <br />You just got to pay the price <br />If you know what I mean (ooh yeah)<br />I'm telling everybody <br />I know how a girl becomes some pride <br />When I finally found there was nothing left <br />I said I do believe I found myself <br />And I want to give it to you baby oh yes I do (yeah yeah) <br />So if you look into your heart <br />With a positive mind <br />You can take some inventory of your woman and your glory <br />Leave the bad things behind <br />And your woman really loves me we don't have that everyday (oh no no no) <br />I know my man really needs me I say it <br />What ever he wanna do I wanna do it with you baby (yeah yeah) <br />(do do do doooo . . .) <br />Jump on the night <br />Love's not an easy game <br />And he's strong and he's straight <br />Now that I see <br />What he's givin' me <br />I say what ever he wanna do <br />I wanna do it with you baby <br />I'm loving you more and more and more and more <br />And giving you all and all of me <br />I say now mercy baby <br />I'm loving you more and more and more and more <br />I'm giving you all and all of me <br />Oh yes I am <br />Say mercy baby <br />I'm loving you more <br />Mercy baby <br />Mercy baby <br />Mercy baby<br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/xPzMdUH4dQU?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-60607997823706367742011-03-23T09:15:00.000-07:002011-04-23T03:25:04.671-07:00Love Letter # 5: Missing You by Diana Ross (written by Lionel Richie)"Since you've been away<br />I've been down and lonely<br />Since you've been away<br />I've been thinking of you<br />Trying to understand<br />The reason you left me<br />What were you going through? <br />I'm missing you<br />Tell me why the road turns<br />Ooh ooh<br />I'm missing you<br />Tell me why the road turns<br />As I look around<br />I see things that remind me<br />Just to see you smile<br />Made my heart fill with joy<br />I still recall all those plans we made together<br />where did you run to boy?<br />Ooh Ooh<br />I'm missing you<br />Tell me why the road turns?"<br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/aVlbbk4SPC4?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-22763770549939203232011-03-16T12:02:00.000-07:002011-03-19T19:29:03.391-07:00Love Letter #4<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrEumfcsV1PtoiEjhmooEo_Kal_uIF5L2dOgv03YkL62JXcyU2TP1LRiRKj1y3ZJBVYxI7LFPfvVjwAhrhH91oYMmlBh7fx4cAowxe1r4u65qVxAHSp5cJkms7ZuXKM5Xfu7lFz2SFgdRX/s1600/Photo+283.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrEumfcsV1PtoiEjhmooEo_Kal_uIF5L2dOgv03YkL62JXcyU2TP1LRiRKj1y3ZJBVYxI7LFPfvVjwAhrhH91oYMmlBh7fx4cAowxe1r4u65qVxAHSp5cJkms7ZuXKM5Xfu7lFz2SFgdRX/s320/Photo+283.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5585978124832512578" /></a><br /><br /><br />Lyrics to 1st verse from Faithful by Common<br /><br />"I was rollin' around, in my mind it occurred<br />What if God was a her?<br />Would I treat her the same? Would I still be runnin' game on her?<br />In what type of ways would I want her?<br />Would I want her for her mind or her heavenly body?<br />Couldn't be out gettin' bogus with someone so godly<br />If I was wit' her would I still be wantin' my ex?<br />The lies, the greed, the weed, the sex<br />Wouldn't be ashamed to give her part of my check<br />Wearin' her cross, I mean the heart on my neck<br />Her I would reflect on the streets of the Chi'<br />Ride wit' her, 'cause I know for me she'd die<br />Through good and bad call on her like I'm chirpin' her<br />Couldn't be jealous 'cause other brothers worship her<br />Walk this earth for her, glory, I'm grateful<br />To be in her presence I try to stay faithful<br /><br />[Chorus]<br />[sample] Faithful to the end<br />[sample] Faithful to the end<br />[sample] Faithful to the end<br />[sample] I'd like to be her very best friend"<br /><br />Thank you for putting this heart on my neck. <br />Thank you for loving my mind and not just my body. <br />Thank you for giving me part of your check. <br />Thank you for giving me all of you, the honesty, the ambition & yes the sex. <br />Thank you for not being jealous because other brothers worship me. <br />Thank you for being my medicine, and healing my broken spirit. <br />Thank you for wearing my heart on your sleeve, (facebook,) and for repping me in the streets on the internet, LA and Miami. Thank you for ridin' with me because you know for you'd I'd die. <br />Thank you for calling on me in good and bad, in sickness and in health, <br />for as long as we both shall live... <br />I'll be faithful<br />to the end.<br /><br />love, Me.Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-43292343081869731692011-03-15T21:45:00.000-07:002011-03-19T19:19:15.800-07:00Love Letter #3p writing poetry to J listening to Common when I'm really supposed to be packing for a move that is happening tomorrow.<br /> <br />"You're such a mush ball," I can here him say.<br /> <br />I smile as if I know a secret only he and I know. Because we do... This love we share isn't about occupation or wealth... its about mutual ambitions and ties to our families, our desire for unconditional love and the type of relationship we both wanted. I see something in him most people don't get to see. The way he does 8th grade Algebra homework while I make dinner and show my daughter martial arts moves. The way he gives my son game with the girls while going over Spanish homework with him. I love that despite that he hasn't found his lane yet, he'll sit and obsess over cable network news and has meaningful conversation with me about what's happening around the world in 30 days. I love that when he sees that I'm a bit more intense in the kitchen chopping vegetables with malice he'll.. slip up behind me and gently kiss my neck to make me smile.. because he knows, that the spot exactly 3 o'clock on my neckline is ticklish and that I can't possibly frown when his lips touch there.<br /> <br />I love that he adores my cooking so much that every night he kisses me and says thank you when I bring him a plate, and has finished it before I have a chance to bring him a glass of water. I watch as he turns off the TV and picks up a book to read... always looking to expand his mind at his leisure. I can't begin to imagine what my days are going to be like while he's not here with me. Trying to fill my days with other things so I won't dwell on it too much and break down in tears. Which isn't a difficult task looking around a partially unpacked room that still needs to be put away so I can have friends move us tomorrow. There I go... Us. That's all its been for the last 2 years. I pray, yes, I pray... that the universe sees fit that he heals as quickly as possible so I can stop sleeping on the sofa and return to our bed so I might be a happier woman.<br /> <br />So...<br />St. Michael if you're listening, watch over my soldier and keep him safe. Let his body rest and his heart return to its normal gait so he might remember, that the world, although a scary place... isn't as bad as it seems. May he remember that no cross is too big to bear... and that his shoulders are strong enough to lift the weight from his head. May he find the peace he seeks so that he will once again see that he IS the man I met and fell in love with.. that he hasn't lost his way. May he remember that hope is everlasting and there is nothing wrong with joy in your heart. May he remember that the biggest expectations he has are the ones he sets for himself... and that mistakes are easily overcome. I know love can't heal all wounds... but if it could, I'll easily give up the memory of true love to restore his faith in humanity.<br /> <br />Until we meet again,<br />Me.Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-9786386233297841822011-03-15T21:21:00.000-07:002011-03-19T19:32:14.587-07:00Love Letter #1Jada Stevens just stopped by. She and I smoked... I started missing you so I put on Common's Be album. I got higher than I've been in awhile.. probably because I've barely slept from worry about you and I haven't eaten since you've left and... well, my kitty misses her Daddy... because Common's voice is nice but.. honestly, yours is so much better. I... think to myself, it would be great if Jorge were here to.. make love to me amongst the boxes and packing tape.. for that.. one last time in our 1st bedroom and.. on the balcony because its late and we'll hand over the keys so fuck it. ;-)<br /><br />"How beautiful love can be," - Common<br /><br />I love the way you touch me late night<br />your kiss along my collarbone.<br />I love..<br />the way you whisper dirty things in my ear.<br />The way you...<br />grab my face to look in my eyes<br />while you dig deep into my heart.<br />I love the way you move me<br />throw me around like a rag doll.<br />Tell me...<br />things we both know we really mean<br />even though we act like we're just playing.<br />You...<br />make me feel as if the world has stopped<br />and nothing but you and I matter.<br />I...<br />want to be able to give you sons<br />since you've already given me moons.<br />I want to kiss your feet the way you<br />kiss my face.<br />I want you to<br />taste my tears while<br />I taste your love.<br /><br />Fuck you.<br />I was trying not to miss you this much.<br />I was trying not to touch myself while you were away..<br />And yet here I am...<br />thinking..<br />that if I can't have you inside me tonight<br />that you won't mind if I touch myself<br />as long as I'm thinking of you...<br /><br />So..<br />I think I will.<br />I hope that's okay with you.<br /><br />Because I...<br /><br />Miss..<br /><br />your..<br /><br />dick.<br /><br />*blushes.*<br /><br />I wish you understood just how much I love you.<br />I thought you knew.<br />I guess I'll have to remind you.<br />Here I am..<br />3,000 miles away<br />wishing you were home.<br />Not looking for someone else<br />faithful.<br />until you return.<br />Always.<br />In all ways.Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-33622056563835830832011-03-15T01:40:00.000-07:002011-03-19T19:20:18.666-07:00Love Letter #2<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiApNMT6WQN7kdfbJxR7yxkP07haXODYsyXN3kLcGG0wfXCG_O3OqWoIg2Oaid2QBmocdSkNuAaQboreHl28ikMZ4-RA6-UePR-72v_fRtdsfOh4HLAcVCT98ijJJ6VNQFoEgaXLvDi1ROU/s1600/IMG_0494.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiApNMT6WQN7kdfbJxR7yxkP07haXODYsyXN3kLcGG0wfXCG_O3OqWoIg2Oaid2QBmocdSkNuAaQboreHl28ikMZ4-RA6-UePR-72v_fRtdsfOh4HLAcVCT98ijJJ6VNQFoEgaXLvDi1ROU/s320/IMG_0494.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5584537780414272386" /></a><br /><br />Made it through the entire day without crying. <br />Now... alone in silence, <br />curled up with Curious Jorge on the sofa... <br />they come. <br />In droves. <br />Like spring rain. <br />Reminiscent of sitting on the restaurant balcony in Costa Rica <br />wishing you were here to share that moment. <br /><br />Aching... <br />to see your face. <br />Wishing.. <br />your lips were touching mind. <br />Knowing.. <br />that it won't be long but crying anyway.<br /><br />I never had any formal training<br />on how to love a mad man.<br />And yet...<br />if given the opportunity<br />I'll try.<br />Every day.<br />For all of our lives.<br />Get well soon.<br />I love you.<br /><br />Goodnight Moon.<br />Keep him safe until he returns home to me.Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-23354588451977230792010-11-17T09:18:00.001-08:002010-11-17T09:29:37.131-08:00Want to win a FREE autographed 8x10 or DVD?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3-xwyY2Ysov4skSWW7BILP89ywaakMCsI5UUX6apdbhpnwntXAY3hoS6anjqF4qUE2vKmXJaKAFCPBKakLkW4LsIefR06epW33LRUV5pFs11C4Z25gaLXK8UfWZoIflFggQ2tBB4731IM/s1600/35130_405665828314_602003314_4610608_7661269_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh3-xwyY2Ysov4skSWW7BILP89ywaakMCsI5UUX6apdbhpnwntXAY3hoS6anjqF4qUE2vKmXJaKAFCPBKakLkW4LsIefR06epW33LRUV5pFs11C4Z25gaLXK8UfWZoIflFggQ2tBB4731IM/s320/35130_405665828314_602003314_4610608_7661269_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5540569590746386770" /></a><br />I know I've been remiss in updating my blog, but I have an EXCELLENT reason this time... ;-) I recently joined the staff of http://TheWellVersed.com, a new lifestype and culture website! My new column, Life, Love and Sinn, an ode to my blog, was launched last Thursday and is doing quite well! I have big things planned, including some incredibly spotlight interviews with some amazing people to discuss the sexual politics around the world. My introductory article, <a href="http://thewellversed.com/2010/11/11/life-love-and-sinn-an-assumption-of-immortality/">An Assumption of Immorality,</a> has so far been well received by readers and my editor <a href="http://twitter.com/andreashale">@AndreasHale</a> seems pretty happy with me and the direction I'd like to go in with my column & interviews. That is always a good thing!<br /><br />I decided that to celebrate my new column, I'm going to do some do some giveaways! Email your Love, relationship or sex questions to me at <a href="emailto:asksinnamon@gmail.com">AskSinnamon@gmail.com</a> and if I answer your question on my column on The Well Versed I will send you an autographed 8X10 FREE! Each column, 1 lucky writer will also receive a FREE autographed DVD! :) Of course you MUST be over 18 years of age and able to receive semi-nude or nude photos and/or pornographic material in your area in order to win these prizes!<br /><br />Looking forward to all your questions!<br /><br />love, SinnSinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-81641818746650555962010-10-25T00:01:00.001-07:002010-10-25T00:01:46.773-07:00formspring.meAsk me anything <a href="http://formspring.me/SinnamonLove" target="_blank">http://formspring.me/SinnamonLove</a>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-56374526908329947902010-05-26T17:04:00.000-07:002010-05-26T18:30:15.551-07:00Bumps, Bruises and Beauty Along The WayIts been an amazing year so far. Many of you may not be aware, but while I am still very active in the adult video industry, I decided to focus on other aspects of my career this year, mainly my writing, touring with <a href="http://punanypoets.com">The Punany Poets</a> & guest lecturing at colleges. I'm certainly not retiring anytime soon, but I certainly and happy to have some of the opportunities I have had as I change directions in my career.<br /><br />On May 14th, I had a speaking engagement at Orange Coast College in Costa Mesa, CA as a guest lecturer. I appeared before a Human Sexuality class of 200+ students to speak about my life and career as a sex worker including my 16 years as an adult film star, fetish model, professional Dominatrix and escort. I presented an array of photos & video clips from throughout my career and discussed the varied facets of my life including maintaining intimate and familial relationships and delving deep into conversations about the fetish and BDSM industry. I also showed the students a recent <a href="http://youtube.com/watch?v=4xNzsTHA1nI">anti-piracy PSA</a> that I participated in with lots of other top names in the business including Ron Jeremy, Wicked Girls Kaylani Lei and Alectra Blue, Charlie Laine, Kimberly Kane, Joanna Angel and many, many others. The lecture was well received and I was able to share the lecture live <a href="http://www.ustream.tv/channel/Life-Love-and-Sinn">via UStream</a> with fans that wanted to peek in on what topics I cover on a college campus.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhERmjFusKQupyhFagB9ayGm-xvttTF4txdtkKdYSVHHwIVPvoHWQRz-Zk12wJmTaqJrgAh-H3wm44BM4-sRbBHmUp0n4TihMl97pLrR9yVCpZVjjj_xRkseNWiqBjsU51irw2d9oHgfoTN/s1600/51qq6QDwPGL._SS500_.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhERmjFusKQupyhFagB9ayGm-xvttTF4txdtkKdYSVHHwIVPvoHWQRz-Zk12wJmTaqJrgAh-H3wm44BM4-sRbBHmUp0n4TihMl97pLrR9yVCpZVjjj_xRkseNWiqBjsU51irw2d9oHgfoTN/s320/51qq6QDwPGL._SS500_.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475747129636602802" /></a>Earlier this week I did a phone interview with Lanie Spiezer, a writer for Penthouse who has written a couple of books and is working on her 3rd. This new coffee table book is titled, "100 Porn Star Confessions," (Quiver Books,) and features profiles, interviews, sex tips & photos on 100 top adult stars. I was thrilled to be a part of this project! I adore appearing in sexy mainstream projects - especially books that appear in outlets like Barnes and Noble. In the past I have appeared in photos in Christine Kessler's book <a href="http://amzn.com/393670922X">"Pervy Girls"</a> (Goliath Books,) and there was an entire chapter written about my life and career in Lawrence Ross' <a href="http://amzn.com/1560259132">"Money Shot"</a> (Running Press.) Last year some of my poetry was published in David Henry Sterry's anthology <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Hookers-Call-Girls-Rent-Boys/dp/1593762410/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&S=BOOKS&QID=1274922400&SR=1-1">"Ho's Hookers, Call Girls and Rent Boys,"</a> (Soft Skull Press.) <br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpqK7UfKCzhAEpD88VNEURihs4IZW2AfXKE7W0dQOvmgTe66xTcwvigHcAdOKDyeR0Rdh7dPhVFwd9I8BLUuuptBv0m94Xypj4P0u4orX08IqNJr4h3jrJIjYxeFKu_UN-wLkbB0r6172Z/s1600/51w0+0zfoJL._SL500_AA300_.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpqK7UfKCzhAEpD88VNEURihs4IZW2AfXKE7W0dQOvmgTe66xTcwvigHcAdOKDyeR0Rdh7dPhVFwd9I8BLUuuptBv0m94Xypj4P0u4orX08IqNJr4h3jrJIjYxeFKu_UN-wLkbB0r6172Z/s320/51w0+0zfoJL._SL500_AA300_.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475750333786643634" /></a><br /><center><a href="http://amzn.com/1560259132">"Click here to purchase a copy of Money Shot"</a></center><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0JY5UQEJzunHvjRgSH4mhtJRGeqvnyidhetswEP-6hHafEh9NhuAijtA5AABFub8I4thRhgEV2Wmwrisr9ehwA7iRZQ-EXL1YlvtiBPHUAKWhzJccah5jwNEtrk6yhmLavQ_EO2B7EU9T/s1600/51kCYDCb4kL._BO2,204,203,200_PIsitb-sticker-arrow-click,TopRight,35,-76_AA300_SH20_OU01_.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0JY5UQEJzunHvjRgSH4mhtJRGeqvnyidhetswEP-6hHafEh9NhuAijtA5AABFub8I4thRhgEV2Wmwrisr9ehwA7iRZQ-EXL1YlvtiBPHUAKWhzJccah5jwNEtrk6yhmLavQ_EO2B7EU9T/s320/51kCYDCb4kL._BO2,204,203,200_PIsitb-sticker-arrow-click,TopRight,35,-76_AA300_SH20_OU01_.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475750562412849570" /></a><br /><center> <a href="http://www.amazon.com/Hookers-Call-Girls-Rent-Boys/dp/1593762410/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&S=BOOKS&QID=1274922400&SR=1-1">"Click here to purchase a copy of Ho's, Hookers, Call Girls & Rent Boys"</a></center><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3qFP2vFgtOP6DYtXXCjDcq_MsuUA3ITr2Simjbfl0Ka_qyamxhg1FBYWyBel5ZsfEIdrO_R9WlPQtAk5kVKC_M-9LVhgG0QoWqznGxwJWJCqCLZAHruZWL858F1EKN_P2cZlWSFso-krg/s1600/redman_small.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 189px; height: 247px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3qFP2vFgtOP6DYtXXCjDcq_MsuUA3ITr2Simjbfl0Ka_qyamxhg1FBYWyBel5ZsfEIdrO_R9WlPQtAk5kVKC_M-9LVhgG0QoWqznGxwJWJCqCLZAHruZWL858F1EKN_P2cZlWSFso-krg/s320/redman_small.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475751548542850578" /></a>Having my writing published certainly isn't new to me... for years I wrote for print magazines such as the now defunct Black Mystique and the Hip-Hop/ Porn Publication Fish N' Grits. I also conducted interviews for Mainstream Hip Hop website HipHopDX.com with Phonte' from Little Brother & Dilated Peoples. I must admit however, receiving a hard copy of a published book is something else. I remember in the 5th grade, our end of the year English project was to co-author a story with a partner and illustrate it. Our finished projects were bound and laminated and placed in the school library. That first taste of blood was all it took to get me hooked and want to see more of my writing in print.<br /><br />My only real resolution this year was to truly focus more on my writing. I have been hastily trying to complete my book on Relationships with Sex Workers titled, "How to Love a Whore." With a bit more research to go, I am hoping to complete it by the summer. I am also working on a separate project on Sex Work & Parenting. I have submitted an abstract to offer a seminar on the topic at the Scarlet Alliance Sex Worker Conference in Sydney, Australia in November, 2010. Much of the research I am doing at present has not never really been pursued before... so the writing is taking longer than previously thought as I want to not only pull from my own experiences but the experiences of other as well, both good and bad.<br /><br />Yesterday's panel at UCSB was presented by the Feminist Studies Dept., The Women's Studies Department and The Film Studies Department. The panel was titled, "Race and Desire: Black Actors in Adult Film," and featured myself, Vanessa Blue and Tyler Knight. We discussed everything from fetish and BDSM in ethnic themed videos to White female performers that "don't do interracial scenes with Black males" or charge a higher fee for it. We answered questions about how we navigate the adult industry within the confines of discretionary racism to how I respond to feminists that question the image of the female submissive in BDSM. The talk was not only amazing but my conversation with a Doctoral student in religious studies who did his Master's at Harvard regarding how he discusses sex and sexuality within marriage with parishioners and those he counsels.<br /><br />The absolute best part of the entire trip was dinner after at this wonderful bistro. A glass of Malbec and a honey glazed duck with a chambord sauce and I found myself deep in conversations about Octavia Butler's Wild Seed, Sexual Identity vs. Sexual Preference and Singular pronouns for GenderQueer people that prefer the terms "they/ their" over "He" or "She." I love intelligent, stimulating conversation. I left the dinner feeling inspired and anxious to finish my research and my book.<br /><br />This week's appearances will be rounded out with a live stage appearance with The Punany Poets right here in Los Angeles. We will perform at a small theater in the NOHO Arts District of the San Fernando Valley. I love doing these cabaret style shows. The way we sling our erotic poetry and sex education in scantily clad outfits and verbal orgies on stage with our audience members... it is truly charged and enticing. I truly enjoy giving lap dances in a room full of watchful eyes, the volunteers always blush then get completely into it. We always introduce a sober moment in the show where I discuss HIV statistics in urban communities and test a volunteer from the audience using the OraQuick HIV test, (the only FDA approved oral swab for HIV,) to show how easy it is to not only get tested, but to have the conversation with a partner about getting tested. I have been working with The Know Now Organization, a mobile HIV testing company that can come to your home, hotel or place of business and test you and your partner, for a couple of years now. I've attended swinger's events and porn conventions with the group, spreading the message of the importance of HIV testing. Being asked to join the cast of the Punany Poets was such a nature fit for me. I would be able to perform my poetry, interact with my fans on stage and spread the message of safer sex practices and some kinky sex tips along the way. <br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSZRcI-_c8scDQcV3sIzHaVDgJdNWO7ECFDrk0ork7NcKPCWPicE-SEcmKE4DJ6oF39J7QBcdlaH4RjVjoWhzuvk2vQG0WBFLCa6CU8vT1AJIMr36LzqIGj5SzeBz9s7fu8KzpqA3ijeZQ/s1600/21575_516100680845_290400444_609413_7025881_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 180px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiSZRcI-_c8scDQcV3sIzHaVDgJdNWO7ECFDrk0ork7NcKPCWPicE-SEcmKE4DJ6oF39J7QBcdlaH4RjVjoWhzuvk2vQG0WBFLCa6CU8vT1AJIMr36LzqIGj5SzeBz9s7fu8KzpqA3ijeZQ/s320/21575_516100680845_290400444_609413_7025881_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475752112225387186" /></a>So far this year, I have performed with The Punany Poets on Stage in Miami, DC, Detroit and even performing 2 shows off Broadway in NYC. I love being on stage in front of a large group of people. What few people know is that during high school I was cast as the wood nymph Phoebe in Shakespeare's "As You Like It," and actually won 2nd place in a Shakesperean Festival at Cal Poly Pomona for the role. I continued to act for a short period of time through college, but it was never my passion. I did however LOVE performing in oratorical competitions. The first time I performed "Phenomenal Woman," by Maya Angelou in front of a crowd of people, I felt the rush. I never experienced that feeling again until the first time I stepped on stage in Miami with The Punany Poets for the first time. The theater we performed in was huge... and our sold out crowd was so supportive. I overcame my nervous energy and pushed forward and received a standing ovation at the end of the show. I felt SO good when it was over... I've been getting paid for doing something I love for 17 years now... and this was a perfect transition in my life.<br /><br />I love the way this year is playing out. There have been bumps along the way but overall, the first half of the year has been, overall, just right. :)<br /><br />One of those little bumps is my old car deciding to finally take a shit. Yesterday something to do with the crank shaft blew a hole in my engine. So yeah... time to buy a new car. But considering all the positives in my life right now, I can be without a car for a few days. :)<br /><br />SinnSinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-41737836486936634192010-02-08T21:21:00.000-08:002010-04-07T22:40:54.535-07:00Blog 354: 2009 DVD Inventory Clearance Sale!Not to sound like a used car salesman, but I have SO much inventory left over from 2009 that I really need to make way for new merch! As a result, I am selling off my DVDs for only $20 and BluRays for $40 plus shipping and handling! Shipping will be and additional $10 for up to 2 DVDs.<br /><br />*You MUST be over the age of 18 & must be prepared to email me a scanned copy of your state ID or Driver's License. Payment will be via Paypal to sinnamon.love@gmail.com as a GIFT not for a product or service due to their disdain for adult products.<br /><br />Thanks!<br />Sinnamon Love<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiF1ERKGQpck__R-WU8UfWYVGa5QpWAhMj36P5ruWYBFeOg_wFE8nk75q3WXTciJwPR3BJ2nov0uyYrCKTguNUoo0PXzy_lb7pdcLSQ00jdoxP3rV2TUuCMACxuS5otDITmYT3ZYGOTNlmp/s1600-h/246869new.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 224px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiF1ERKGQpck__R-WU8UfWYVGa5QpWAhMj36P5ruWYBFeOg_wFE8nk75q3WXTciJwPR3BJ2nov0uyYrCKTguNUoo0PXzy_lb7pdcLSQ00jdoxP3rV2TUuCMACxuS5otDITmYT3ZYGOTNlmp/s320/246869new.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436111140016999602" /></a><br /><center>Phatty Girls 6 - A classic scene with myself & Justin Slayer (3 DVD copies available!)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVqE4-JiRJco0AHDo6jDNpZHthaXr3HOa4_U1bKEz0ZqYfLL4aD8TaV7XaXWJ-Tdl-N9TEVgL__EesxbuAZ3ugYzQ3qjyXcksFVPkAofhvXrDWRYpsIBv0BGtuDXKKR_XLegxADxmMQZwn/s1600-h/270399.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 222px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVqE4-JiRJco0AHDo6jDNpZHthaXr3HOa4_U1bKEz0ZqYfLL4aD8TaV7XaXWJ-Tdl-N9TEVgL__EesxbuAZ3ugYzQ3qjyXcksFVPkAofhvXrDWRYpsIBv0BGtuDXKKR_XLegxADxmMQZwn/s320/270399.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436111508093114530" /></a><br /><center>Dymes #5 - a hot & dirty scene with myself, Tyler Knight & Ms. Goddess (3 DVD copies available!)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisUToVOE7WxW3vuHNffHEezYUbchyphenhyphenAlA0zNAAXLjT_VA443eOY6P8TiOb1KJX3eXwgOdseztSw4s_Tw5lthmFgkb0PPyIjQjFVSpzGARoJ42_1JNb3J8j0xSH6JyG4GxrQt4jT1H6ZYJkO/s1600-h/279676new.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 224px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisUToVOE7WxW3vuHNffHEezYUbchyphenhyphenAlA0zNAAXLjT_VA443eOY6P8TiOb1KJX3eXwgOdseztSw4s_Tw5lthmFgkb0PPyIjQjFVSpzGARoJ42_1JNb3J8j0xSH6JyG4GxrQt4jT1H6ZYJkO/s320/279676new.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436111930524684002" /></a><br /><center>America's Got Ass - A great interracial boy/girl/girl scene with lots of anal & ass licking! (2 DVD copies available!)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhNjbcB0RPCAdgPrC2s7sfw6ngBILwfnAuLe8_7ZveLB7phfD7ffjDOBOTeud0GjhDh2s-USsy0gYrW4VSCja5NUbwDyYio1cB0M1_rtEGqLe-JfAhHGZ0olZHHswSnc-8M1SHM2mW0YvX/s1600-h/289051.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 228px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhNjbcB0RPCAdgPrC2s7sfw6ngBILwfnAuLe8_7ZveLB7phfD7ffjDOBOTeud0GjhDh2s-USsy0gYrW4VSCja5NUbwDyYio1cB0M1_rtEGqLe-JfAhHGZ0olZHHswSnc-8M1SHM2mW0YvX/s320/289051.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436112399069742386" /></a><br /><center>Chocolate MILF (5 DVD copies available!)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjE5U6Whx0xqfD0kA_LzNAvGfEpYPQ8rEqYGVOJH-C2T4tIaEDESHw9THtqqm-i5pKtnDLnGPjcTne5_pROt67eLlH_oouwPsGJl2SiVhqkNj5X8_xKDi1fg4-OZI6KZguD09QnDYTatp8k/s1600-h/290043.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 223px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjE5U6Whx0xqfD0kA_LzNAvGfEpYPQ8rEqYGVOJH-C2T4tIaEDESHw9THtqqm-i5pKtnDLnGPjcTne5_pROt67eLlH_oouwPsGJl2SiVhqkNj5X8_xKDi1fg4-OZI6KZguD09QnDYTatp8k/s320/290043.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436112654500093058" /></a><br /><center>Bootyful View - My first encounter with sexy Black Frenchman Jean Claude Batiste (13 DVD copies available)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyPixcia2_0q9Bkpbd6flw6gWpdqX71QO1WpEVLGhSFujatatoBc4gPE3xLKzyVQuww3kYhAb8Vs9vOK_ODO4MJFBTExu_nWE7gO6ffhPVxnmrlDsI9-N_ODyBcJbj2hUIewr3PzGavu4z/s1600-h/294541.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 224px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyPixcia2_0q9Bkpbd6flw6gWpdqX71QO1WpEVLGhSFujatatoBc4gPE3xLKzyVQuww3kYhAb8Vs9vOK_ODO4MJFBTExu_nWE7gO6ffhPVxnmrlDsI9-N_ODyBcJbj2hUIewr3PzGavu4z/s320/294541.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436113273034471122" /></a><br /><center>Desperate Blackwives 4 (6 DVD copies available!)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmLahvV7MznZriWbq1MdJu1BJvembGnl5yJPlvoPolXdR-6Vph2CFsfTN23nAaLdNWKAeyGDLgZszUc9aCt8fWNYTo7ouUmwZOuVBs7UZ3vKcZmoF7PF3J9UNVqDYsWCf0fUoc2v_FOPux/s1600-h/295744new.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 221px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmLahvV7MznZriWbq1MdJu1BJvembGnl5yJPlvoPolXdR-6Vph2CFsfTN23nAaLdNWKAeyGDLgZszUc9aCt8fWNYTo7ouUmwZOuVBs7UZ3vKcZmoF7PF3J9UNVqDYsWCf0fUoc2v_FOPux/s320/295744new.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436113489655741522" /></a><br /><center>Chocolate MILF 3 (BluRay Only - 3 copies available)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgE_464ZiZ34j3yiDaAU7yd6umGutBENzoGZrwLI_VcrEqR-gDt2qyEBXTwHlkR2kyYsLZyiIOJOUVbrNdKdQwt-iDvSXsE5HHfDuNfRNzU1vhxef9R-yycu1ylntW2EvnmtmbWrkYzohql/s1600-h/298759new.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 221px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgE_464ZiZ34j3yiDaAU7yd6umGutBENzoGZrwLI_VcrEqR-gDt2qyEBXTwHlkR2kyYsLZyiIOJOUVbrNdKdQwt-iDvSXsE5HHfDuNfRNzU1vhxef9R-yycu1ylntW2EvnmtmbWrkYzohql/s320/298759new.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436113697584912674" /></a><br /><center>Sista 25 (3 BluRays & 3 DVDs available!)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvP7LSs99gJKWdQK26DeH116I5PI2Bg6308LGKas77ivuRjtdSEuDlNGfW6KuqlvvpDjZMUepvBfCuH9QyYl9555OAdVn7v8_SVwBKA4RFX3f2u_kj-mL5dR9UkT2o1SZuOw-wRWPlUgxT/s1600-h/301727.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 228px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvP7LSs99gJKWdQK26DeH116I5PI2Bg6308LGKas77ivuRjtdSEuDlNGfW6KuqlvvpDjZMUepvBfCuH9QyYl9555OAdVn7v8_SVwBKA4RFX3f2u_kj-mL5dR9UkT2o1SZuOw-wRWPlUgxT/s320/301727.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436113940561584994" /></a><br /><center>Chemistry 4 (6 DVD copies available)</center><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmib6HhvEznKarq5OBB6x6-QWJ5NBpvRsITH0zJLg8b8iTYm1DgmROVuzIc_z_HmYlF5-eVDhLYoB9rfsRO8KlCbX6ZGCEoSK_Y4vf00J9a0ZFXFjzrLauAUfQHW6NbpmQehf8EwfzQDBT/s1600-h/325771-1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 218px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmib6HhvEznKarq5OBB6x6-QWJ5NBpvRsITH0zJLg8b8iTYm1DgmROVuzIc_z_HmYlF5-eVDhLYoB9rfsRO8KlCbX6ZGCEoSK_Y4vf00J9a0ZFXFjzrLauAUfQHW6NbpmQehf8EwfzQDBT/s320/325771-1.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5436114210313646450" /></a><br /><center>Big Black Creamy Tits 3 (5 DVD copies available)</center><br /><br />Check back shortly for Magazines and Fetish Videos for sale!!!<br /><br />X's & O's,<br />Sinnamon LoveSinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-22796429863183603082010-01-13T12:51:00.000-08:002010-04-07T22:40:35.036-07:00Blog 353: Watch me LIVE on NaughtyAmerica today!Be sure to watch me live today on Live Naughty Gym Cam at 1pm PST: <a href+"http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTY0NzkzOjQ6OA/live_chat/live_gym_cam/">http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTY0NzkzOjQ6OA/live_chat/live_gym_cam/</a><br /><br />And on Live Naughty MILF at 4pm PST: <br /><a href="http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTYONzkojq60a/live_chat/live_naughty_milf/">http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTY0NzkzOjQ6OA/live_chat/live_naughty_milf/</a><br /><br />I love gettng naked and playing with my fans for NaughtyAmerica and today I get to work out in the gym while I do it! Be sure to check out my super tiny TERRY CLOTH SHORTS TODAY!<br /><br />:) SinnSinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7328119901899304824.post-67039452036536984152009-12-30T02:16:00.000-08:002010-04-07T22:39:44.843-07:00Blog 352: New Year, New Directions...In less that 24 hours, I will turn 36. Yes, my birthday is fastly approaching. There have been lots of things happening the last 2 months, and honestly, I don't know how I've been able to remain relatively calm about most of it. I'm not quite ready to reveal all that has been on my mind and heart... but I will say this.. lots of changes are coming in the new year.<br /><br />I've never been big on resolutions.. not since I was a little girl... But I have been one to make decisions about my life and the direction I want it to go in. This year is no different. Not one to let the start of the new year influence my changes, I instead mark changes in my life as I turn a year older every year. It just so happens that my birthday, New Year's Eve, happens to be not only the biggest party day of the year, but the benchmark for the last hurrah before most people go diets and exercise programs and make most life-altering decisions that they don't keep up with after long. For me, changes come with age and expectations I have for myself at various points in my life... or just, when I've tired of things being the way they are...<br /><br />In the coming year, I hope to restructure lots of things in life including the way I conduct my business, the way I handle my relationships and the amount of accessibility I give others to my life. This doesn't mean I'm cutting back... in fact, I think I will probably let people in even more. I think its time. There are things I've held back for so long, that I can think of no better way to free myself from the shackles that bind me, that to purge publicly... but not today.<br /><br /><a href="http://members.sinnamonlove.com/index.php?module=blog&command=view&id=1932">Read More</a>Sinnamon Lovehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11766020982898598255noreply@blogger.com0