Life, Love and Sinn

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2011-12-11T20:31:00.001-08:00

Ask me questions about music. http://www.formspring.me/SinnamonLove

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2011-12-01T15:17:00.001-08:00

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Yoga as a Way Towards World (Female,) Domination

2011-09-19T22:41:00.000-07:00

What an amazing day... started the day off with continuing my quest to clean out and organize my over-stuffed email inbox then ventured into Manhattan, armed with yoga mat and a copy of The Perfection of Yoga and made my way to Bikram Yoga for an intense, sweaty 90 minutes of bliss. During my practice, I noticed a few things;

1) my hips are super tight,
2) I'm not nearly as flexible as I was about 6 years ago,
3) my balance is off
4) the right side of my body is off kilter more than my left and
5) I don't nearly sweat as much as other people. :)

I couldn't help but think afterwards how I wished a slave were waiting for me at the dungeon to smell my smelly armpits and ass drenched in sweat. :) Instead, my 6pm session was stuck on the train for over an hour due to a water main that broke; flooding the tracks and shutting down several train lines. No matter, I was able to hang with my girl Bossy Delilah at the dungeon and furthered my quest to break through more emails. Back on the still crowded train toward Brooklyn, when I emerged from the subway, a gentleman tapped me on the shoulder and said, "Excuse me, miss?" I turned and he smiled, "I'm a big fan of your work..." and kept it moving. I love it here. :)

Oh, Did I mention I'll be in D.C. on Wednesday for 1 day only taking FemDom sessions? No? Oh... Yeah. That. Email non-explicit details of your kink & be prepared to send a deposit to secure a time slot for your session.

Namaste'. :) Peace out.

~*~ Sinny ~*~
aka Miss Love (if you're kinky.)

Not a Love Letter #1

2011-08-29T02:16:00.000-07:00

"Be Still My Beating Heart" - Sting

"Be still my beating heart
It would be better to be cool
It's not time to be open just yet
A lesson once learned is so hard to forget
Be still my beating heart
Or I'll be taken for a fool
It's not healthy to run at this pace
The blood runs so red to my face
I've been to every single book I know
To soothe the thoughts that plague me so

I sink like a stone that's been thrown in the ocean
My logic has drowned in a sea of emotion
Stop before you start
Be still my beating heart

Restore my broken dreams
Shattered like a falling glass
I'm not ready to be broken just yet
A lesson once learned is so hard to forget

Be still my beating heart
You must learn to stand your ground
It's not healthy to run at this pace
The blood runs so red to my face
I've been to every single book I know
To soothe the thoughts that plague me so

Stop before you start
Be still my beating heart

Never to be wrong
Never to make promises that break
It's like singing in the wind
Or writing on the surface of a lake
And I wriggle like a fish caught on dry land
And I struggle to avoid any help at hand

I sink like a stone that's been thrown in the ocean
My logic has drowned in a sea of emotion
Stop before you start
Be still my beating heart"

5 am and here I am...
headphones in my ear listening to this track on repeat.
I'm rarely one for remakes of classic songs...
Especially being a 70s baby and having very intimate memories of the originals.
This one however not only does it justice...
It helps me relate in a way that Sting's version didn't.
Through Nikki Jean's voice I hear my own..
Once naive and vulnerable...
Finding my way through rebounds trying not to carry baggage from one relationship into the next.
Perhaps more well known than my wet blowjobs on television screens
I am best known for saying,

"I will not hold a man responsible for the mistakes of those that have come before him... Instead, I'll hold each man responsible for his own fuck-ups."

In doing this, I allow myself to feel whatever I feel.
I let myself experience whatever moment is there...
Fully, completely, and without shame or fear.
Because if it doesn't work out?
There are tons of other fish in the sea.

I've never been one to walk up to a velvet rope and demand star treatment on some,

"Do you know who I am?!?!"

type shit... Even though I could... Because hell, I'm legendary...
But instead, I stay humble.
However, in relationships I'm a little different...
Because I know I'm the shit.
Fortunately for me,
I had good home training.

I've always been the girl with lots of guy friends.
I hear what they complain about...
Chicks that can't cook their way out of a cardboard box
Chicks that keep a filthy house
Chicks that don't raise their kids
Chicks that know the lastest pop artist's favorite color
But don't know who Qaddafi is.
Or What the Middle Passage was
Or that they are a part of the African Diaspora...

And worse...

Act like their are too good to rub their man's shoulders
after a long day.
Or argue with him over some chick whose ass he happened to glance at walking down the street
Even though he's holding her hand...
Or tell him he ain't shit because he's struggling to find a job
Even though he's college educated
and goes out every day looking
and not just...
sitting on the sofa smoking weed and playing video games.

Yeah... I'm not that girl.

I'm the one that will fall asleep on the sofa waiting for him to come home from work at 2am and make him a hot meal...
And bring home my pay check so we can take care of "Us" because I know there's no "I" in "Team."
I'm the woman that will admire the hot ass walking by with my man
and can carry on a conversation about world affairs and introduce my man to artists that never get played on the radio...

I'm not the one trying to rush a man to the alter
Or trap him with a baby...
Or tell him he ain't shit because I know that unemployment is at an all time high
and that shit isn't about to change overnight just because we have a Black President.
I'm the woman that will make dinner every night so we can not only balance our budget but insure the health of the family that I was blessed by the universe to care for...
I'm the woman that will make his grandmother's chicken soup when he's ill
and call his mother when I have done the best I can
and shed so many tears that they can be measured on a scale.

In short... I'm every man's fantasy...
And not just because I spread my legs on screen.

So when the time comes and I move on... I move on.
I'm not here to play games.

I haven't been single since 1989 and for a good reason
Good women are hard to find.
Most men are smart...
When they find a woman that
cooks and cleans and displays intellect
and cares for family and community
and Him...
And is willing to give him what he needs emotionally
and satisfies his desires in the bedroom...

They grab hold of her and lock her down with the quickness.

For the first time in a long time I find myself single.
I have shared much of my romance with "J" over the last 2 years,
and my relationship with "Jax" for the two years prior,
and before that my on-going love affair with "myLove,"
and various other suitors with my fans online.
Never before have so many of you become so involved in my love life before.
Perhaps the advent of twitter allowing you into our home
so that you could experience our highs, lows, love and pain alongside us
has given you all a vested interest in our lives together.

Before anyone asks... I don't hate him.
He doesn't hate me...
We still love one another very, very much...
but at this time, we need to pursue other paths in life.

Its ironic... I don't remember the last time a relationship ended because the other person broke up with me...
and yet it always pains me so much to end something that has meant so much to me.
When I broke up with J last month...
I cried for days...
I love him that much but I realized its time to move on...
at least for now.
Up until yesterday we have only spoken by text or IM because speaking by voice was just so painful we'd merely start arguing. Its my hope that one day we make our way back to baseline.

That may never happen because as in true form...

I've already started seeing someone new.

And a significant person from my past has resurfaced.

Oh... and the first woman I ever fell for has popped up as well...

"The sharks can smell always smell blood when there's a wounded fish in the water..."

As for this someone new...
He's almost perfect for me on paper.
He's 44, from Brooklyn, educated, with a dry wit and an intense love for hip hop. He takes care of his mother, doesn't have any children - but wants them. Never married, but wants to before having children. He's spiritual, civic minded and is a huge Sinnamon Love fan.

And there's the crux.
I don't date fans.
You never know where they are coming from...
And we are definitely dating.
Definitely.

Ugh and Grr...

I've rationalized that if I allow myself to just enjoy it and not think too much about it then it will be fine...
But I think to much
And I'm still in love with another man
And the new guy...
well I think he underestimates the potential impact that who I am could have on who he is...
So I withhold
and pull-back
and resist...

And he seems to want to delve deeper..
And so I open up a little more...
And let him refer to us as a "relationship" and "friendship"
in separate terms and yet at the same time...
Until that moment when he reminds me that
I was never supposed to move to New York
And makes me wonder if he's scared
or confused
or worried that I may be placing expectations that he isn't ready for...
Even though...
He's the one that hunted me...

And so.. I recoil.
Still fragile from ending a relationship that I thought would last forever
I be still my beating heart...
Before I'm taken for a fool...
Because I'm not ready to be that open again.
I'm so easily convinced to fall...
But I don't want to get hurt.
I learned my lessons from the last relationship
so as to not make the same mistakes in the next one.

I think he thinks that I want more than I want right at this moment...
When what I really want is his warm body next to mine
His strong hands clasping mine while he whispers in my ear...
His, expert fingertips running through my hair
and tracing my face and committing it to memory...
His tongue exploring my mouth...

I want him to make me think its real...
even if for a few moments so I can forget that I'm still in love with someone else...
I want him to fall so madly for me that I have no choice but to follow suit...
Even if for a few hours.

I just want to feel free to be myself with him
I want him to be a substitute for the man I love for a little while
until I get over the pain so I won't feel weak and go back to him...

The bad part is...
I really like this guy.
He knows it
J knows it...

And that's dangerous.

"I sink like a stone that's been thrown in the ocean
My logic has drowned in a sea of emotion"

The hunted is trying not to be prey...

"Stop before you start"

Take a deep breath Sinn...

"Be still my beating heart"

I'd love to imagine something more with this guy...
but I'm still trying to figure out his angle.
Until I can..
or he adequately convinces me that he really just wants me..
for no other reason than he can't imagine not having me
I think I'm going to take that breather
Because I tried responding in kind to his advances..
and now I feel like he's confused.

And I refuse to give chase.

"Don't you know who I am? I'm Sinnamon Love...

Here's one for my cyber stalker

2011-05-29T08:14:00.001-07:00

Fuck you.

Back to Wellness

2011-05-11T14:21:00.000-07:00

I have always been very open about my battle with Ovarian Cancer and the multiple surgeries that I have endured. What a lot of people don't know is that I have dealt with chronic neck, back and shoulder pain as well for as long as I can remember.

When I was 14, I was in a horrific car accident. What I was told when I woke up in the hospital, is that a drunk driver, driving a semi-truck, came barreling down a hill and hit the car I was sitting in head on. I hit the wind shield, and it was impossible for a skin graft to be done on my forehead as there was nothing to graft it to. I had to wait for it to regenerate naturally. The scars I was left with are easily covered with makeup and don't bother me, but I can still pin point the spot where the doctors could not remove glass that was buried deep. To me, its merely a piece of my childhood, no different than a scrape on the knee from learning to ride a bike. After the accident I underwent physical therapy, but to me it was nothing more than getting in a whirlpool and getting a massage The bare minimal was done to satisfy the lawyers that needed to sue this guy's insurance company. Years later I was in another, far less intense car accident, where a little old lady side swiped my car. It was totaled, but I got out of the car through the window and was perfectly fine... except that I developed massive anxiety and refused to get behind the wheel of a car for 10 years.

I dealt with my anxiety years ago through therapy, but one thing that remained was the chronic pain from the accidents. For the longest, I saw the most amazing Chiropractor in Beverly Hills. Dr Ty Essiegian is absolutely amazing. His reasonable pricing and jovial bedside manner allowed me to get past my fear of adjustment and start experiencing relief from constant aches and pains. Ty was the first doctor to tell me that what we had always called being "double-jointed" when I was a kid was actually hyper-mobility in my joints. He explained that the shoulder pain I was feeling and the pain in my neck was primarily due to my shoulders being slightly dislocated out of socket. I remember the first time Ty reset my right shoulder... it hurt so much I cried but the relief afterwards was amazing. He recommended that I seek physical therapy for my shoulder so I could prevent my rotator cuff from tearing later on down the line When I left LA for the Valley, distance and time made it more difficult to see Ty, so for the last 7 years I've received fewer adjustments even though my pain still persists.

Recently, I came to realize that not only was my pain increasing, but my shoulders hurt so badly that I could not practice certain yoga postures as I simply couldn't put pressure on my arms or shoulders without extreme pain. As my arms started getting weaker, I found myself exercises less. I have spoken to several personal trainers that simply don't know how to rehab an injury such as mine safely. This began my hunt for someone more qualified.

Yesterday, I started treatment at a wellness center that offers chiropractic, acupuncture, physical therapy, pilates and massage. My session yesterday with the chiropractor brought some relief; I have more range of motion in my neck now and the massage certainly left me a bit sore much of today. The doctor created a treatment plan that includes chiropractic adjustments and massage along with 3-4 pilates sessions to start to begin to strengthen my core and begin to heal my shoulder. He also recommended a consult with the staff acupuncturist, to address not only my pain but other health issues such as my chronic allergies & bronchitis amongst other things. He feels that for now there is no reason to add a consult with the physical therapist but will re-evaluate later if we need to add her input.

I'm so excited to have found someplace that offers such holistic full body care. I'm back on Friday with the Chiropractor and Monday with the Acupuncturist for his treatment plan which may include herbs in addition to needles. Of course, my insurance doesn't cover treatment and its not cheap. I'm not asking for donations, but if you see something on one of my auctions, or want to book a cam show let me know. :) And yes, if you'd like to donate towards treatment let me know and I'll provide you with info on how you can help.

Thanks all!

Sinn

Love Letter #13: Perhaps...

2011-04-21T02:38:00.000-07:00

my love for you is stronger than i ever imagined.
perhaps God intended it to be that way.
for you and i to meet
and fall in love
unexpectedly
unabashedly
untainted...
so that we would know how deep our love could go.
perhaps...
God knew the struggles that would come along the way
and knew we needed one another
to lean against in times of strife
so we would have the strength
and resolve to fight
not just for ourselves
but for one another.
perhaps...
God saw this man and this woman
each with troubled pasts
each with similar vices
each with the desire for change
and the need for love
and directed us to one another.
I was never supposed to be in Miami that weekend
but I'm glad I was.
i needed to meet a man
that would be attracted to me physically
want to engage me sexually
learn my mind and respect me
hear my past and hold me
see my heart and love me
and God sent me you.
its amazing that through all this...
we are still fighting to hold on
out of love
not anger
or hate
or fear...
but because we both see the value
in what God has given us.

In the past I've often fought the gifts God laid before me. Afraid and angry after all the pain life brings. I am so grateful for this life I've been given, and recognize that he has brought me someone that truly loves me for me. All of me. Warts and all. Thank you for taking a walk with me last night. I love you J. Always. In all ways. Warts and all. :)

Love Letter #12: What You Won't Do For Love - Bobby Caldwell

2011-04-19T08:20:00.000-07:00

"I guess you wonder where I've been
I searched to find a love within
I came back to let you know
Got a thing for you and I can't let go

My friends wonder what is wrong with me
Well I'm in a daze from your love, you see
I came back to let you know
Got a thing for you and I can't let go

Some people go around the world for love
But they may never find what they dream of
What you won't do, do for love
You've tried everything but you don't give up
In my world only you makes me do
For love what I would not do

But then I only want the best it's true
They can't believe the things I do for you
What you won't do, do for love
You've tried everything but you don't give up
In my world, only you makes me do
For love what I would not do
Makes me do for love what I would not do"

Love Letter #11: Bob marley "no woman no cry" 1979

2011-04-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

I swear. Yesterday was tears because I missed you. Today I have no tears despite listening to your heart bleed. When you figure it out, let me know..."don't worry, everything's gonna be alright."

Love Letter #10

2011-04-10T20:03:00.000-07:00

smh.

my heart just breaks in silence.
patience has never been my friend.
i'm hurting and no one understands why.
love is the hardest mountain to climb.
in his absence
my heart acts as though its forgotten how to pump blood
and my lungs deflate from lack of air.
i try...
but can't seem to catch my breath.
i fill my minutes with busy work
so the devil can't take my hands
but all i seem to think of
is counting the seconds
until he holds me tightly in his arms
and kisses away the tears
that streak my face like war paint.
i wish he could understand
the pain his absence brings
the heartache that i endure
just listening to his sweet words
on the other end of the phone line.
i long for the look in his eyes
that tell me i'm the only woman
that's ever loved him
the way that he loved them back.
i miss the way he laughs
and holds me when i'm lost
and brings me back to life
when illness has taken me down.
he encourages a part of me
that no one ever has.
and i miss that...
more than anything...
right now.

Love Letter #9: Nicki Minaj - Moment 4 Life (MTV Version) ft. Drake

2011-04-01T13:21:00.000-07:00

Every time I hear this song on the radio I think of you... Instantly, I see flashes in my head of you driving along the beach next to me, jazz playing in the car, you turn and smile at me knowing that its my favorite genre and just what I need to hear. :) I see you standing in your tuxedo on my birthday... tears in my eyes as Beyonce sings so her man can grab a glass. I see all the moments we've shared in our life together. Its been an amazing ride so far.. I can't wait to see what the next 2 years will bring. I love you.

Love Letter #8: The Family - River Run Dry

2011-04-01T01:31:00.000-07:00

"How long I cry till the river run dry?

U used 2 see me
But U don't see me no more
U used 2 touch me
But U don't touch me no more

Our love affair I thought would be
6 4evers and a week
Stick pin jab in the middle of a dream
No love at the end of the rainbow

300 tears crystaline
Each one contaning a memory it seems
Stick pin jab in the middle of a dream
No love at the end of the rainbow"

Love Letter #7: Prince - And God Created Woman

2011-04-01T00:09:00.000-07:00

"In a deep sleep I fell
And the music starts 2 swell
One of my ribs He took and it shall be
Bone of my bones (bone of my bones)
And God created woman
And we were naked and did not care
There's a time 2 take and a time 2 share
2 in love, all around and all aware
Flesh of my flesh (flesh of my flesh)
And God created woman

Temptation sweet and so much (sweet and so much)
Surely die if neither one of us shall ye touch
(shall ye touch)
Then again we could die from the rush (rush)
Heart of my heart (heart of my heart)
And God created woman (woman)

Woman
My-my-my-my-my-my woman

In my darkest hour I find
Many serpents who have lied (lied)
Given half the chance still I'd run 2 your side
(run 2 your side)
Love of my love (love of my love)
And God created woman (woman)

And if I never see u again
It's alright 4 I am guilty of no sin
They can have u, I'll have your love in the end
Soul of my soul (soul of my soul)
And God created woman

(God created woman)
(God created woman) (woman)
Flesh of my flesh
(God created woman) (soul)
(God created, God created woman)
(God created, God created woman)"

Love Letter #6: Look into your Heart (Sparkle)

2011-03-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

Dear J,

Remember this?

"If you look into your heart
With a positive mind
Take some inventory
of your woman and your glory
Leave the bad things behind (ooh)
Everybodys got a story (yes they do)
About love and the good things
But all the spices of your life
You just got to pay the price
If you know what I mean (ooh yeah)
I'm telling everybody
I know how a girl becomes some pride
When I finally found there was nothing left
I said I do believe I found myself
And I want to give it to you baby oh yes I do (yeah yeah)
So if you look into your heart
With a positive mind
You can take some inventory of your woman and your glory
Leave the bad things behind
And your woman really loves me we don't have that everyday (oh no no no)
I know my man really needs me I say it
What ever he wanna do I wanna do it with you baby (yeah yeah)
(do do do doooo . . .)
Jump on the night
Love's not an easy game
And he's strong and he's straight
Now that I see
What he's givin' me
I say what ever he wanna do
I wanna do it with you baby
I'm loving you more and more and more and more
And giving you all and all of me
I say now mercy baby
I'm loving you more and more and more and more
I'm giving you all and all of me
Oh yes I am
Say mercy baby
I'm loving you more
Mercy baby
Mercy baby
Mercy baby

Love Letter # 5: Missing You by Diana Ross (written by Lionel Richie)

2011-03-23T09:15:00.000-07:00

"Since you've been away
I've been down and lonely
Since you've been away
I've been thinking of you
Trying to understand
The reason you left me
What were you going through?
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
Ooh ooh
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
As I look around
I see things that remind me
Just to see you smile
Made my heart fill with joy
I still recall all those plans we made together
where did you run to boy?
Ooh Ooh
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns?"

Love Letter #4

2011-03-16T12:02:00.000-07:00

Lyrics to 1st verse from Faithful by Common

"I was rollin' around, in my mind it occurred
What if God was a her?
Would I treat her the same? Would I still be runnin' game on her?
In what type of ways would I want her?
Would I want her for her mind or her heavenly body?
Couldn't be out gettin' bogus with someone so godly
If I was wit' her would I still be wantin' my ex?
The lies, the greed, the weed, the sex
Wouldn't be ashamed to give her part of my check
Wearin' her cross, I mean the heart on my neck
Her I would reflect on the streets of the Chi'
Ride wit' her, 'cause I know for me she'd die
Through good and bad call on her like I'm chirpin' her
Couldn't be jealous 'cause other brothers worship her
Walk this earth for her, glory, I'm grateful
To be in her presence I try to stay faithful

[Chorus]
[sample] Faithful to the end
[sample] Faithful to the end
[sample] Faithful to the end
[sample] I'd like to be her very best friend"

Thank you for putting this heart on my neck.
Thank you for loving my mind and not just my body.
Thank you for giving me part of your check.
Thank you for giving me all of you, the honesty, the ambition & yes the sex.
Thank you for not being jealous because other brothers worship me.
Thank you for being my medicine, and healing my broken spirit.
Thank you for wearing my heart on your sleeve, (facebook,) and for repping me in the streets on the internet, LA and Miami. Thank you for ridin' with me because you know for you'd I'd die.
Thank you for calling on me in good and bad, in sickness and in health,
for as long as we both shall live...
I'll be faithful
to the end.

love, Me.

Love Letter #3

2011-03-15T21:45:00.000-07:00

p writing poetry to J listening to Common when I'm really supposed to be packing for a move that is happening tomorrow.

"You're such a mush ball," I can here him say.

I smile as if I know a secret only he and I know. Because we do... This love we share isn't about occupation or wealth... its about mutual ambitions and ties to our families, our desire for unconditional love and the type of relationship we both wanted. I see something in him most people don't get to see. The way he does 8th grade Algebra homework while I make dinner and show my daughter martial arts moves. The way he gives my son game with the girls while going over Spanish homework with him. I love that despite that he hasn't found his lane yet, he'll sit and obsess over cable network news and has meaningful conversation with me about what's happening around the world in 30 days. I love that when he sees that I'm a bit more intense in the kitchen chopping vegetables with malice he'll.. slip up behind me and gently kiss my neck to make me smile.. because he knows, that the spot exactly 3 o'clock on my neckline is ticklish and that I can't possibly frown when his lips touch there.

I love that he adores my cooking so much that every night he kisses me and says thank you when I bring him a plate, and has finished it before I have a chance to bring him a glass of water. I watch as he turns off the TV and picks up a book to read... always looking to expand his mind at his leisure. I can't begin to imagine what my days are going to be like while he's not here with me. Trying to fill my days with other things so I won't dwell on it too much and break down in tears. Which isn't a difficult task looking around a partially unpacked room that still needs to be put away so I can have friends move us tomorrow. There I go... Us. That's all its been for the last 2 years. I pray, yes, I pray... that the universe sees fit that he heals as quickly as possible so I can stop sleeping on the sofa and return to our bed so I might be a happier woman.

So...
St. Michael if you're listening, watch over my soldier and keep him safe. Let his body rest and his heart return to its normal gait so he might remember, that the world, although a scary place... isn't as bad as it seems. May he remember that no cross is too big to bear... and that his shoulders are strong enough to lift the weight from his head. May he find the peace he seeks so that he will once again see that he IS the man I met and fell in love with.. that he hasn't lost his way. May he remember that hope is everlasting and there is nothing wrong with joy in your heart. May he remember that the biggest expectations he has are the ones he sets for himself... and that mistakes are easily overcome. I know love can't heal all wounds... but if it could, I'll easily give up the memory of true love to restore his faith in humanity.

Until we meet again,
Me.

Love Letter #1

2011-03-15T21:21:00.000-07:00

Jada Stevens just stopped by. She and I smoked... I started missing you so I put on Common's Be album. I got higher than I've been in awhile.. probably because I've barely slept from worry about you and I haven't eaten since you've left and... well, my kitty misses her Daddy... because Common's voice is nice but.. honestly, yours is so much better. I... think to myself, it would be great if Jorge were here to.. make love to me amongst the boxes and packing tape.. for that.. one last time in our 1st bedroom and.. on the balcony because its late and we'll hand over the keys so fuck it. ;-)

"How beautiful love can be," - Common

I love the way you touch me late night
your kiss along my collarbone.
I love..
the way you whisper dirty things in my ear.
The way you...
grab my face to look in my eyes
while you dig deep into my heart.
I love the way you move me
throw me around like a rag doll.
Tell me...
things we both know we really mean
even though we act like we're just playing.
You...
make me feel as if the world has stopped
and nothing but you and I matter.
I...
want to be able to give you sons
since you've already given me moons.
I want to kiss your feet the way you
kiss my face.
I want you to
taste my tears while
I taste your love.

Fuck you.
I was trying not to miss you this much.
I was trying not to touch myself while you were away..
And yet here I am...
thinking..
that if I can't have you inside me tonight
that you won't mind if I touch myself
as long as I'm thinking of you...

So..
I think I will.
I hope that's okay with you.

Because I...

Miss..

your..

dick.

*blushes.*

I wish you understood just how much I love you.
I thought you knew.
I guess I'll have to remind you.
Here I am..
3,000 miles away
wishing you were home.
Not looking for someone else
faithful.
until you return.
Always.
In all ways.

Love Letter #2

2011-03-15T01:40:00.000-07:00

Made it through the entire day without crying.
Now... alone in silence,
curled up with Curious Jorge on the sofa...
they come.
In droves.
Like spring rain.
Reminiscent of sitting on the restaurant balcony in Costa Rica
wishing you were here to share that moment.

Aching...
to see your face.
Wishing..
your lips were touching mind.
Knowing..
that it won't be long but crying anyway.

I never had any formal training
on how to love a mad man.
And yet...
if given the opportunity
I'll try.
Every day.
For all of our lives.
Get well soon.
I love you.

Goodnight Moon.
Keep him safe until he returns home to me.

Want to win a FREE autographed 8x10 or DVD?

2010-11-17T09:18:00.001-08:00

I know I've been remiss in updating my blog, but I have an EXCELLENT reason this time... ;-) I recently joined the staff of http://TheWellVersed.com, a new lifestype and culture website! My new column, Life, Love and Sinn, an ode to my blog, was launched last Thursday and is doing quite well! I have big things planned, including some incredibly spotlight interviews with some amazing people to discuss the sexual politics around the world. My introductory article, An Assumption of Immorality, has so far been well received by readers and my editor @AndreasHale seems pretty happy with me and the direction I'd like to go in with my column & interviews. That is always a good thing!

I decided that to celebrate my new column, I'm going to do some do some giveaways! Email your Love, relationship or sex questions to me at AskSinnamon@gmail.com and if I answer your question on my column on The Well Versed I will send you an autographed 8X10 FREE! Each column, 1 lucky writer will also receive a FREE autographed DVD! :) Of course you MUST be over 18 years of age and able to receive semi-nude or nude photos and/or pornographic material in your area in order to win these prizes!

Looking forward to all your questions!

love, Sinn

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2010-10-25T00:01:00.001-07:00

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Bumps, Bruises and Beauty Along The Way

2010-05-26T17:04:00.000-07:00

Its been an amazing year so far. Many of you may not be aware, but while I am still very active in the adult video industry, I decided to focus on other aspects of my career this year, mainly my writing, touring with The Punany Poets & guest lecturing at colleges. I'm certainly not retiring anytime soon, but I certainly and happy to have some of the opportunities I have had as I change directions in my career.

On May 14th, I had a speaking engagement at Orange Coast College in Costa Mesa, CA as a guest lecturer. I appeared before a Human Sexuality class of 200+ students to speak about my life and career as a sex worker including my 16 years as an adult film star, fetish model, professional Dominatrix and escort. I presented an array of photos & video clips from throughout my career and discussed the varied facets of my life including maintaining intimate and familial relationships and delving deep into conversations about the fetish and BDSM industry. I also showed the students a recent anti-piracy PSA that I participated in with lots of other top names in the business including Ron Jeremy, Wicked Girls Kaylani Lei and Alectra Blue, Charlie Laine, Kimberly Kane, Joanna Angel and many, many others. The lecture was well received and I was able to share the lecture live via UStream with fans that wanted to peek in on what topics I cover on a college campus.

Earlier this week I did a phone interview with Lanie Spiezer, a writer for Penthouse who has written a couple of books and is working on her 3rd. This new coffee table book is titled, "100 Porn Star Confessions," (Quiver Books,) and features profiles, interviews, sex tips & photos on 100 top adult stars. I was thrilled to be a part of this project! I adore appearing in sexy mainstream projects - especially books that appear in outlets like Barnes and Noble. In the past I have appeared in photos in Christine Kessler's book "Pervy Girls" (Goliath Books,) and there was an entire chapter written about my life and career in Lawrence Ross' "Money Shot" (Running Press.) Last year some of my poetry was published in David Henry Sterry's anthology "Ho's Hookers, Call Girls and Rent Boys," (Soft Skull Press.)

"Click here to purchase a copy of Money Shot"

"Click here to purchase a copy of Ho's, Hookers, Call Girls & Rent Boys"

Having my writing published certainly isn't new to me... for years I wrote for print magazines such as the now defunct Black Mystique and the Hip-Hop/ Porn Publication Fish N' Grits. I also conducted interviews for Mainstream Hip Hop website HipHopDX.com with Phonte' from Little Brother & Dilated Peoples. I must admit however, receiving a hard copy of a published book is something else. I remember in the 5th grade, our end of the year English project was to co-author a story with a partner and illustrate it. Our finished projects were bound and laminated and placed in the school library. That first taste of blood was all it took to get me hooked and want to see more of my writing in print.

My only real resolution this year was to truly focus more on my writing. I have been hastily trying to complete my book on Relationships with Sex Workers titled, "How to Love a Whore." With a bit more research to go, I am hoping to complete it by the summer. I am also working on a separate project on Sex Work & Parenting. I have submitted an abstract to offer a seminar on the topic at the Scarlet Alliance Sex Worker Conference in Sydney, Australia in November, 2010. Much of the research I am doing at present has not never really been pursued before... so the writing is taking longer than previously thought as I want to not only pull from my own experiences but the experiences of other as well, both good and bad.

Yesterday's panel at UCSB was presented by the Feminist Studies Dept., The Women's Studies Department and The Film Studies Department. The panel was titled, "Race and Desire: Black Actors in Adult Film," and featured myself, Vanessa Blue and Tyler Knight. We discussed everything from fetish and BDSM in ethnic themed videos to White female performers that "don't do interracial scenes with Black males" or charge a higher fee for it. We answered questions about how we navigate the adult industry within the confines of discretionary racism to how I respond to feminists that question the image of the female submissive in BDSM. The talk was not only amazing but my conversation with a Doctoral student in religious studies who did his Master's at Harvard regarding how he discusses sex and sexuality within marriage with parishioners and those he counsels.

The absolute best part of the entire trip was dinner after at this wonderful bistro. A glass of Malbec and a honey glazed duck with a chambord sauce and I found myself deep in conversations about Octavia Butler's Wild Seed, Sexual Identity vs. Sexual Preference and Singular pronouns for GenderQueer people that prefer the terms "they/ their" over "He" or "She." I love intelligent, stimulating conversation. I left the dinner feeling inspired and anxious to finish my research and my book.

This week's appearances will be rounded out with a live stage appearance with The Punany Poets right here in Los Angeles. We will perform at a small theater in the NOHO Arts District of the San Fernando Valley. I love doing these cabaret style shows. The way we sling our erotic poetry and sex education in scantily clad outfits and verbal orgies on stage with our audience members... it is truly charged and enticing. I truly enjoy giving lap dances in a room full of watchful eyes, the volunteers always blush then get completely into it. We always introduce a sober moment in the show where I discuss HIV statistics in urban communities and test a volunteer from the audience using the OraQuick HIV test, (the only FDA approved oral swab for HIV,) to show how easy it is to not only get tested, but to have the conversation with a partner about getting tested. I have been working with The Know Now Organization, a mobile HIV testing company that can come to your home, hotel or place of business and test you and your partner, for a couple of years now. I've attended swinger's events and porn conventions with the group, spreading the message of the importance of HIV testing. Being asked to join the cast of the Punany Poets was such a nature fit for me. I would be able to perform my poetry, interact with my fans on stage and spread the message of safer sex practices and some kinky sex tips along the way.

So far this year, I have performed with The Punany Poets on Stage in Miami, DC, Detroit and even performing 2 shows off Broadway in NYC. I love being on stage in front of a large group of people. What few people know is that during high school I was cast as the wood nymph Phoebe in Shakespeare's "As You Like It," and actually won 2nd place in a Shakesperean Festival at Cal Poly Pomona for the role. I continued to act for a short period of time through college, but it was never my passion. I did however LOVE performing in oratorical competitions. The first time I performed "Phenomenal Woman," by Maya Angelou in front of a crowd of people, I felt the rush. I never experienced that feeling again until the first time I stepped on stage in Miami with The Punany Poets for the first time. The theater we performed in was huge... and our sold out crowd was so supportive. I overcame my nervous energy and pushed forward and received a standing ovation at the end of the show. I felt SO good when it was over... I've been getting paid for doing something I love for 17 years now... and this was a perfect transition in my life.

I love the way this year is playing out. There have been bumps along the way but overall, the first half of the year has been, overall, just right. :)

One of those little bumps is my old car deciding to finally take a shit. Yesterday something to do with the crank shaft blew a hole in my engine. So yeah... time to buy a new car. But considering all the positives in my life right now, I can be without a car for a few days. :)

Sinn

Blog 354: 2009 DVD Inventory Clearance Sale!

2010-02-08T21:21:00.000-08:00

Not to sound like a used car salesman, but I have SO much inventory left over from 2009 that I really need to make way for new merch! As a result, I am selling off my DVDs for only $20 and BluRays for $40 plus shipping and handling! Shipping will be and additional $10 for up to 2 DVDs.

*You MUST be over the age of 18 & must be prepared to email me a scanned copy of your state ID or Driver's License. Payment will be via Paypal to sinnamon.love@gmail.com as a GIFT not for a product or service due to their disdain for adult products.

Thanks!
Sinnamon Love

Phatty Girls 6 - A classic scene with myself & Justin Slayer (3 DVD copies available!)

Dymes #5 - a hot & dirty scene with myself, Tyler Knight & Ms. Goddess (3 DVD copies available!)

America's Got Ass - A great interracial boy/girl/girl scene with lots of anal & ass licking! (2 DVD copies available!)

Chocolate MILF (5 DVD copies available!)

Bootyful View - My first encounter with sexy Black Frenchman Jean Claude Batiste (13 DVD copies available)

Desperate Blackwives 4 (6 DVD copies available!)

Chocolate MILF 3 (BluRay Only - 3 copies available)

Sista 25 (3 BluRays & 3 DVDs available!)

Chemistry 4 (6 DVD copies available)

Big Black Creamy Tits 3 (5 DVD copies available)

Check back shortly for Magazines and Fetish Videos for sale!!!

X's & O's,
Sinnamon Love

Blog 353: Watch me LIVE on NaughtyAmerica today!

2010-01-13T12:51:00.000-08:00

Be sure to watch me live today on Live Naughty Gym Cam at 1pm PST: http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTY0NzkzOjQ6OA/live_chat/live_gym_cam/

And on Live Naughty MILF at 4pm PST:
http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTY0NzkzOjQ6OA/live_chat/live_naughty_milf/

I love gettng naked and playing with my fans for NaughtyAmerica and today I get to work out in the gym while I do it! Be sure to check out my super tiny TERRY CLOTH SHORTS TODAY!

:) Sinn

Blog 352: New Year, New Directions...

2009-12-30T02:16:00.000-08:00

In less that 24 hours, I will turn 36. Yes, my birthday is fastly approaching. There have been lots of things happening the last 2 months, and honestly, I don't know how I've been able to remain relatively calm about most of it. I'm not quite ready to reveal all that has been on my mind and heart... but I will say this.. lots of changes are coming in the new year.

I've never been big on resolutions.. not since I was a little girl... But I have been one to make decisions about my life and the direction I want it to go in. This year is no different. Not one to let the start of the new year influence my changes, I instead mark changes in my life as I turn a year older every year. It just so happens that my birthday, New Year's Eve, happens to be not only the biggest party day of the year, but the benchmark for the last hurrah before most people go diets and exercise programs and make most life-altering decisions that they don't keep up with after long. For me, changes come with age and expectations I have for myself at various points in my life... or just, when I've tired of things being the way they are...

In the coming year, I hope to restructure lots of things in life including the way I conduct my business, the way I handle my relationships and the amount of accessibility I give others to my life. This doesn't mean I'm cutting back... in fact, I think I will probably let people in even more. I think its time. There are things I've held back for so long, that I can think of no better way to free myself from the shackles that bind me, that to purge publicly... but not today.

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Blog 351: TEAM EVIL ANGEL HAS RAISED $10K IN DONATIONS FOR AIDSWALK LA!

2009-10-18T02:42:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone! Team Evil Angel and I have collctively raised $10,001.00 for the 25th Anniversary AIDS Walk LA later today, October 18th, 2009 in West Hollywood, CA! I am so excited to be apart of the adult industry's premiere effect to raise money and show support for AIDSWalk LA and AIS Project LA. There is still time to donate however if you haven't already! We just reached 10k in donations thanks to a wonderful fan on twitter who just made a $30 donation to my page through twitter to help push us over the top! I personally have not reached my personal goal of $1000, and would love your help in reaching it this morning!

Please take the time to make even the smallest donation to AIDSWalk & our Team by copying and pasting this link: http://bit.ly/TeamEvilAngel

We will be in West Hollywood at 8am to sign in, the walk starts at 10am. Look for photos & videos from our team later in the day through my twitter, myspace, facebook & my blog.

Some of the people (adult stars, adult industry professionals & fans,) walking with Team Evil Angel include:
Belladonna (team captain) & Aiden
Angelina Armani & Alexander Monstar
Lee Bang & Sophie Dee
Tisha Cavazos
Crystal Contreras
Wendy DaSilva
JAG
Shawn Gunn
Holly Hollywood
Vincent Kirk
Heather Oliver
Robert Sanchez
Bella Stagliano
Karen Stagliano (Evil Angel)
Keni Styles
Jenny Tse
Angel Vain
Peter Warren (AVN)
Chris Wessman
and of course, Moi, Sinnamon Love!

Thank you so much for showing your support for this worthwhile cause and showing that the adult industry, and its fans, care about the fight for a cure and the well-being of those living with this disease.

all my love,
Sinnamon Love

Blog 350: Watch me LIVE today on NaughtyAmerica.com!

2009-10-14T15:05:00.000-07:00

Copy and paste these links to watch my live shows or just click the link to see me LIVE!

LIVE Naughty Nurse at 4pm PST
http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTY0NzkzOjEyOjg/live_chat/live_naughty_nurse/

LIVE Naughty Milf at 7pm PST
http://natour.naughtyamerica.com/track/MTY0NzkzOjEyOjg/live_chat/live_naughty_milf/

x's & o's,
Sinny

Blog 349: Twitter Hate Me

2009-03-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

So Monday afternoon, Twitter decided it hated me. It packed up my account and disappeared. :( I checked their known issues board and it seems that many accounts have up and gone rouge on them and they are trying to fix the glitch. So know I can't log in, can't get my tweet fix... Its so sad and unfortunate. I worked hard to get my account where it was!

Blog 348: Just an Ordinary Suburban Stay at Home Mom...

2009-03-10T17:52:00.001-07:00

One thing is for certain...
You NEVER want to go toe to toe with me...
Especially where my kid is concerned.

So last week the kidlet was out of school sick for 4 days because of the flu plus the weekend due to an ear and throat infection. Her school has a website where the teachers upload their assignments for all their classes so parents can double check what was assigned from the teachers when the kids say, "I don't have any homework tonight." During her week off, her Honors Math and Science teacher updated his assignments daily, as they are supposed to.. so with the exception of a few handouts, she was able to complete all of his assigned work. Her English and History teacher wasn't so efficient. I received her homework from the school on Friday and she worked on completing most of it over the weekend.

Now let me back track a moment...

Her honors teacher has a program that he and the other teacher share, uploading the kids grades to a private account daily so that parents can follow the kids progress and see missing assignments. He's amazing at uploading EVERYONE'S grades, all 60+ kids every single day. The other teacher? Not so much... I know this because I check her grades, Every.Single.Day. So yesterday I look at her grades and notice not one, not two, not three, but 16 MISSING ASSIGNMENTS in her History class dated February 25th. I fucking lost my damn mind... There is no way, NO WAY - my kid is supposed to simply not turn in that many assignments and I don't get a phone call, a note home, hell, an email! about it. I was pissed.

Now the kidlet has been going to counseling for diagnosis of symptoms of ADD, and sure enough, I confirm today that she does indeed score within the range. Now this is a gifted kid that scores well above average in Math, (like 458 in a range of 350-500,) but just losses things and forgets to turn in assignments all the time. She is extremely bright but has difficulty with focus and inattentiveness. This is spilling over into late nights doing homework, (like 11-11:30pm,) and incomplete assignments. Its affecting her grades and my once straight "A" student has turned into a C,D and F student.

Let me first say that I do not believe in average grades. I know, I know... sometimes average is the best one can do. But I was raised by my parents with the mantra,

"Average kids get average grades, go to average schools and get average jobs and YOU are not average."

I believe that whole-heartedly. This child scored so high on her California Standards Tests in Math they wanted to put her in highly gifted math as opposed to the regular gifted/ magnet math. I declined... one step at a time. It makes since that she has some behavioral issues that are affecting her grades. Her teachers identified her with having some oppositional problems... which I expect as this once star student is now struggling with her grades without understanding why. I sought professional help because it seemed that no matter what I did, how I rewarded her or took away from her, nothing helped bring her grades up.

I hesitate to have my child identified as ADD or rather, ADHD without hyperactivity. I don't want her on drugs that will modify her behavior or mute her creativity, so after receiving this diagnosis today, I started looking at natural remedies and organizational solutions to help her.

But before I could do that, I had to address this problem of the 16 missing assignments. I went to her middle school this afternoon for a mandated Individual Culmination Plan meeting, basically, a group meeting with about 30-40 parents watching a slide show to talk about what our junior high schoolers will require in high school to graduate and attend college. I fully intended to give this annoyance of a teacher the hear-to-and-what-for... but managed to talk with her Math/Science teacher first. He was great! We discussed the ADD diagnosis and he gave me some great advice. He also showed me some assignments that needed to be turned in, which I was aware of due to the SnapGrades program, and we discussed how 12 kids were out today with the same flu she had last week. When I went to talk with her other teacher, I found out that those bulk missing assignments were actually due while she was away... but her T.A. entered them as "F's," instead of "Excused" due to her absence.

Go Figure!

My daughter had the Workbook in her backpack and turned the assignment in right then. Had I not addressed this issue with her teacher, who knows when it would have gotten updated in her records if at all!

I came home and went through her backpack with her pulling out all the makeup work from last week, any missing assignments and today's homework so I could organize them all in order of importance. One of the things I've learned rather quickly is that ADD children need to be given small assignments to do in short time frames, with her, its 20 minute intervals so she can focus for short periods of time. Then she can get up, take a break, get water, use the bathroom... whatever she needs to do. She also needs a lot of help organizing her time so that she gets things done in a timely manner. I have to really be active in her sitting down to do homework and double check it because sometimes she skims the assignment...

I know it has to be weird thinking of a porn star as a mom that actually does the PTA thing. Its like I easily slid from one role to the other without much thought and consideration. But I have to tell you, I love this role more than any other...

Blog 347: Los Angeles - Meet Me at Adultcon!

2009-03-10T10:20:00.000-07:00

If you are going to be in Los Angeles March 20-22, I will be attending Adultcon 16! Sharing a booth with me will be my best friend, Kitten, and we will be signing autographs, taking pictures and selling DVDs & 8X10s. If you're in the area, stop by and say hello! Mention my blog for a special gift!

Blog 346: Routines are NOT always routine.

2009-03-09T20:26:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was an amazing day... Jax and his/ our baby Kai came over in the late afternoon/ early evening to hang out with the rest of our family. Earlier in the day I dropped my friend Robbye at Burbank airport, then picked up my best friend Kitten from LAX. My house is always a revolving door of porn stars and friends that become temporary roommates... Lol! Kitten is moving into my guest room for next 6 months so at least there will be a little stability for awhile again. After that, I'm turning my guest room into just that... a guest room, so when my parents come into town they actually have a place to crash instead of booting me out of my room. :)

Anyway, after my 2 airport runs I spent the rest of the afternoon doing laundry and cleaning the kidlet's messy bathroom. I have SO much clothing... I really need to go through my closets and make a go of taking stuff to the Goodwill and auctioning off my wardrobe on ABIBids. This week, I promise. ;-)

So back to Jax and Kai.. they came over and settled in, Kai becoming more comfortable each day. Jax adopted her from an American Bulldog breeder after she'd had two litters to give her a loving home and environment where she could grow and flourish as a dog and not just a breeding machine. Her life had been so limited before that even being indoors was new to her. She's taken her time getting accustomed to him, his home, me and my home... But thankfully she's starting to follow me around and come when I call her. She's finally been introduced to Duke, my adopted Cocker Spaniel, and watching the two of them play is a treat!

I made one of Jax's favorite dishes, fried tilapia with steamed fresh snapped green beans with garlic butter sauce and steamed broccoli. The fish, a recipe I modified from Aaron McCargo, Jr. of Big Daddy's House on the Food Network.

While I cooked and cleaned like woman possessed... Jax walked the dogs and watched a little TV. Once I got the kidlet to bed, we snuggled up and enjoyed a show together. I love the routine we fall into when we can just relax and be ourselves. Being that we have just started integrating our animal family, our "Chia Pet Family Weekends" (as in... add water, instant family,) as Jax calls them, had dwindled greatly... It was nice having him over knowing that he wouldn't have to get up and go home at the end of the night.

After all that cleaning, I desperately needed a shower and he watched from the sideline. I started feeling rather randy with him watching me. I slowly toweled off while he caressed my body then applied lotion to my skin. I decided to add a little makeup and flat ironed my hair... then selected a little nightie from my lingerie closet. I joined him on the bed while he smoked a bowl. He just turns me on so much... I decided to change into a sexier little chemise, a white and blue one that looks like an apron I had purchased for him when we first got together but never wore. I rejoined him on the bed...

When his lips touched mine, I released... all the tension of the day just melted away. His hands moved slowly along my breasts and waist and he commented on how significant my body had changed. His kiss... his tongue exploring my mouth while his hands explored my skin... he slowly brought me to my first, second and third orgasms all without pulling down my panties. But when he did... Mmmm... His hands explored the inside of my pussy expertly, slowly inserted more and more fingers inside me. Stretching my walls as he licked my nipples taking me higher and higher... I love the way he moves me...

My body just RESPONDS to him.

He gives me something no one else can... a love jones. Since I'd shot last week and was in between tests, I naturally reached for a condom before straddling his cock. Once inside me I exploded immediately - my juices running down the sides of his cock. I had to slow him down a little, our energies in different places, when he bit my nipple a little too hard.

"I'm in a much softer place than you right now baby..."

He came back down to meet me, and gently slid in and out of me like no one else can. Our love making lasted hours, then a brief break, then right back into our groove. At 2:30am, after much lust and pleasure and orgasm, we finally collapsed in one another's arms and I drifted pleasantly off to sleep.

When my alarm went off a 6am I didn't want to get out of bed with myMan. I snuggled up next to him and wrapped my arms around him. I fell back asleep for an hour then got up and woke the kidlet down the hall. While she got dressed, I climbed back in bed with my lover for another 15 minutes before hitting the shower myself and getting ready for my day. Jax walked the kids while I prepared the kidlet a quickie breakfast of smoked salmon and cream cheese roll-ups with orange juice.

I kissed my man goodbye, drove the kidlet to school then hopped on the 101 to Downtown LA through morning rush hour traffic.

I was 20 minutes late for my doctor's appointment. The last 6 months, I had been totally avoiding my Oncologist. I hate going to the hospital for these day long appointments. Its been 4 years since I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer for the second time and had surgery to remove the 3 large muscinous tumors. I've been in remission ever since, but I have to see the doctors at the hospital's GYN-Oncology clinic every couple of months to make sure it's staying that way. Today I expressed concern that my periods lately have been extremely long for me... 10-14 days as opposed to my normal 3 days. The doctor said it shouldn't be my high dose birth control causing it, (that I've been taking for endometriosis post-surgery,) but that it could possibly be polyps or in very rare cases, pre-cancerous cells growing on my cervix or uterus. So instead of just my yearly pap smear, (which I missed in December,) I would also be getting a biopsy.

I asked naively if I'd need to schedule an appointment for the biopsy and was informed she could do it right then and there. So I undressed, put my legs in the stirrups, and laid back to be poked and prodded. Had I known I'd be getting a pap smear and biopsy today I probably wouldn't have let Jax fist me last night... Let me just say this, while a pap smear is uncomfortable, having a tube inserted into your cervix so your uterus can be scraped is downright PAINFUL!

I couldn't help myself, when she inserted the tube into my cervix I bit my lip and said "DAMMIT!" When she started scrapped the walls of my uterus tears welled up in my eyes and I said,

"God Dammit That Fucking HURTS!"

The female doctor apologized immensely, then apologized once more when she had to do the procedure a 2nd time in case they needed a second sample... Of course, she apologized a 3rd time when she needed to scrape my cervical canal...

"FUCK That hurts like a bitch!"

When it was all over, the nurse brought me a Motrin 600 and a huge glass of water, both of which I accepted gratefully. Next I had to go to the lab for blood work, a CBC, a Tumor marker and a couple of other tests... then off to Radiology for a chest X-Ray and to schedule an appointment for a transvaginal ultrasound. Six hours later I left the hospital in a significant amount of pain and headed back to the valley - but at least that's over for a little while. I'll go back in a month for results...

En route home, I stopped at my agent's office to pick up a check, went to the bank, then picked up the kidlet from school. I finally made it home and laid on the sofa while she started her homework and drifted off to sleep for a bit... still uncomfortable from the procedure earlier today.

A short while ago, I awoke from my nap, made dinner, helped the kidlet with formulas for solving the area of a triangle and trapezoid, and settled in to write this blog...

Back to my routine.
Hopefully tomorrow I will feel a little more up to doing webcam. Right now? I don't want to THINK about putting anything into my vagina. :(

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 345: Check out my new wishlist!

2009-03-07T03:29:00.000-08:00

Hello all,

I always get emails asking what sort of gifts I'd like for holidays, my birthday, etc, but had never really put together my wishlist. So I finally decided to put forth some effort and work on adding some items to my list. :) There is everything from $8.00 books to bargain lingerie on Trashy.com for under $25.00 to a new digital camera and a new Apple MacBook Pro. I love gifts and if you'd like to surprise me with something to make me smile, I'd love to send you a little something in return. hehe!

Check out my wishlist widget, but be sure to click the link to go to my wishlist itself to view all the items on there... you'd be surprised at what a girl can do in a few hours! :)

Blog 344: Hello my long lost lover...

2009-03-03T01:22:00.000-08:00

I've checked my blog several times over the last few weeks, but things have been so crazy that I haven't had the opportunity to blog. Today for example, between having my contract with my former webmaster abruptly terminated, then reinstated, the terminated again - I've been super busy locking down my new website deal, meeting with my lawyer to deal with the breach of contract that I haven't had much free time on my hands.

So no, ClubSinnamonLove.com is no longer my site. My official website, SinnamonLove.com will be up and running within 30 days!

Not to mention that tax season is upon us and I am trying to get mine under control. I am the WORST at record keeping, but luckily I have a wonderful accountant in my corner that is really amazing and may actually get me a refund this year! :)

In addition to straightening out what had the potential to be a hairied tax situation, my accountant is insisting that I pay the franchise tax board fees to the Secretary of State, set up a business account for my LLC, and start having all my personal income run through my LLC from this point on... That means switching my phone sex line, varied webcam companies I work with, and my varied clip store accounts ALL switch over from using my social security number to my companies' EIN. So for the bulk of this evening I have spent time looking for the Articles of Organization for my LLC, so that I could verify how everything was set up so I could acquire my EIN online... of course, with my convoluted files, (and having a 3rd party company set it up for me,) I had no idea if the LLC was set up as a single or multi-member LLC... and required that information to set up the Tax ID number.

Ugh and Grr to say the least!

But at least my accountant was able to give me all the necessary information I needed so I can start throwing away all the millions of unnecessary pieces of paper that I've been hoarding so I have a better handle on it and can start getting organized. I realized tonight while talking to a close friend that the company she works for does just that... helps people get organized! I feel a new expense coming on...

Thursday night I received a last minute call to do a makeup shoot for Rob Black/ Exquisite for a movie I shot 4 months ago. The idiot editor lost the hardcore footage of the scene so I had to come back in to shoot it all over again... Of course I got paid a second time! I didn't have to shoot any pretty girl stills, hardcore stills or tease video... I literally showed up makeup ready and got down to business! Sort of... Rico Strong showed up super late then sat around surfing myspace and having a drink for almost an hour before he was ready and "centered" to fuck me. :(

Friday night, I did get a chance to spend a little time out and about. My friend M1 from dead prez called me up on Friday to say they were in town and performing at the Key Club. My daughter was going to a friend's house to stay the night, so i called up Aurora Jolie, picked her up and drove over the hill to West Hollywood. The drive was quick Sunset Blvd. Traffic wasn't too bad... We arrived just in time to see the guys hit the stage a little after midnight.

Check out these pics I took with my new iPhone from the stage!

The show was amazing and we truly had a great time... I didn't get home until 5:30am! I used to go to concerts damn near every week but lately, I've become such a homebody that I've been missing out on all the good stuff!

I've been back on webcam on IMLive and Naked.com again lately. I love taking fresh snapshots daily of my webcam shows so all you horny guys and girls can see what I look like at that very moment. :) I love getting dressed up for my cam shows... I'm thinking of doing a costume show later this week for a little role play! Perhaps I'll put on my naughty nurse's outfit? Or a strict school teacher? hehehe!

I have some really exciting news coming up but I'm going to wait until the contracts are signed to share the rest of my amazingly good news... So far, while work has been a little slower than usual, Love Digital Media is starting off strong! Yay me!

I promise I'll blog more often.
But be sure to follow me on Twitter for those in between blog fixes!

Blog 343: Sometimes the normal days are the busiest...

2009-02-10T23:17:00.000-08:00

I often feel like I have split personalities... Bouncing from porn star to mommy and back again. While I adore the glitz and glamour that a life in front of the camera brings, what I love the most is the time I spend at home taking care of my family.

I love being a mom. The last few days have been a bit hectic; filled with grocery shopping, laundry, and general house cleaning. Yesterday I had to pay a visit to the Dean of Students at the kidlet's middle school to discuss how she could possibly get into a fight and I not receive a phone call, (despite their ability to call me frequently about her excessive "lateness," (read: no more than 5 minutes,) to homeroom. I walked into the Dean's office calmly, knocked softly on his door, and calmly, yet assertively expressed my concern over this bully, pride over my daughter's ability to defend herself as taught, and disdain over the school's lesson of "blaming the victim," by giving each participant in the altercation equal punishment. In the end, she didn't get an at-home suspension, but received an in school suspension instead. I'm still not happy with it... but at least they know that they have to answer to me from now on.

I was blessed both Sunday and today with visits from Jax. It was nice seeing him give my daughter a pep talk about her fight Sunday, reassuring her that she did the right thing, and advising her how to deal with the situation, both with a warning and a blow to the nose, in the event something like this happens again.

I made breakfast, then after a nice long walk to begin integrating our dogs, we stole away for a little nap in the middle of the day... only to result in beautiful, passionate sex. He makes me orgasm like no other man can. When it was finished, I drifted off to sleep with a kitty full of cum and wrapped in myHeart's arms. He waited until I was fast asleep and, kissed my forehead and slipped downstairs. He told my daughter to let me sleep and locked the door behind himself as he headed home. I slept for a couple of hours, only to awake reaching for my phone to call him. I apologized for falling asleep on him as usual, chatted for a bit, then started my nightly ritual.

One of my favorite parts of the day is preparing supper. I love going through recipes, either online or by flipping thought the cookbooks on my shelf to find the perfect dish to try. This is my time to catch up with friends and family on the phone, usually to be interrupted by the kidlet with homework questions. Last night I went through her binder to remove all the assignments from last semester and organize for the new one before bed. I love this child but she is SO unorganized! :)

Tonight I managed to get everything done relatively early so I could settle in and watch Nip/Tuck at its regular time of 10pm. I also sat down and typed up some information to take over to my webmaster for our meeting bright and early in the morning. We are going to go over my website redesign and I'm going to bring them some content to go up right away as well. :) Now, to just put together the CDs that I'm taking over to them and I can ACTUALLY get to bed at a decent hour! Yah!

My publicist called today to give me the great news that I have been asked to be a presenter at the XBiz Awards on Thursday night! Woohoo! We also went over all the information for my radio interview tomorrow morning at 10a on Sam and Suzy in the Morning on LA Talk Radio. The Live Call in Number for the Show is: 1-818-602-4929. Call and talk to me in the morning!

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 342: My interview w/ Jeremy Steele on Poontalk.com

2009-02-04T17:57:00.000-08:00

I just noticed my interview with Jeremy Steele on Poontalk is up! Be sure to check it out along with the hot photos he took of me last night! :)

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 341: Its so hard to say goodbye...

2009-02-04T17:10:00.000-08:00

*Sigh* Seems like I'm always losing my nearest an dearest...
Yes folks, that's right. Your Sinny is going to be laptopless once again.:(

Back in October I sent my iBook off to Apple to be repaired because the monitor was running through a series of color bars on boot up. My baby was gone for 10 days, and wouldn't you know that 3 days after I got it back, the display started acting up again! This time, after going into hibernation, the screen would go white for a few seconds before depixalating to reveal the normal screen. Well, I couldn't afford to be without my computer for another 10 days and miss that much webcam right before the holiday season, so I kept it. Now its gotten to the point where the white screen stays for 5-10 minutes before depixalating. I took it by the Apple Store yesterday to find out if they'd have to send it in again and to my disappointment, they confirmed my worst fear.

Here's the thing... The 90 day warranty on the repair from late October expires on Feb. 7th... 3 days from now. Want to know what's worse? My 2 year Apple Care Extended Warranty expires on March 10th. *Sigh* I know I need to just buy a new computer, but right now? Its SO not in my budget. This machine was a replacement sent by Apple when my original machine was repaired so many times that they had to replace it under company policy... (Which states by the way, that if the same repair is done more than 3 times, they have to replace the machine.) That machine was a replacement for the machine before it. Can you guess that I'm hoping its the same problem? Lol!

Even if its not, I appreciate that Apple's Apple Care will repair any hardware issue for free. I'm just tired of being without my damn machine! Luckily, I just purchased a new iPhone, so at least I won't be completely SOL. I'm actually going to find out if the store can provide me with a loaner, at the suggestion of the Apple rep I spoke with on the phone. Back in the day, I would get them to give me rental reimbursement during the course of the repair. I tried that today and they said no dice. :(

*Sigh* I guess I will just have to wait and see what happens when I go into the store in an hour.

On to better topics, last night my publicist talked me into hosting Porn Star Karaoke at Sardos Bar and Grill. I hadn't been to PSK since my old agent, Lighthouse hosted a night there, perhaps over a year and a half ago. If you followed my twitter last night, you know that the party wasn't exactly jumping. I didn't arrive until 11:30pm, and other than my agent and Connie, a director from LesbianTraining.com, there were no porn people in attendance. I had one drink, took pics with fans and for the usual porno photogs then quietly tipped toe'd out of the venue when we'd agreed I'd filled my obligation. The other girl that was supposed to host, Angelica Lane, didn't even show up! On the way out the door, I was stopped by Jeremy, a blogger for Poontalk, and did a mini interview and shot a couple of pics outside the club.

I came home and took an ambien when I realized my insomnia was about to hit 36 hours of no sleep so I could get a good night's rest before going to work.

This morning I woke up, took the kidlet to school, then came home to walk the dog, field a few calls and check email. I got a call from the Assistant (Vice?) Principal of my daughter's school about her incessant tardies to homeroom. We devised a plan then I scurried to shower, dress and pack my bag for work. I somehow managed to hit every single street light, making my 8 minute commute to location a 25 minute drive. Fortunately, although I arrived late for my 10:45am call time, they were running behind as well - apparently everyone arrived late today. Both girl's whose scenes were before mine were in makeup when I arrived on set. I tweeted from my iPhone, and took the pic you see here from the makeup chair! I love how Chris, the makeup artist, did my makeup today. Hopefully I will get a loaner from Apple so I can hop on IMLive late night tonight!

I'm off to charge and sync my iPhone and back up my hard drive before I leave for the Apple Store.

Wish me luck!

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 340: Life and Times of Sinnamon Love

2009-02-03T01:32:00.000-08:00

If you've been following my Twitter you know that my life is relatively surreal... I float easily from mommy-mode to porn star, girlfriend to super slut with relative ease. :) If you haven't been following me the past few days, here's what you've missed. hehehe!

Thursday, Jan. 29th I was the guest host for "Private Calls" on Playboy Radio. Playboy Radio is on Sirius and XM Channel 99. My topic? Relationships with great people but the sex is absolutely horrible! The show was awesome, it was a tough topic... but I ha some interesting callers and even a woman that called in because she dated a seemingly perfect guy with a teeny, tiny cock!

Friday, Jan. 30th, I attended Porn Super Stud, Mr. Pete's Birthday Party at Club Aura in Porn Valley. I rolled off the sofa at 11pm and finally showered just in time to make a fabulous appearance at the well attended event. I ran into my girlfriend Sincere, Marie Luv, Mr. Marcus, Aurora Jolie, Mr. Pete's boo Alexis Texas, my super publicist James Bartolet, Manuel Ferrera, Tony Ribas, director Dynomite Dolemite and lots of other porn valley residents. I only stayed an hour, but I had a great time and was glad I headed out to help Pete celebrate. :)

Saturday, Jan. 31st, I hopped a flight to Las Vegas to visit with a male acquaintance from Lagos, Nigeria and his lovely girlfriend from London. During the trip, we met up with the very gorgeous Satine Phoenix at the Circle Bar and then at 4am the 5 of us took a trip to Seemless, a strip club turned after hours club after 4am. With bottle service and a table, we soon enjoyed lap dances by 3 of the hottest Asian strippers with perfectly enhanced (?) bodies.

Satine is my newest porno crush... her panties laced with frosting, I find myself enamoured with her the entire night, wishing I weren't previously committed and that I were visiting with myHeart Jax instead. At 7am we rolled out of the strip club and made our way back to our hotels. Our parties separated, my team orders a light snack from room service. The lovely Francis and I rolled around in bed for a bit while Herb played cameraman. Food arrived and interrupted our tryst. Francis fell asleep on the sofa and Herb and I wind up talking the morning away. At 10am, I finally move her to the bed and lie on the sofa texting my bestie Kitten about my little visit.

At 12:45pm on Feb. 1, I wake up and quickly pack, shower and dash out the door for the airport, saying goodbye to my friends. Fortunately, being Super Bowl Sunday, the airport was virtually empty, allowing me to make it through security and to my gate just in time for boarding. I made it to Burbank Airport, luggage included, then home to pick up the kidlet. While she walked the dog, I packed a little bag and we headed out to the market then on to Jax's to watch the second half of the game. I ate a Shrimp and Surimi salad from Trader Joe's then promptly passed out next to my man. A couple of hours later, I awake and make dinner; Baked salmon with a peach salsa and sauteed garlic spinach. After dinner, I pack up the kidlet, say goodbye to Jax and head home. I made it to bed before 1am, something I haven't managed in awhile...

This morning, (Feb. 2,) I awake on time to get the kidlet to school, answer a few emails then head back to bed. I ignore my cell phone ringing off the hook, only to awake in time to pick my daughter up at 3pm. Back home, I make an after school snack or salmon cakes then shower, apply makeup and head out the door to my publicist in West Hollywood. I make it there in good time, considering it was the start of rush hour traffic. Waiting for my arrival was the host of a Spanish show called Alarma TV and his cameraman. We do a quick Valentine's Day tease video of me rolling around n the bed in a gorgeous red nightie, then an interview that will be broadcast in 5 Spanish Speaking countries around the world.

Afterwards, my publicist and I went over some information for a press release regarding my hosting Porn Star Karaoke tomorrow night, an in-store appearance in April, a radio show I'm doing next week, and my upcoming skate board. :) Lots accomplished in a 3 hour visit!

I made my way home in traffic and decided to stop by a Taco Bell/ Pizza Hut drive-through before pulling in the garage. I managed to only miss the first 20 minutes of 24, spoke to my honey, and got the kidlet in the bed just past bedtime after fussing abut homework that hadn't been completed. Once quiet, I paid a few bills online, made my to do list for tomorrow, and sent out a few emails while watching reruns of Sex and the City.

I hate that I missed the first week of the new Porno Bowling League tonight... oh well, there is always next week! Tomorrow is going to be a busy day. Lots to do so I better head off to bed. :) I'm hosting Porn Star Karaoke tomorrow night for the first time. I can't wait to post lots of pics from the party! Hopefully there is enough light inside so I can take lots of pics with my new iPhone from the party!

Off to bed, Night all!

Blog 339: Simplying the Complicated

2009-01-28T02:43:00.000-08:00

"A person who weighs 200 pounds on Earth would weigh about 32 pounds on the moon. Find the weight of a person on Earth who would weigh 15 pounds on the moon."

This was a real proportions word problem on my daughter's 6th grade honors math homework tonight. To solve the problem:

200/32 = x/15

32x = 200x15
32x = 3000
32x/32 = 3000/32
x = 93.75 lbs.

Ok wait... who the fuck weighs 93.75 lbs? Unless you are like.. I don't know, 14 years old? Lol!

Sorry... I'm high on dark hot chocolate with whipped cream and the thrill of remembering how to create equations from word problems and solving them correctly. :) Out of 32 problems, I found 7 errors. Not to mention, I just realized that my daughter's teacher isn't showing them the proper way to solve the equations... or at least she isn't doing it correctly. I seem to remember my dad looking at my homework when I was a kid and telling me that there was an easier way to solve the problems so that I not only "got it," but was able to recheck my work to make sure it was done correctly. Tonight I was looking at her paper and trying to figure out how the hell she came to her answers... because it looked a total mess. I finally realized that he was teaching them to find lowest common multiples, (a total waste of fucking time,) and dividing or multiplying each side by it. Now... I was a math FREAK in school, and I'm starting to understand why pre-algebra was so difficult and why that was the turning point for my love affair with numbers until geometry came along. I like simple answers and concrete solutions. Geometry was tangible. All that solving for X,Y,A,B or C crap made no sense to me at all. After all, Letters weren't numbers. :)

But now I looking at her homework, it all seems so simple to me. I guess my dad's lessons stuck, (and those years of trig, calc, and that damn probability and statistics class...) I am starting to understand why it takes my daughter so fucking long to do her homework and why she's losing her passion for numbers. We can't have that... now can we?

I suppose we'll be having an impromptu lesson on how to simplify and solve these equations tomorrow before school. :)

In thinking about how convoluted something so simple has become, it gives me pause to think about how so many things in life have become more complicated than they really need to be. Or conversely, how sometimes we approach things as though they are so simple they don't require much thought at all... Both are counterproductive and waste time and energy.

I'm very focused on work right now. I am getting organized and have had 2 days of shoots for my new foot fetish store and shot 10 clips in the last week. Just 4 more clips and I will be ready to launch the new store! Next up I will be shooting content for my fart fetish/ ass worship store, then once completed I will be shooting content for my FemDom/ BDSM store. :)

Today I went to Playboy Radio for a brief meeting to complete payroll paperwork and listen in on Taylor Wane hosting Private Calls to get a feel for the show. I will be hosting the show on this Thursday evening and am organizing my thoughts on great topics to talk about. I've had a few glitches in my schedule... people that want to make what should be simple transactions so much more complicated than need be... so I've been simply cutting ties with them so that I can stay focused. I have never understood people that create drama in situations where there doesn't need to be. I've learned over the years that if you 1) establish the goal, 2) figure out the path to achieve the goal and 3) follow the path with little deviation... anything is possible. I am the Queen of multitasking. Not everyone likes to do it, but sometimes its absolutely necessary. I suppose being a mom its become necessary for me to wear multiple hats all the time. I have learned not to be in such a hurry to get things done, but to rather give myself realistic goals and time frames to complete them so as not to stress myself out.

One of the things I've struggled with in the past is staying on task. I'm so good at multitasking that sometimes I will have 10 incomplete projects going on at once. One of my lessons from last year was to complete projects in order of importance and not straying from task or taking on more than I can chew. I've also learned to delegate responsibility. I have learned to let my agent book my shoots and hired a publicist just before AVN to handle all the requests for interviews, night club and party hosting and in store appearances. I am horrible in getting back to people by email and getting stuff like this on the calendar and find that this may just be the most brilliant decision I've made of the year so far. Now, to just find an editor to handle all the new content I'm shooting! :)

I'm hoping by reducing my work load, I will be able to spend more time doing the stuff I love as promised in my 2008 year end wrap up blog. :)

Now, Off to bed... I'm up in 2 hours to get the kidlet off to school!

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 338: Busy Week, Happy Girl!

2009-01-25T21:14:00.000-08:00

Last week was really busy. Monday I went to Playboy Radio for an interview on Nightcalls with Christy Canyon and Nikki Hunter. I hadn't been on the show in awhile, and as usual it was a blast talking about all the stuff I'm up to and taking calls from fans. :)

Last Tuesday I had a great content shoot with Madame Jas. Jas and I met at the Footnight events and recently ran into each other when she came to Vegas for AEE. I was really excited when our schedules worked out to be able to shoot together so quickly! I'd been wanting to shoot content for my new foot fetish site, BlackFootGoddess on Clips4Sale, but hadn't had a chance to break down and do it, so this was a perfect opportunity to shoot with someone else that gets the kink as much as I do. :) She had a wonderful foot slave available, so we shot some great foot clips of us dominating her slave both together and solo. We got some amazing foot worship and trampling clips and 2 of them will appear on the store in the next couple of weeks when I launch it! Yah! Enjoy these photos from last week's shoot!

I will be shooting with Jas again tomorrow and will definitely get some samples up tomorrow evening to share! Be sure to visit her Clips4Sale store as well as be on the lookout for her new website Submit and Serve coming soon!

Madame Jas and I trampling her slave Jeff

Face and chest standing

20 toes on his face and in his mouth!

slave Jeff worshiping my feet!

Thursday night, I attended the Footnight LA party in Downtown at Isabella Sinclaire's studio. The parties lately have been well attended, a bit too much I think. Over 65 girls and an equal number of guys means not nearly enough people to session with! I still had a good time, but didn't make nearly the amount of money I normally would have. I did however meet lots of guys interested in booking private foot and Domination sessions. I'm really looking forward to sessioning more this year with lots of slaves and submissives locally. I've started renting at Sanctuary again, and am looking forward to using their space for sessions and shoots in the next few months. :)

Last night I attended Dr. Susan Block's Eros Day Party in her studio in Downtown LA. It was CRAZY but fun. I met Jessica James and Regan Reese, but had to scurry out of there before the show was over to get home to Jax and a sick little girl. I caught up on a lot of sleep today... but am going to have to crash soon as I'm shooting tomorrow with Jas and one of my foot slaves tomorrow PLUS my fav video guy, Sturgeon Court will be shooting balloon fetish clips of us tomorrow as well! :)

Off to watch Desperate Housewives and make some European Dark hot cocoa with whipped cream...

Enjoy the night!

Blog 337: Love and the Obama Administration

2009-01-20T22:31:00.001-08:00

Once the great Love in the White House was known as Camelot... Now there are the Obamas.

This is not going to be one of my more eloquent blogs. I wish it were... but I have so many thoughts going through my head and I just want to get it out. So let me preface this by saying forgive the flow of this blog... but try to understand. :)

Throughout the election I did my bit in expressing my adoration for my candidate's platform and made sure I looked at all the interviews and debates so I would be a well informed citizen... not simply caught up in the hype of a rock star candidate. I voted for the then senator, based on the issues that are important to me and my family, so my voice would be heard. On election night, like many others, I cried after the words, "Barack Obama will be the next President of the United States of America," were recited. The historical impact of Mr. Obama's election to the highest office in our country affected me because for the first time since I began voting 17 years ago, I felt like I was truly going to be represented in the White House, not just because of the color of Obama's skin, but his ideals, his views, his politics and his dreams.

Later on, I began to realize just how significant his election would truly be and the impact it would have on my community... Not only would there be a Black man holding the highest executive position in the country, but there would be a Black family living in the White House that were not servants. There would be little Black girls playing on the stairs and running around the White House lawn, not as visitors, but as residents...

What's perhaps as equally important to me, is the comfort, ease and LOVE displayed between President and Michelle Obama. They have unwittingly become role models for young people, to show just what a relationship can be. So often, we become caught up in our individual pursuits that we fail to acknowledge or bend to fit our partner into our lives. Or on the converse, we fall into the myth that "two become one," that we cease to be ourselves. Michelle and Barack have shown that even within the confines of a relationship, you can still pursue your individual dreams. They have each shown what can be possible with education, hope and perseverance. They have shown what can happen when you have someone to lean on and support your dreams...

Michelle inspires me. I view this Ivy league educated woman, who despite a high powered job of her own, could look at her husband with so much LOVE and agree to set her professional goals aside to support her man on a journey that today lead them to living at 1600 Pennsylvania Ave. She epitomizes the scripture, "Love is not selfish..." You can just tell, when she looks at him, that she loves him more than anything. When he gazes back at her, you can tell that he loves her too. They do not put on airs in public, merely waving at the crowd and smiling... they kiss, they hug they LOVE publicly. I see it in their eyes, their caresses, their smiles at one another. It is so obvious that the love each other unabashedly. That sort of love should be the goal of any couple in love.

When I read President Obama's letter to his daughter's Sasha and Malia, or when I've seen him interact with them on television or in the rare interview, you can tell that this is a man that truly adores his family. His speech the other night about the responsibility of the Black Man to his family and where they have fallen off, it reassured me that this is a man that will hopefully influence how young men in the future will view family and responsibility as well.

But back to the First couple... The youth and vitality of this couple along with their love gives me hope that there will actually be a couple with a healthy relationship in the White House. I look at them and feel reassured that there will be no indiscreet affairs with interns or separate bedrooms for this couple. I see their affection towards one another and envision a President unwinding in bed with his wife, even if only for a moment. I perhaps fantasize of Michelle in a slinky piece of barelly there fabric from La Perla, inviting the Commander in Chief into the Lincoln Bedroom whispering, "Mr. President," in a voice more sultry than Marilyn Monroe... I can only imagine the sexual role-play that will happen in bedrooms across America tonight as people will pretend to be The President and The First Lady... but know that none of it will compare to the real deal.

As I watch CNN tonight, viewing the footage of him excusing himself from his speech at the Youth Ball so he could, "dance with my wife," as he said... I can't help but smile knowing that he claims her so publicly. When he whispers in her ear and she smiles ear to ear.. I can only imagine the very private things they share in the midst of so many thousands of people.

I'm so happy that for the first time in a long time... there is Love in the White House that will hopefully influence how the rest of us Love one another.

Blog 336: Check me out on Playboy Radio TONIGHT!

2009-01-19T15:35:00.001-08:00

Check me out on Playboy Radio today on SIRIUS 99 & XM 99. Night Calls is live between 4 and 7pm PST. I'm on @ 5:30p. Call in @ 877.205.9796

http://playboyradio.com

Blog 335: Call and Talk to Me!

2009-01-17T16:41:00.000-08:00

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X's & O's,
Sinny

Blog 334: Drunken Text Haiku

2009-01-17T03:09:00.000-08:00

Middle of the night
I can not stop texting you
Please climb in my bed.

Blog 333: The gift and the curse...

2009-01-13T01:04:00.000-08:00

Its 1am at home in the Valley and all is quiet...
The kidlet in fast asleep, the dog's in his kennel and my dad is asleep on my sofa.

But I won't sleep anytime soon...
Not unless I mix this 3rd glass of red wine with ambien at least...

AEE was both amazing an tragic. My new publicist introduced me to they guy that will be doing my new skateboard line... someone is interested in possibly using me as a 3D scan in a video game, and we tested lots of people at the TKNO booth during the convention. I did interviews with Gamelink, Fleshbot, and Streets Magazine amongst many others.. and signed lots of autographs and took way too many pictures. But at least I looked good in my Nurse's outfit... oh, except that I was cramping and thought I was going to start my period s I slipped in a "just in case tampon," and was photographed for a couple of hours with a string hanging and no one bothered telling me...

Hanging at the TKNO Booth in my PVC Nurse's outfit"

My good friend Mistress Delilah stopped by the booth during a break from signing for Kick Ass Pictures. Delilah is Pakistani from the waist up and Puerto Rican from the waist down and 100% True Domina! She's my true heart and I love her dearly like a sister. :)

Kitten, Kapri and I looked fabulous in our Nurses costumes, and drew lots of attention on Friday all dressed up. The other girls changed into their booty shorts and t-shirts later in the day, but I loved my costume and the attention in brought. :)

It feels good to be home. My feet are finally starting to not kill me... and no, my Jax didn't take home Best Director - Ethnic, (Jules Jordan took that honor,) and yes, we spent most of our anniversary tiffing about one thing or another... for various reason, (and yes, to the point of my being pulled off the awards show floor by the lovely Mellisa Monet and into the bathroom when she saw tears in my eyes...) And let's not forget my purse being lifted by some fan asking to take a photo with me on the awards show floor - resulting in losing my phone for the 2nd time in a week along with my ID - but something bigger than all that happened during the convention.

On my way out of the convention on day 3, I had a brief 10 minute conversation with the owner of one of the larger companies in the business about something I've been working on for awhile. Someone close to me mentioned I should take my product to the head of sales of his company but I bypassed and took the opportunity I saw when he was sitting alone for a moment. He listened, joked, and asked me to send him something to look at. Now... its all I can think about. I have some stuff in the can, but my vision is so much more in depth than what I've produced already. I belong at this company... I can taste it.

My vision of an ethnic presence in fetish and BDSM videos is so elaborate.. my knowledge of kink and niche marketing so vast... I know that what I envision will not only sell, but create a new market that others will emulate. In searching databases... titles featuring basic internet keywords that seem so simple and obvious to me, have never been produced as video titles. Jax and I had a conversation this weekend, once again, about working together to create something amazing.... but I can't stop. I can't turn off my brain. I'm already 5 steps ahead and have my 3rd title on paper. I see things... I know things...

We had a conversation tonight about my creative energy and what it will take to harness it. I lack the technical skills but my creativity knows no boundary. I'm a Capricorn with a creative side.. a dangerous combination. I see an empty marketplace and envision a creative solution to fulfilling a void. But instead of waiting for someone else to make it happen, I put down on paper all the necessary steps, in raw detail, of what it will take to bring it to fruition. I'm a planner, an organizer... as well as the creative. I just lack the technical ability to make it happen. *Sigh*

I explained to Jax tonight how frustrated I had become with others profiting from my knowledge and how THIS is my time. I genuinely feel this is my last chance to do something truly great in my industry. It frustrates me because my directorial debut garnered 4 stars from AVN, a pre-nom for best anal sex scene, nominations for best anal and best ethnic series... and yet the review began with, "despite being directed by a woman..." during a time when female directors were rare... and wasn't released with the right company to take home any awards. I've worked with people starting websites, I partnered in a webcam company, I helped produce a magazine and was "almost" named their new publisher before they decided to just pack up and fold due to personal issues... I know a lot about my industry, and after 16 years, it hasn't gotten me a whole hell of a lot.

Don't get me wrong, I didn't get into this for the fame. I got into it as a single mom in college that didn't want to go on welfare. I finished school, but reluctantly became famous along the way. I love my job, I love the life I've been afforded because of it... but I.Want.More. While others dream of award wins for their performances, I want people to see what decadence and deviance lies in my brain. I don't want to direct simple, formulaic hardcore movies and compete with the other 20 talent turned directors out there... I dream of something so much more complex and personally fulling. I know I can do this.

Sex has depth and layers to it. I have always dreamt in technicolor... and finally, after almost 16 years, I can finally get this image out of my head and on wax, err... film... video?

I'm glad Jax and I fought this weekend. I'm glad we are having frank discussions about our wants and desires and hopes and dreams, not just personally and intimately, but professionally as well. I see things... I always have. I'm on the brink of something great and I want... no, I need his help to make it happen. Only because I love him can I let him in to this part of my life.

2009...?

Its on.

I see things... clearly.

...just wait until I show you so your eyes can be opened for the first time too.

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 332: Day 2 AEE preparation

2009-01-08T02:21:00.000-08:00

Today was another hectic day. I started off working on photos of Kitten, Kapri and myself to be used as posters for TKNO.org's booth. From 11am-5pm I was locked in front of my computer. I was extremely frustrated when not once, but twice, my large files
would not upload to the printer's site. Now I'll have to burn them to disc and get them to a FedEx Kinkos in Vegas for printing. I did manage to get to the printer in LA in time to pick up our flyers, then scurried cross the valley to my nail salon. I'd called 3 times during the day to schedule an appointment but she wasn't answering. I made it only to find...

She was closed.

I went to the backup salon, a little hole in the wall run by an older Asian lady. They were closing up. She sent me to a place across the street.

Finally! I sat in the chair and got a much needed mani/ pedi. :)

Back home, I made pizza & a salad, and started laundry. I slipped out to the drugs store to pick up lashes and other must-have's for the convention floor. $70 later.. I had everything from firewood for my dad and kidlet while I'm away to creamy tomto soup to take on the road with me. Lol! Is it just me...? Or are 24 hour drug stores the most dangerous place for your wallet? Its like they have EVERYTHING you need whether you need it or not.

Now here I sit. 2 loads left to wash and I'm STILL not packed. I want to make sure the kidlet has clean clothes and my dad has whatever he needs readily available including a list of things to do and places to go while I'm away.

I'm debating packing up my lights, tri-pod and webcam so I can do some cam while I'm in Vegas. I think it'd be fun to hop online at least an hour or two a day from the privacy of our suite. I'll be rooming with Kitten and Kapri is staying in the same resort. Every year, I get a 2bedroom suite at a timeshare so I can have breakfast and dinner and relax while I'm there instead of running up a huge room service bill. During AEE it usually takes anywhere from 1/2 hour to an hour to receive your food order... and dinner is the worst! With limited time in between signing and obligatory parties, its necessary to maximize every minute I have.

I spoke with Sara Jay today and am going to try to shoot content with her during my down time. I'm also planning to shoot some content with my good friend, Mistress Delilah of NYC while in town. Delilah is signing at Kick Ass Picture's booth during the show. I have received emails from 2 slaves, one I've shot before on ProfessionalDomme.net and another who contacted me on MaxFisch regarding his availability during AEE. I'm hoping to shoot as much content for both my hardcore site and my fetish sites.

Off to pack so I can get some sleep before my early morning starts!

Blog 331: Preparing for AVN

2009-01-05T23:14:00.000-08:00

All day I've been running around like mad. The week of AVN is always hectic... My morning started when I ran into a problem with the files I sent to the printer for our flyers. RGB not CMYK, wrong image size, wrong DPI... *sigh* I worked diligently on the photos until 2pm then showered and ran out to the bank - just in time before they closed. Then I had to go to Time Warner to politely curse them out about a $500 credit that I was granted, then was removed because "a manager didn't authorize it." (Back in November I was granted this credit because a customer service rep in store found that I'd been overcharged since January.) I threatened to switch my bundled service, (phone, internet and cable,) to AT&T if it wasn't fixed post haste and refused to pay my current bill until properly credited as well. Then I had to high tail it cross town, 30 minutes in rush hour traffic to Julian St. Jox's house to pay for my room in Vegas. I book a time share through him every year, (more space, more comfortable, off the strip and much less money...) Then back cross town, fighting sleep on the freeway... That was SO dangerous, but I made it.

Once home, I rang Jax to let him know I made it safely while starting dinner. I roasted a whole chicken, (thank god for my convection oven,) made garlic spinach and a touch of stuffing for the kidlet. Unfortunately, I had a few slices of cheese before dinner and that combined with my diet pills has left me full... but not too full to enjoy an orange soy dream bar. :)

Now I'm sitting here ready to start working on the photos again, renewed energy and focus. Gotta get them done asap. My (step)dad is arriving tomorrow to keep an eye on the kidlet while I am in Vegas, (usually its my mom but she's undergoing therapy for her back due to 3 herniated discs...) I'm so glad I get to spend a day with him before I leave and again when I get home. I'm so excited, having dinner with he and Jax tomorrow night so the two most important men in my life can finally meet! :-)

Blog 330: Deadlines & Procrastination

2009-01-05T00:46:00.000-08:00

I have never been good at keeping things timely. I'm almost always at least 10-15 minutes late for most things unless it involves work... and even then, it takes a lot of effort to get there on time. I was always the kid that waited until the night before the big project was due to start, and finish, but still got an "A." What can I say, I work best under pressure. I have a hard time working, writing, whatever when I have plenty of time to do it in. I almost need to wait until the last minute to do my best work. Here I am, after having received my second deadline extension for this essay I'm working on and what do you know. Nada. I'm surfing the net, updating twitter and my blog and doing everything but writing.

Ok, I've had a snack, diet coke is nearby, I'm at my desk.. wait, maybe I'll move to the sofa. Should I lit the fireplace?

*sigh*

If I don't get it together, the 15th will be here before I know it and it won't be finished. Again. I promised myself time this year... dammit I'm going to give myself just that.

Back to work...

But before I go, I picked up the cutest sexy Nurses' costumes today for Kitten, Kapri and I to wear at TKNO's booth this week at AEE. I'm so excited to take pics in mine with all the fans in my little, tiny outfit and stockings!

Blog 329: January Footnight Appearances

2009-01-04T01:13:00.000-08:00

Don't miss the upcoming LA Footnight New Year's Party and Annual Footnight Awards on January 20th! I will be attending this event along with lots of other amazing foot models, fetish models, Pro-Domme's and generally hot women! Footnight parties are held at private locations, this one at a dungeon and studio, and require a donation of $20/ 10 minutes of foot play, worship, trampling or tickling. There is no sex involved of any sort at these events! Strictly foot play/ worship.

I am also planning to attend the Vegas Footnight on January 29th. If you are interested in booking a private session with me in Vegas for foot worship, trampling or BDSM, do contact me sooner rather than later as I will require that I have a certain number of confirmed private sessions booked in order to attend the event due to the expense associated with travel. Private sessions do require a small deposit to show that you are, in good faith, looking to session with me during my trip. I am not available as an escort, so don't ask. Thanks!

I am also looking for video slaves/ volunteers (in Los Angeles or Las Vegas,) for foot fetish scenes/ clips for my upcoming foot site, http://blackfootgoddess.com. If you are interested in participating in one of my videos, do let me know!

Blog 328: My AEE/ AVN Signing Schedule

2009-01-03T18:06:00.000-08:00

This year I will be signing at the Adult Entertainment Expo for a company I really respect. TKNO, (The Know Now Organization,) provide rapid oral HIV tests across the country in the privacy of your home or hotel. I love what they do, the idea that you can call up and have someone dispatched to your home to test you or your partner(s) to insure, safe, sexy play is brilliant. I've worked with this company in the past, at a Swinger's Convention in Vegas getting people tested and providing them with a rubber bracelet detecting their negative status so they could "play safe."

Next week, I will be signing at the booth with my best friend Kitten and the gorgeous Kapri Styles. Kaylani Cream may also join us for one of the days during the show, so check back for more details. Below you'll find my AEE signing schedule and the convention hours for the show. Be sure to stop by the booth, take a picture and get tested!

Convention Hours:
Thursday, January 8, 2009
9:30am – 6:30pm

Friday, January 9, 2009
Trade: 9:00am – 8:00pm
Fans: 2:00pm – 8:00pm

Saturday, January 10, 2009
Trade: 9:00am – 5:00pm
Fans: 11:00am – 5:00pm

Sunday, January 11, 2009
Fans and Trade: 9:00am – 5:00pm

Signing Schedule:
Thursday, January 8, 2009
4:00 PM-6:00 PM Kitten
4:30 PM-6:30 PM Sinnamon Love
4:30 PM-6:30 PM Kapri Styles

Friday, January 9, 2009
9:00 AM-3:30 PM Kapri Styles
11:30 PM-5:30 PM Kitten
2:00 PM-8:00 PM Sinnamon Love

Saturday, January 10, 2009
9:00AM-3:00PM Kitten
10:00AM-4:00PM Kapri Styles
11:00PM-5:00PM Sinnamon Love

Sunday, January 11, 2009
(No schedule)

Blog 327: My NYE/ 35th Birthday Party Pics

2009-01-03T15:10:00.001-08:00

Photobucket Album

My Birthday falls on New Year's Eve. I hated it growing up. Forget the curse of 1 birthday/ Christmas present... imagine being a kid and never getting to have a party on your birthday because everyone's parents are going out. The last several years my birthday has taken on a life of its own:

2007 - Talib Kweli at The Roosevelt Hotel
2006 - Erykah Badu and dead prez at the HOB Sunset
2005 - Kanye West in Las Vegas
2004 - Diddy's party in Miami w/ 7 of my girlfriends & then bf
2003 - Diddy's Party in Miami w/ same bf
2002 - Diddy's Party in Miami
2001 - NYC w/ friends

Needless to say that I wanted to bring in the last year of this decade and the milestone of turning 35 a little differently. On Saturday before my birthday, I decided to throw a kid-friendly party at home. By Tuesday, 44 people had confirmed. My Wednesday morning, 61 people had confirmed. Roughly 40-45 people, (and 10 kids,) showed up at my house Wednesday night. My daughter threw a mini-party upstairs in her bedroom for the kids complete with Wii, video games, board games and snacks. The grown ups celebrated with dominos, great music, birthday cake, lots of food, champagne at midnight, stimulating conversation. It was a great time.

Enjoy this photo gallery from the party! Click the photo above to view the gallery. I deleted all the pics of the kid at the party at this is an adult blog, but those that attended the party can access the pics on evite.com.

I have so much champagne and booze left over I'm thinking of throwing a party for Inauguration day!

Blog 326: My Latest FemDom Movie for Evil Angel

2009-01-03T04:45:00.000-08:00

Title: Asses of Face Destruction 5
Director: Buttman Magazine Choice
Featuring: Alexis Texas, Ashley Fires, Brandon Iron (Brendon Iron), Bubba, Flower Tucci, Freddy Baxter, Penny Flame, Ryan Knox, Sinnamon Love (Sinnamon), Whitney Stevens

Summary: Facesitting fetish kings Roman Video caught the eye of Evil Angel founder John Stagliano with their focused, no-bullshit style of female-dominant ass-smothering. In their line of best-of compilations for Buttman Magazine Choice, Roman lures the viewer with a parade of sexy facesitters who spend some time talking to the camera about themselves between suffocating helpless men with their asscheeks. Asses of Face Destruction 5 showcases several girls (like big-assed bitches Alexis Texas and Whitney Stevens) who possess wide, plush posteriors just built for a man's face! Asses of Face Destruction 5 includes six trailers.

NSFW: Check out this trailer from Faces of Ass Destruction 5!

Blog 325: NSFW - Photos from JT Stockroom Party

2009-01-02T23:27:00.000-08:00

These photos are from FubarWebmasters.com and were taken at a meet and greet thrown by bondage gearmasters, JT Stockroom. The party was for attendees of Webmaster Access West last month where myself, Scar, Thora Nang and a few others played Bondage Waitresses for the event. I had so much fun dressed most of the night in nothing more than a pair of butt cleavage leather panties and electrical tape pasties... but later changed into a leather bolero style straight jacket that exposed my breasts. The straight jacket also held a tray around our necks so that we could still serve food. Go figure! :) Enjoy these photos on their site from the party!

Blog 324: NSFW - My first appearance on NaughtyAmerica.com!

2009-01-02T15:41:00.000-08:00

Be sure to check out my first appearance on NaughtyAmerica's My First Sex Teacher!

I play a teacher's assistant getting busy with my boyfriend CJ Wright in the classroom. It is.. super hot!

Blog 323: A Year in Review

2009-01-02T14:30:00.000-08:00

I have uploaded all my blogs from 2008. It was interesting looking at some of the photos and poetry I wrote from the last year and realized that I am truly fortunate. I have lived and loved and experienced the best of life. Feel free to read through my older blogs to get to know me, or reacquaint yourself with my life and times.

Blog 322: Fleshbot's Top 10 Crush Objects of 2008!

2009-01-02T02:53:00.000-08:00

I only recently became familiar with Fleshbot and they of me, but guess what? They ranked me in their Top 10 Crush Objects of 2008! Woohoo! Granted, I'm #7 on the list, but since they just became familiar with me, its forgivable. Hehe! Besides, I'm in AMAZING company. My Chemistry 4 co-star Penny Flame is on the list as well!

NSFW Link: http://fleshbot.com/5118377/crushed-out-fleshbots-top-ten-crush-objects-of-2008

Blog 321: New Year, New Blog

2009-01-01T23:16:00.000-08:00

I used to love to blog. Then I discover vlogging. Then I started having computer problems ALL the time. So I stopped. Both. One of my goals for the year was to blog more often. So I decided to start a new blog that would encompass my love for life, love, family, hip hop and yes, my job as a porn star. Its a new year, but that doesn't mean the past is obsolete. Over the next few weeks, I'll be adding some of my blogs from Myspace and my website so you can get to know who I am; mind, body and soul...

Enjoy.
Sinny

Blog 320: Join me tonight @ 8pm PST/ 11pm PST!

2008-12-27T16:28:00.000-08:00

Join me for my after Christmas spectacular live webcam show! Tonight 8pm PST/ 11pm PST only @ http://ClubSinnamonLove.com!

Blog 319: Thought as the year closes

2008-12-27T04:22:00.000-08:00

As the year comes to a close, and I prepare to celebrate another birthday, I have begun to take an accounting of my life this past year. Thankfully, I am happy with what I see as I overlook the direction my life has taken and the things I've accomplished. Of course, there are things I'd like to improve on, like everyone. But instead of making inane resolutions, I take a look at what things I could do better in the next year and find solid methods to make headway before the year ends - not as the year begins.

Yes, you could say those indeed become resolutions, but I see them as nothing more than improvements. One of the most important things I need to improve on is Time. I need to be on time more. I need to learn to delegate certain projects so I have more time to myself. I need to learn to schedule my time better so I can quit work at a decent hour, and also get more things done during the course of the day. I need to dedicate more time to content production, and more time to producing videos for my fetish company. I need to spend less time working and more time having fun.

I want to start sitting down at the table for dinner with my family instead of eating in front of the computer. I want to watch more tv and play more board games. As cold as its been this month, I've been sitting in front of the fireplace drinking hot chocolate... I need more time to do that. I need to make time to start checking homework more - not just checking off that it was completed. I need more time to travel - home to visit my family in Michigan.

Another thing I want more time to do... is to write. I want to write more letters. I want to write more blogs. I want to have more time to work on my books. I want more time to interview artists. I want to launch my hip hop site...

I need more time during the day...

These last few months, days, weeks I have been taking an accounting of my life and have been clearing out a lot of clutter. This started 2 months ago when I started clearing out the clutter in my body. I had gained an excessive amount of weight, (30 pounds,) at the beginning of the year and found myself dragging - both physically and mentally, due to the excessive baggage I was carrying about. I set about seriously losing the weight 2 months ago when I started seeing Dr. Michael Franco for medical weight loss. Thanks to Dr. Franco's program of diet pills, a Keto-Genic diet, and moderate exercise, I have to date, lost 21 pounds. With 9 more pounds to go, I feel better than before and feel more confident and clear-headed that before.

I've continued to clear out the clutter by organizing not only my possessions, but my family's possessions so that we are not carrying on clutter into the new year. Being part Creole, the superstition of not carrying clutter, trash and dirt into the new year is extremely important to me. I have began making sure that all of my base bills are covered before the year ends so I do not carry debt into the new year. (God knows, I wish I could have cleared my credit of medical bills before the year ended... but my base bills will do.) The last few days, I have been cleaning out closets and piles of paperwork... today I rented a carpet steamer so that I can give the house a once over tomorrow.

The last thing, perhaps the most important... is ridding myself of people that clutter my life. I had an argument with someone recently that I held dear... only to find out what they really thought of me. Often you hear people say, "don't speak when you're angry as you might say something you don't mean or might regret later." I feel the opposite. I think when you are angry, drunk, whatever... you say exactly what you mean. Hearing someone I once held dear call me "a porn whore" to another person after an argument opened my eyes to what this person I invited into my home not only thought of me, but of themselves as well. In clearing the clutter of my life, that includes letting go of people that would delude me into believing they are something they are not.

I've also found myself letting go of friends this year. Two of my friends have had dramas of one sort or another for the last few years. Be the problems with drugs, alcohol, legal problems, financial ones... whatever... I have had to separate myself from them. Their lives are their lives... and despite all the good intentions of helping friends in need, sometimes, the desire to help those in need ultimately clutters my life - when they truly don't want or desire my assistance.

In my search for more time, I'm finding that if I let go of the clutter of unnecessary possessions, responsibilities and friendships, I ultimately will find what I seek - more time.

So if I had to make one resolution, it would have to be to learn to let go - no matter how much people and things try to pull me back in and down... I have to learn to let go for good.

To those I have to let go of this year, my letting go doesn't mean that I don't love you. I do... but your drama isn't my concern any longer. In the words of myLove... I love you, but I love me more.

I am grateful for many things.. I am fastly approaching my 16 year anniversary in the porn industry, and am thankful to still be able to work as often as I like. I am happy to be in working on not one but 2 books, and proudly say that the first of 2 on relationships with sex workers is phenomenal. :) I'm excited at the possibility of redesigning ClubSinnamonLove.com this year. I am beyond over the moon in love with Jax, and look forward to celebrating out one year anniversary together at AVN next month. I am grateful that my younger brother JP, is out of prison after 8 years and can finally be with his little girl and her mother without boundaries. I am happy to still be cancer-free and promise myself to go back to seeing my doctor regularly for check-ups. I love my therapist... and am finally at terms with the bipolar II disorder I have been struggling with for more than 22 years.

I promise, this year I will blog more often. Its been a busy year... I've grown so much and have so much to look forward to. I can't wait to turn 35 next week. I've always done wild parties every year and am looking forward to spending a quiet night with my man and my family this year instead...

Blog 318: Tonight’s Live Webcam Show!

2008-11-15T00:51:00.000-08:00

Ever wanted to chat with me LIVE? Ever wanted to watch me in my most intimate moments? Tonight is my weekly FREE cam show on my site, ClubSinnamonLove.com! The show is free to all my website members and airs at 8pm PST/ 11pm EST every Friday night. Be sure to come in and say hello, and tell me you are from my MySpace or my Facebook so I know who you are. ;)

So if you'd ever wanted to see me in and out of my undies... chatting and playing with lots of toys... fulfilling your fantasies live.. tonight is your night!

See you there!

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 317: Tyra Banks Show Appearance - Monday, Nov. 17th, 2008

2008-11-15T00:44:00.000-08:00

Be sure to set your DVRs or Tivos on Monday to record my appearance on the Tyra Banks Show. The show was a 2 day social experiment featuring 7 women from different aspects of the sex industry, including a Porn Star, Magazine Model, Webcam Girl, Stripper, Escort, Bunny Ranch Girl and Street Prostitute - designed to discover how we view one another and our hierarchy within the industry. Go to TyraShow.com to view the commercial currently running to get an idea of what the show is about. Just click on Monday's Show titled "PornTown."

I will say this, while I have no idea how they are going to edit the show for viewing, the experiment itself has the potential for being kinda cool. I can't give you anymore details on the nature of the experiment itself until after the show airs... but definitely watch the show to prepare for discussion afterwards!

~*~ Sinn ~*~

Blog 316: Jane Austen’s Porn and Penetration!!

2008-11-14T19:48:00.000-08:00

This sounds like a hardcore, serious movie! ;-) If you are a Jane Austen fan, or were forced to read her works in high school or college like me... you'll love this movie!

okay, okay... its not real, but its a great paraody commercial!

Blog 315: Thandie Newton and Richard Gervis reading from Hustler Video Sarah Paylin script!

2008-11-14T16:30:00.000-08:00

This is EXCELLENT! I love when celebrities poke fun at themselves and embrace porn. :)

Blog 314: Classroom discusses President-Elect Obama on November 5th

2008-11-07T17:16:00.000-08:00

This made me tear up a bit today... So of course, I had to share.

Blog 313: Now that change is coming...

2008-11-05T22:53:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was an amazing day. Every moment of the day, from brushing my daughter's hair in the morning to standing in line for an hour discussing local propositions on the ballot to casting my ballot for my candidate... I went through my day with a hesitant joy in my heart that I haven't felt in a long time. Even when my 11 year old daughter came home and told me that her friend Sarah told her that her parent's were "voting for McCain because he was a Christian and her dad read on a website that Obama thought killing babies was cool," I didn't falter... instead I used the opportunity as a teaching moment, and explained what an abortion is, when the law and doctor's consider a baby to be able to live outside the mom, what it means to be pro-choice, what it means to be pro-life, and why I am pro-choice. I explained to her all the various reasons why a woman might chose to have an abortion; due to age, poverty, drug use, rape, incest, or threat to the mother's life... I used her friends that at 11 years old as an example, explaining that if a girl has had her first menstral cycle, and has sex - by choice or by force, that she can get pregnant... and asked if she could imagine herself or her friends having a baby... I made sure she was armed with all the information, and understood that being pro-choice does not equate being pro-abortion. I explained that the other side quotes God, and religion and life itself as reasons for a woman not having an abortion... In asking her afterwards what she thought about the issue, she made me proud saying, "I think a woman shuld be able to chose whether they have a baby or not." I am estatic that when given the information, she was able to formulate her own opinion.

As she started homework, I made dinner, and watched my candidate quickly win state after state, sweeping the entire North East as polls closed. I picked up a couple bottles of champagne from Trader Joes before heading over to Diana Devoe and John E. Depth's house to watch the rest of the election coverage -feeling excited, nervous, and anticipating some sort of trickery from the Republican right... When we took Pennsylvania, followed by Ohio, I knew, I just knew.. that we were well on the way. When we took Florida, I was in disbelief... Then finally, amongst good friends and new ones, I heard Jon Stewart become dead serious and say the following words...

"At 11 o'clock at night, Eastern Standard Time, The President of the United States, is Barack Obama."

My hands went to my mouth, I stood in the middle of the room, in shock for a few moments. Suddenly, the whole room cheered... We had did it. We spoke out collectively. 63 million people across the United States stood together in voting booths across this coutnry and said, "No More." We stood for change, we stood for justice, we stood for racial equality, we stood for social advancement... We stood together and decided that we had to chose a President that is intelligent, charismatic and decisive, someone we could be proud of as he faces the rest of the world leaders with a calm, respectful reserve.

We Won.

I gathered my daughter from playing video games online in the back room and brought her out to celebrate with us. I wanted her to listen to her President speak for the first time... After all, he is the one that will insure that she has a better healthcare system, and affordable college education, and alternative sources of fuel and most importantly that she doesn't inherit this multi-trillion dollar debt created by 16 years of Reuplican rule. She leaned in my arms as we heard President-elect Obama speak to his constituents.

As a child born in the month that the Watergate tapes were being subpeonaed and educated completely under the Reagan-Bush administration, I am excited that my daughter will grow up in the era where she will have a Black woman in the White House as a role model and a President that sincerely feels passionate about education and heathcare.. so she won't have to go into debt with student loans trying to achieve a higher education or have to contemplate filing bankruptcy should she be found to have a pre-existing medical condition not covered by her insurance.

I'm looking forward to the shift of power in not just in the White House, but in the Senate and House of Representatives as well - as this promises that My President will actually be able to get necessary bills passed to fulfill the reforms he has promised. He has a rough road ahead of him... as he said last night, it won't be easy, but I have faith that he is up to the challenge.

Last night was a joy, but this morning was a bit more somber. I spoke to my stepfather, who he told me a story about his father being jumped by 8 white men after he told them they were putting the wrong part on his car... because in their words, "No nigger was supposed to know more than a white man." I listened to this strong man that helped shape my life cry for the first time... and wondered, what would my father have thought of this amazing election and its overwhelming results. My mother told me of hanging off the back of a trolley car because Blacks weren't allowed at the front of the car, and my heart, my Man, who told me of being in a double stroller with his twin sister going to civil rights rallies and marches with his parents.

Today I have listened to the arguements that Barack is not Black but biracial, only to counter with the fact that in this country, the one that created the "one drop rule," this great man, Barack Obama, has and always will be viewed as a Black Man - regardless of his accomplishments. Even when he became the head of the Harvard Law Review, he was the first Black man to hold such a position... So despite his being born to a White mother and raised by his White grandparents, despite our hopes and dreams of a world less divided by race, despite this deserving accomplishment he made yesterday, he will always be known as our nation's first African-American President.

In his acceptance speech, though he never mentioned the issue of his race, the change he alluded to was filled with it. Today, I finally shed tears while I viewed photos on The Huffington Post of the worldwide celebration of news of his election and all of the covers of newspapers and magazines featuring his handsome, debonair face, I cried. And cried. I have yet to call one of the most important figures in my life today... my grandmother. I want to hear her stories and what she has to say about this historic day.

I have been moved... I hope that his mere presence will inspire young Black men to get their shit together, to aspire for greatness and know that anything is possible, that dreams can be achieved. I hope that our country will not look at him as a savior, but as a man that hopes to invoke change - but will need our help. I know he will need time, I know he can't fix this mess we are in in one term. I know he will be great...

I know you all have seen this acceptance speech, but I just had to post it here for you all to appreciate. My heart is filled today, my hope has been renewed, and my love and faith towards each and every one of you is restored.

I'm hoping to attend the Swearing In Ceremony on January 20th, MLK's Birthday and the 100 year anniversary of the NAACP to watch my first, true President ascend the stairs built by slaves to take his oath of office. Its going to be a coastly event, but I might just have to forego AVN this year to make it happen...

love, Sinnamon

Blog 312: Video! Lip Service Interview on Shade 45 with Juelz Santana and Freeky Zeeky

2008-11-04T04:16:00.000-08:00

Blog 311: There’s no place like home...

2008-11-02T18:17:00.000-08:00

I've been back home for a few days and I will say the show went better than I expected. She got in one good jab, but it will basically make her look like a bully as opposed to making me look bad. I got lots of face time in her little social experiment, and it was funny/ sad hearing her say that she was surprised at how easily I took the role of leader so easily... (I know, porn stars aren't supposed to be intelligent...)

All in all, the show airs November 17, and was changedfrom "Pornville" to "Porntown."

Let me know what you think!

My 3rd day in NYC was amazing. I did a photo shoot for ClubButts.com in Yonkers then returned to my hotel to eat, shower and head out to a couple of concerts. I was scheduled to attend the Busta Rhymes concert at the Knitting Factory, but I went by the Bowery Ballroom to see Murs instead. The opening acts, with the exception of Big Pooh, were incredibly wack. I almost got into a fight with a bitchy, unattentive bartender... At the end of the night, I said goodbye to Mr. Len, hopped in a taxi and headed to my favorite bar, APT, to listen to my boy Rich Medina spin on the 1s and 2s. The club had been taken over by a police state, and was NOTHING like what I was accustomed to... ID Scan at the front door, body and bag search as you walk in... It was scary. I met up with Craig G, partied for a bit, then we departed with my girl Mistress Alexa to Santos. The second club was empty.. so back uptown to my hotel. Craig and I sat up chatting for a few hours until I passed out... mostly about my relationship with Jax and his relationship with this hottie Latina. I love getting a guy's perspective when it comes to men, because as much as I'm like a guy in certain respects, I'm not. I'm just a girl...

6am my alarm went off, and with little sleep I crawled out of bed and into the shower. I dressed, packed and was downstairs by 7:30 to meet the other girls in my hotel and the production assistant in charge of our travel. One girl, Brooke, took FOREVER to get downstairs. When finally with us, we walked the 5 blocks to Tyra's studio. Once inside, we were sent through security, stripped of our cell phones and cameras, and sent upstairs to our dressing rooms. Fun, Fun, Fun... Wardrobe, Hair and makeup... and then...

all the stuff I can't talk about. :(

Lol!

Let's just say you'll have to watch the show!

After the show ended, we quickly collected our phones and were escorted outside to our waiting car services. I hated the idea of spending 3 hours in the airport before my flight and would have rather have had lunch with my lawyer or a few friends before heading out. Just as I approached my car, 3 of the audience members asked if they could take a picture with me. Then some guy yelled, "Hey Sinnamon!" out the window of his SUV. Lol!

I loved my trip but honestly, there's no place like home.

Thursday am, I dropped off the kidlet at school then made a beeline for the Apple Store. The night before I left NYC, my computer went on the fritz, again. I arrived at the Apple Store 15 minutes before they opened. When they did, I immediately went to the Genius Bar and explained the problem, (my monitor was going through full screen color bars,) to the genius there. He'd never heard of such a thing, but when the screen started changing colors, he had this shocked look on his face. We agreed the machine needed to be shipped off, so once again, I left my baby behind. A quick trip to Fry's Electronics was in order to pick up a wireless adaptor for my daughter's PC laptop, so I could have something to use while mine was away without having to rent a new machine.

I stopped by a Halloween store to pick up a costume for my little girl. She wanted to be Isis this year, so I found a GORGEOUS Cleopatra costume and borrowed a pair of Isis wings from her best friend to complete the costume. I also bught myself a cute little Dominatrix Schoolgirl uniform for my overflowing closet. We met up with one of her friends, and her friends, to got trick or treating, collecting a ton of candy in the process. Home by 8:30pm, I made dinner, visited with our neighbors, then I disappeared to my bat cave for a cam show. Unfortunately, after getting changed, doing makeup and setting up the lights and camera, the backup computer would not recognize my camera. After 43 minutes of chatting with the cam show admin and tech support on the phone, we finally decided to get close the room. I was disappointed, (I looked SO cute!) and I felt like the 384 people in my chat room deserved a great show. I decided that next week I will get dressed up in my costume for my weekly show, since I will have my computer back. :)

I hope to see each and every one of you there! Friday, at 10pm PST.

Blog 310: NYC Day 2: Last Night Roots @ Roseland/ John Legend Release Party

2008-10-29T16:30:00.000-07:00

How many OKP went to last night's show? It was truly hotness...
Highlights:

* Estelle jumping on stage to sing "You got me" with the band
* Kirk's guitar solo leading out of that into Sweet Child of Mine, Bad to the Bone, and a Led Zepplein joint.
* Q-Tip hopping on stage
* Mos Def rocking the mic

I attended the show with my girl Ivory from Road Rules, Sara Jay and Loni Mallory.

Left the show and joined Ivory at the John Legend release party. One word: Decadent. 4 more words: Dom P Open Bar. Yah... After having 3 bombay sapphire and cran's at the concert, I was not prepared for the 2 glasses of champagne that followed. Luckily I don't get hang overs or that could have been ugly. :)

Left the party a little early and headed over to Socialista, a little bar not far from the John Legend joint with a new friend... Got into a deep political convo with the promoter and friends about Barack, McCain and the whole bullshit that is ahead of us.

I still heart NY.

Now I'm off to a shoot in fricken Yonkers. :( I just want to mill around in bed all day... but such is life. Later this evening its a meeting with BET.com about a possible column then over to the Busta joint. :)

Blog 309: Tyra Day 1/ Hip Hop Heaven

2008-10-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

So day one of the Tyra Show was fucking awesome. The contrat we signed prevents me from blogging, (guess they should have said something about that BEFORE I went on the show to preempt the blogger in me...) I will say this, they will have to do some REALLY creative editing to make me look like a sleaze bag, know nothing... The girls were all cool, and I am actually looking forward to Thursday where we actually meet Tyra and do her show. I just want to see how she is going to try to twist my words, like she usually does when porn people are on... or if she is going to let me be me.. proud, intelligent and cool. :)

After we finished taping last night, I went on Lip Service on Shade 45 along with Juelz Santana, Skull Gang and Rabbit from Real Chance at Love, then headed down to the Bowery Hotel to Q-Tip's release party for "Renaissance." First, Ladies, let me say that Q-Tip is SO fine!! And Kevin Liles is a cutie. :) I met up with my boy Craig G (from the legendary juice crew,) snuck past the red carpet (my top wouldn't stay up and I was trying to avoid a wardrobe malfunction on camera,) had 3 bombay sapphire and cranberry, and felt like I was in hip hop heaven. Everyone was there... Kweli, Mark Ronson, Nas, it was like a dream to be in the company of all these amazing people. It took Tip almost 30 minutes to name off all the legends and artists that attended last night. It was so cute, funny almost... as people would be talking to Craig, notice me, and ask if I was who they thought I was. It was clearly, awesome being fawned over all night by my adoring celebrity fans. One guy approached and said we'd chatted on BGOL before, and another guy asked to take a picture with me, making me blush and Craig die laughing...

Tonight's The Roots/ Gym Class Heros at Roseland, tomorrow I'm shooting for a local big butt site, then checking out Busta at the Knitting Factory.

All I can say is... I heart NY.

~*~ Sinn ~*~

Blog 308: Twitter and Yelp

2008-10-28T20:12:00.000-07:00

So I finally jumped on the Twitter band wagon. Yes, Kanye, Questlove and even you Erika, I'm joining the masses. Its just a trial run, so don't get all excited. But in the meantime, I've added my Twitter to both my Myspace and Facebook, to make things a little smoother. In case you haven't been to my main page, here is the link to my Twitter:

follow SinnamonLove at http://twitter.com

Also, every once in awhile I post reviews on Yelp.com of businesses, hotels, restaurants, etc. Check out my reviews on Yelp!

Recent reviews by Sinnamon L.

What's this?

Enjoy everyone!

Blog 307: 5th Grade Reporter interviews Joe Biden, finds out what a VP does

2008-10-26T22:36:00.000-07:00

Blog 306: Work/ Tyra Banks/ Weight loss and a surprise...

2008-10-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

This month has been quite eventful. First off, I've shot for 2 girl/ girl scenes, one for Devil's Films and one for Roxanne Loren, a BG scene for WhiteDicksinBlackChicks.com, did my second scene for BlackBootyInvasion.com - this one an anal scene, and just today shot a BG scene for Xander World. I also worked for Venus Girls as a production assistant on one of their cuckold videos. I love working for them... I get to come up with all sorts of cool ideas on cuckolding, something I know WAY too much about. (My ex-husband was a cuckold... something I'm not at all proud to say.)

I'm also pleased to announce that last night was the return of my weekly cam shows on my site, ClubSinnamonLove.com. I'm happy to be working with Camz.com to provide these free weekly cam shows to my members! As of right now, my weekly shows are on Friday nights, but I'm hoping to add a second show on Wednesdays next month as well! Camz has gracefully provided a new plugin for my website for my members that features highlight clips of my past cam shows, my last show archive and my cam schedule with a direct link to get into my chat room - all on pne page for my members! As a member of my site, you also get to watch the other Porn Star Camz within their network as well! I am looking forward to seeing all of you for my sexy Halloween show next week!

Tomorrow, I will be traveling to NYC for the week to shoot the Tyra Banks Show! The episode is called "Pornoville" and there will be sex workers of varied backgrounds on the show. I know, I know.. Tyra tends to go after porn stars pretty hard. I'm looking forward to getting on the show and defending the honor of my industry. :)I can't go into too many details just yet, but just know that once I'm free to discuss I will keep you posted! I am only shooting 2 days, so instead of flying back and forth, I will get to spend 2 free days in the city! I am looking forward to doing a little radio while in town. I've already spoken to the producer of Lip Service and am waiting to hear back from the producers of Spitkicker Radio and Shade 45 for confirmation on doing theirs as well.

I looked up my hotel online and found that it has a really nice little gym. That makes me happy. Kitten and I are on the same diet, so we've been working out together. Our doctor informed us that 5 minutes of jump roping is equivalent to 30 minutes of cardio, so every other day we've been working together to get through those difficult 5 minutes. Jumping rope at 34 is NOTHING like it was at 8 years old! After 2 weeks of jumping rope, we both decided we needed to add 100 crunches to our workout. I would love to do them everyday, and am going to try my hardest to do them. I used to do that... but that was when I was a younger woman. :) Today, my tummy is SO sore from yesterdays crunches that I'm a little nervous about pushing too hard and doing them again tonight. I'd rather wait until tomorrow, (seeing as how its already 1am that shouldn't be a problem,) instead of stressing my body too much and before its ready.

I am pleased to announce however, that so far I have lost 12 pounds on my doctor monitored program! Thats 12 pounds in 3 weeks. I lost 7 pounds just this week alone. :) The only thing that bothers me is that with the increase in medication in the afternoon ad evenings, I definitely feel a little tweaky. My Jax jokingly calls me his little crackhead... and can always tell when I've taken my pills based on how I start talking non-stop. Lol! It embarrasses me to hear that... but I love that he's so supportive of my weight loss. Just 18 more pounds to go and I'll be back to the old me!

The only thing that bothers me is that when I am hungry, I am HUNGRY. And if I can't eat right away, my appetite goes away completely. I find myself trying to force myself to eat because I know that I need to nourish my body in order for the weight loss to be effective. Its getting easier to prepare foods that my body can intake during the diet. Its not so hard after all.

Now... the big surprise.
(drumroll)

I have a book offer on the table. (Yah!)

The book is a piece of non-fiction and the publisher is a small fetish publishing company. I don't want to go into too many details yet as its still in the works, but I will say that it is about a segment of the BDSM population and will contain interviews, essays by myself about the topic and coffee table style photographs to display the dichotomies of the personalities of these people. I will say that the topic I've chosen has never been written about. I'm currently working on my prospectus and will be meeting with the publishers when I return to LA next week to discuss the book. I'm hoping to also shoot a documentary to accompany the book for the first 100 or so issues. :)

I love when great things happen... and can't wait to share more as they develop.

Blog 305: Colin Powell Endorses Obama!

2008-10-19T17:46:00.000-07:00

In recently weeks, The Washington Post, The NY Times, and many other important figures in the political field have endorsed Sen. Obama. Now, Mr. Colin Powell has also brings his support of Obama. THIS MAKES ME VERY HAPPY! His breaking from his party is not unique, but does show that the GOP is on a losing streak with many of their constituents. His view on Palin, McCain, the robocalls re: Roy Ayers, the attempted connection to Islam, and even the impending right wing appointment to the Supreme Court shows me that I too have the right candidate in mind.

Enjoy this video of Colin Powell's endorsement on Meet The Press and the corresponding article on the Huffington Post.

I can't get the video to embed, so enjoy the video on the The Huffington Post.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2008/10/19/colin-powell-endorses-oba_n_135895.html

Blog 304: On Losing Weight

2008-10-15T22:48:00.000-07:00

This year has been a rough one, I gained 30 pounds in 6 weeks for some medication my therapist had me .. switching me to something else, the weight was still really difficult to lose. Luckily, all the weight went to my hips, thighs and ass... Everyone has loved the increase in size of my ass, but honestly, the weight gain was a little too much for me. When I realized I was slightly over my BMI I knew it was time to do something about it.

Two weeks ago, I went to a med spa recommended by my agent, Lisa Ann to see Dr. Franco for medical weight loss. Dr. Franco is awesome! He put me on this strict Keto-genic diet and prescribed me Plegine, a prescription appetite suppressant. Plegine doesn't contain caffeine, but it definitely curbs my appetite! I am thrilled to announce that so far, I have lost 5 pounds. :) I'll be happy when the remaining offending 25 pounds are gone so I can fit into my tiny clothes again! :) The diet drives me nuts because I am a carb-addict... But I am trying to be good. Its tough, But I'll work it out.

I was a bit resistant to the Keto-genic diet because I know the damage that a diet high in protein and low in carbs can do to the body. You NEED carbs for energy. And while protein does turn to ketones and can create enough energy to run on, who wants the bad breath and skin odors that are caued by ketonacidosis?! I am allowed fruit at breakfast, but after that, only 30g of carbs for the rest of the day. Its hard for me, the cupcake queen, to give up carbs, but I'm happy to do whatever it takes to lose the weight!

I am supposed to also do 30 minutes of cardio or 5 minutes of jump roping every other day to speed up the process and lose an extra 2 pounds a week... I just have to find the frigging time! I got a Wii fit from one of my fans a couple of months ago, but my daughter plays it more than I do... let's just say, I'm fucking lazy. :) Lol!

I will keep you guys updated on the weight loss progess and if possible, go back to uploading recipes when I can like I used to...

Cross your fingers for me that this weight will continue to just melt off me!

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 302: Justin Timberlake and Jessica Biel want you to Vote in the Box!

2008-10-15T15:21:00.000-07:00

Its the RE- MIX!

Blog 301: Politics as usual...

2008-10-14T08:08:00.000-07:00

I was surfing the general discussion board one of my favorite sites, Okayplayer and came across a thread about the upcoming elections and the propositions on the ballots. I will admit, I have been so busy lately I've barely had time to do laundry let alone go over the thick booklet that covers all the proposals on the ballot... but there are a few that I feel rather passionate about.

So... I thought I'd share my thoughts and ask fellow Californians their opinions along with reasons why they will vote the way they will this November. If you are not in California, what important issues are going to be on your ballots this year?

First off, I am voting for Obama/ Biden. I believe in Obama and the change he is inspiring. After listening to him and Biden during the debates so far, I have been reassured that my reasons for voting for them are valid. The mudslinging that the McCain campaign is so transparent that it truly laughable. The dismissive way Obama said, "That's wrong John," to the elder senator's insistance that Obama would raise taxes on small businesses made me smile. I love that he actually answered questions and laid out plans of actions for healthcare and pulling our country out of the economic crisis we are in. He's so calm yet passionate, and comes off as so sincere in the things he offers.

I'm not saying that Obama is the second coming or anything like that... He's a politician, I know he's playing the game right now to get my vote. And yet, I feel confident when I hear him speak. I know that he can't bypass congress and the senate to get his bills passed, but I do believe him in his desire to turn this country around and help the middle class get a fair shake.

So... he has my vote.

More importantly, there are a few local issues that my state is voting on that I think deserve examination.

PROP 4: WAITING PERIOD AND PARENTAL NOTIFICATION BEFORE TERMINATION OF MINOR'S PREGNANCY.

This terrifies me. I'm a bit confused how to feel about this bill. I want girls that are scared to tell their parents (due to violence in the home, abuse, incest, etc.) to still be able to get abortions if necessary... but honestly, I would want to know if my daughter wanted to get one. I feel confident my girls would feel they could come to me, but I know that not everyone has the ideal home situation/ relationship with their parents.

I would hate to think that some young girl would be forced to have a baby by her ultra-religious/ conservative/ domineering parent that is on some "oh, you gone have THAT baby..." and have her future irrevocably wiped out as a result. Or be beaten to death. Its hard because I really need to read the entire proposal. I mean, is there a provision for the minor to go to the courts with due evidence as to why they need the abortion and can not seek parental consent? If so, what would the girl have to present as evidence? Would the girl be appointed a social worker or lawyer free of charge to cover court costs in order to go before a judge? I'll likely vote No on this prop just because I doubt seriously if it lends to the "what ifs" that I can dream of...

PROP 8: ELIMINATES RIGHT OF SAME–SEX COUPLES TO MARRY.

Hell no. I wouldn't want someone to take my rights away from me, so why do that to someone just because they are gay? I'm voting NO.

PROP 3: CHILDREN'S HOSPITAL BOND ACT. GRANT PROGRAM.

Voting Yes. As a parent, and having had a younger sibling hospitalized and placed in a coma due to a brain aneurysm several years ago, I have seen how hard these hospitals work first hand. They need all the help and funding they can get!

PROP 5: NONVIOLENT DRUG OFFENSES. SENTENCING, PAROLE AND REHABILITATION.

I have to do a little more reading up on this proposition, but so far, I think I'm voting yes. Main points:

* Limits court authority to incarcerate offenders who commit certain drug crimes, break drug treatment rules or violate parole.
* Substantially shortens parole for certain drug offenses; increases parole for serious and violent felonies.

I think that people that are arrested for minor drug offenses like possession, or drug use should not be sentenced the same as traffickers. Like I said, I have to read up a bit more on this however to make an informed decision.

PROP 1A: SAFE, RELIABLE HIGH-SPEED PASSENGER TRAIN BOND ACT.

Anyone that knows anything about LA traffic knows that it sucks! Public transportation is horrible because Los Angeles is so spread out. I know that this bill will affect more than just Los Angeles, but I think anything that can ease the horrible traffic here has to be a good thing.

With the pending elections only a few weeks away, what will you be voting for, and why?

If you'd like to check out the propositions on the CA ballot, view them at the California Voter Guide
~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 300: My body, my choice

2008-10-08T21:52:00.000-07:00

Blog 299: Don’t Vote!

2008-10-06T18:38:00.000-07:00

Blog 298: Join me on Facebook!

2008-10-04T18:00:00.000-07:00

I have finally joined the revolution! Add me on Facebook...

Blog 297: Brand New Auctions on ABIBIDS.COM!

2008-08-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

Want to own a piece of Sinnamon Love? Check out these brand spanking new auctions on AbiBids.com!

Blog 296: Bangin’ Black Boxes AVN Review

2008-06-29T07:12:00.000-07:00

Home / AVN Video / Movie Reviews / Bangin' Black Boxes

Rating:AAAA 1/2
Bangin' Black Boxes
Reviewed by: Eddie Adams

Reviewed In: January 2008
Director: Manuel Ferrara
Cast: Brown Suga, Candice Nicole, Jada Fire, John Strong, Kaylani Cream, Manuel Ferrara, Melrose Foxxx, Michael Stefano, Sinnamon Love

Category: Gonzo
Running Time: 208 Min.

Manuel Ferrara (either in front of or behind the smut lens) and hot sex scenes are beginning to become as analogous as pornography and erections. When the seemingly can-do-no-wrong Ferrara set out to do a gonzo feature with all-ebony starlets, he clearly wasn't fucking around. Bangin' Black Boxes is two discs full of break-neck fuck footage and gorgeous chocolate women.
The curvy Sinnamon Love must have been a very bad girl. Her muscular opener alternates between a gyrating floor romp with Ferrara and a four-guy circular blowbang. Love, acting as a surefire cum receptacle, is rewarded for all her hard dick work with a shivering orgasm while Ferrara plunges her tailpipe. Love's lovefest can be summed up by her mid-coital request, "I need more cum."
The flawless Candice Nicole has a tattoo across her shapely ass that reads "Rich Booty." From the looks of it (her ass), it's a great moneymaker. We only just get acquainted with Nicole and her large behind before Ferrara pans away to show the voluptuous Brown Suga as double penetration couch bait. The resulting foursome, with John Strong and Michael Stefano jumping in for penile support, is interracial magic.
Jada Fire, an incredible female specimen, does some of her best work with Ferrara's dick inside her. Their poolside (and then every room in a spacious house) bone is a heavy hitter: one of the strongest the title has to offer.
Ferrara introduces Kaylani Cream to John Strong and a fire engine red dildo. The trio gets along smashingly. Always ready to assist a lady in distress, the horny helmer steps in when Cream decides she needs two dicks inside of her.
The director's one-on-one finale with Melrose Foxxx maintains the intensity of its predecessors. Ferrara gives her the tip drill and then a nice semen moustache.
Pre-noms: Best Interracial Release. Best Couples Sex Scene: Jada Fire and Manuel Ferrara.

Retailing: Ferrara rocks an interracial jam that holds up with best of 'em.

Blog 295: Chemistry 4 AVN Review

2008-06-29T07:08:00.000-07:00

Home / AVN Video / Movie Reviews / Chemistry 4: The Orgy Edition

Rating:AAAA 1/2
Chemistry 4: The Orgy Edition
Reviewed by: Jared Rutter

Reviewed In: June 2008
Director: Tristan Taormino
Company: Vivid Entertainment Group
Cast: Adrianna Nicole, Evan Stone, Johnny Sins, Mark Michaels, Patricia Johnson, Penny Flame, Sinnamon Love, Tristan Taormino, Tyler Knight

Category: Gonzo
Running Time: 205 Min.

Tristan Taormino scores again with this new double-disc edition of her AVN Award-winning series. A fresh gang of porn stars fuck their brains out and discuss their work during a long slumber party.

This "Orgy Edition" does have group scenes — an orgy ensues almost immediately, lacking only Johnny Sins, who arrives late — but the most incendiary sex comes in the one-on-one face-offs.

Arguably the best group action happens when Johnny finally shows up. Sinnamon Love, the veteran black actress, gives him a messy b.j. Adrianna Nicole and Evan Stone pair off and the two couples fuck side by side. Sinnamon begs Sins to fuck her harder — the chemistry between them is really strong — then they switch partners and Adrianna gets off too.

Penny Flame wakes up the next morning and reveals how much she wants to fuck Sins — her "goal for the day." Their scene is very intense with a good simultaneous exchange of oral favors.

Stone shaves his legs and his asshole in the Jacuzzi. Adrianna helps, then blows him, and they too have a passionate tryst with her literally bending over backward during 69.

It's nice to see Sinnamon, who says she's been in porn her entire adult life, in a class production. She's still adorable, as well as articulate and intelligent. Stone's clowning keeps things lively, but he also makes sharp, insightful comments about himself and the others.

A session with Tantric sex teachers Mark and Patricia makes for an amusing contrast between the devout Tantrists and the laidback, mildly interested porn stars. Penny chokes up talking about how much the couple love each other. It's one of many revealing moments.

Retailing: Both male and female customers will respond well to this engrossing package.

Blog 294: Listen to me on Sirius Satellite Radio Tonight!

2008-06-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

I'm visiting NYC and tonight at 9pm EST I will be joining the crew on Lip Service on Sirius Satellite Radio. Check out the information below about the show!

http://www.sirius.com/shade45

LIP SERVICE
Mondays 8 pm - 10 pm ET
Rebroadcasts Thursday at midnight
Hosted by Angela Yee & Leah Rose & feat. DJ Wonder on the 1 & 2's
Monday nights the ladies take charge on Shade 45 with Lip Service, the provocative program featuring Angela Yee (of the Cipha Sounds Effect morning show) and Leah Rose (music editor of XXL Magazine) talking recklessly about sex, relationships, and things that take place behind closed doors!!! Hot topics, current events, advice from renowned experts, special celeb guests and plenty of pillow talk rule the airwaves as Angela & Leah give it to you raw--so get up close and personal with the ladies of Shade 45 and Lip Service!!!!

Blog 294: Violet Blue interviews the cast of Chemistry 4!

2008-06-10T10:16:00.000-07:00

Check out this (pre-recorded) live interview by sex educator/ writer extraodinaire Violet Blue featuring myself, and my Chemistry 4 co-stars Penny Flame, Adrianna Nicole and Our fearless leader, Tristan Taromino! :)

http://www.tinynibbles.com/blogarchives/2008/06/the-joy-of-tristan-taorminos-sex-positivity.htmlcomments

Enjoy!

Sinn

P.S., I received an email from Tristan that Chemistry 4 debuted at 61 n the AVN sales charts! Woohoo!

Blog 293: Getting Caught Up

2008-06-09T11:56:00.000-07:00

Blog 292: Love Squared

2008-05-31T04:26:00.000-07:00

LOVE has me risking my life...
teetering on the edge of insanity
playing russian roulette..

have i lost my damn mind?
i think so
and i love every minute of it.

myLove called
trying to play nice
feeling me out
to see what He'd done wrong
not understanding

It was NOTHING He did
that i simply LOVE him too

equally
strongly
with all my heart
forever.

and yet another has walked in the door
He left open
when He went away
to Trinidad
and India...

while He made the Dali Lama laugh
HE was making me laugh...
while He was loving life
HE was loving me...

no anomosity
just LOVE
enough to understand its time...
for new LOVE to grow.

I didn't mean to betray myLove
in fact myHEART is still pure.
So full, that I know I can LOVE
them both.
Yet knowing,
I have to chose.

Or rather...

haven't I chosen already?

Blog 291: XBIZ ARTICLE ON CUSTOM VIDEOS

2008-05-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

http://www.xbizpremier.com/digital/online/

I am pleased to announce that I am featured in this article on custom videos and video on demand in the current issue of XBiz. If you don't receive the magazine, (you probably don't if you aren't in the industry,) but you can view it online. The article is on pages 3 and 105. ;) Along with a great shot of me! I'm really excited to be included in this.

The article didn't mention my fetish stores by name, but check out fartgoddess.com for ass worship, femdom and fart fetish videos, blackfootgoddess.com for foot, leg, high heel and trample videos (launching in a matter of weeks,) and a yet unnamed store that will be launching this weekend, soon as all the videos finish uploading, featuring femdom content. All the store have slave orders, depending on your kink. ;)

Sinn

Blog 290: 25 REASONS I OWE MY MOTHER

2008-05-12T10:48:00.000-07:00

Thanks to one of my myspace friends, Danta', for sending this to me. ;)

-Sinn

25 REASONS I OWE MY MOTHER

1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE .

'If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning.'

2. My mother taught me RELIGION .

'You better pray that will come out of the carpet.'

3. My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL ;.

'If you don't straighten up,

I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!'

4. My mother taught me LOGIC .

' Because I said so, that's why.'

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC .

'If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me.'

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT .

'Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident.'

7. My mother taught me IRONY

'Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry

about.'

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS .

'Shut your mouth and eat your supper.'

9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM .

'Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!'

10.. My mother taught me about STAMINA .

'You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone.'

11. My mother taught me about WEATHER .

'This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it.'

12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY .

'If I told you once, I've told you a million times. Don't exaggerate!'

13. My mother taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE .

'I brought you into this world, and I can take you out.'

14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION .

'Stop acting like your father!'

15. My mother taught me about ENVY .

'There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do.'

16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION .

'Just wait until we get home.'

17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING .

'You are going to get it when you get home!'

18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE .

'If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that way.'

19. My mother taught me ESP .

'Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?'

20. My mother taught me HUMOR .

'When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me.'

21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT .

'If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up.'

22. My mother taught me GENETICS.

'You're just like your father.'

23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS .

'Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?'

24.

My mother taught me WISDOM .

'When you get to be my age, you'll understand.'

25. And my favorite: My mother taught me about JUSTICE

'One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you.

Blog 289: Chemistry 4 Trailer

2008-05-12T01:26:00.000-07:00

Check out this hot trailer from Chemistry 4 on Tristan Taromino's site, Pucker Up!

http://popups.vivid.com/downloads/Chemistry-4-X-trailer.mov

Blog 288: Come see me at The Wet Spot/ Xposed This Weekend!

2008-05-08T13:23:00.000-07:00

Come see me at The Wet Spot/ Xposed here in Los Angeles all weekend long! I'll be there tonight from 9pm - 3am, then Friday from 9p-4a, Saturday from 6pm-4am and Sunday from 12p-7pm.

Be sure to come check me out and get a dance from me or buy me a drink! ;-)

8229 Canoga Ave

Canoga Park, CA 91304

(818) 992-7616

http://xposedclub.com

Blog 287: Fetishes on Tyra Banks Show Today

2008-05-08T10:43:00.000-07:00

I recieved the following email from the owner of the Footnight Parties:

Hey All!

Here's a great heads-up from our resident Industry Guru Steven M.. Thanks Steve!

Today. Thursday May 8th, Tyra Banks is going to have an episode that's dedicated to various fetishes,including tickling, trampling. muscle worship and more.
It features Tommy and Tasha of the TickleAbuse site doing some F/M tickling (the guy gets tickled,unfortunately) and Footnight's good friend Floor (the Human Floor) who talks about his love for trampling and gets trampled by 15 to 20 barefoot ladies. Here's the link to a preview and more info about this episode...

Thanks again for the info Steven_M.

Enjoy!
Steve Savage

So I went to the Tyra Show Siteand found this:

"How Freaky Are We?"

Just how freaky are you? After receiving an overwhelming response to previous guests' "squashing" fetish videos, Tyra investigates other sexual fetishes. First she speaks with a man who goes wild for incredibly muscular women, and the bodybuilder who earns $500 an hour to let him feel and kiss her muscles. Then, a couple reveals how they use tickling as foreplay. Later, Tyra speaks to a man who loves when women step all over his body -- including his face! He even asks 15 audience members to stand on him at the same time. Finally, a woman confesses why she enjoys dressings up as a little girl and wearing diapers.

Blog 286: Pre-Order Chemistry 4!!!

2008-05-04T22:19:00.000-07:00

I'm SO excited... CHEMISTRY 4 IS READY TO BE RELEASED!! Be sure to PREORDER this video from ME at SinnamonLoveMovies.com just in time for its May 14 release date!

Description:
Order Now For May 14 Release!

Tristan brings six porn stars to a secluded house for the weekend and lets them loose to live out their fantasies. All the sexual hook-ups are spontaneous and completely up to the performers, and they waste no time getting naked before the cameras are even ready to roll! Sex begins as a one-on-one affair until whoever has the Perv Cam joins in, and pretty soon it becomes an incredible 36 hour orgy. See what happens when Sinnamon indulges her insatiable appetite, Tyler is left alone with all three women, Penny pushes her boundaries, Evan puts on his tiger suit, Adrianna uses her feet in some unusual ways, and Johnny arrives late—and must make up for lost time.

DVD Features:

* Shot in HD
* 2 disc set
* Chapter Search
* Positions Room
* Photo Gallery
* Preview Trailers
* Behind The Scenes
* Bonus Scenes

Blog 285: Check me out in Kweli’s Everything Man video

2008-04-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

its just a brief glimpse in the beginning... if you blink, you'll miss me. :) But I'm there...

Blog 284: Handlebars

2008-04-29T11:48:00.000-07:00

Heard this on KROQ the other day and had to check out the video. Thought provoking and genuine...

Blog 283: Vote for me at the Urban Spice Awards!

2008-04-28T10:37:00.000-07:00

The Urban Spice Awards has announced their nominees - of which I have received 2 nominations, Best Female Performer and Best Anal Performer. Be sure to check out the nominations and vote at http://urbanspiceawards.com.

Sinn

Blog 282: UCSB & Adultcon

2008-04-25T06:26:00.000-07:00

So this morning I am off to UC Santa Barbara to speak at a Feminist Media Conference on a panel on pornography. :) From the industry, myself, Tristan Taromino and Brandon Lee will be representing. Yah! Tristan directed me in Chemistry 4 which is coming out this summer, and is one of my fav directors.

Yesterday I was running around picking up product from video companies for my booth at Adultcon. I will have for sale:

Chocolate MILF 3 (Metro)
Sista 25 (Metro)
Desperate Blackwives 4 (Metro)
Bangin' Black Boxes (Evil Angel/ Dirty Monkey)
and just released yesterday...
(drumroll,)
Cheek Freaks 6 (Dir: Jazz Duro, Buttman Magazine Choice/ Evil Angel)

I also have Buttman Magazines on sale featuring photos from Bangin' Black Boxes available! I also have numerous other movies for sale... Just look for me at booth 138 Saturday and Sunday ONLY. Look for the brown tits and white cock (Sorry, they didn't have any brown cocks) balloons! :)

Sinny

2008-04-16T08:25:00.000-07:00

If you haven't had a chance to take a look at my calendar, you're missing all the fun tuff I've been up to... Last night, I updated the calendar here on MySpace as well as on my site with my schedule for the month of April.

I know I've been a little MIA lately, but that's because I've been SO busy! To make up for being MIA, I thought I'd share some of the photos from my shoot yesterday... These photos will be for my upcoming site redesign as well as site updates. :)

If you haven't heard, I've started doing webcam again! If you want to see me live, be sure to check me out daily on IMLive.com! Visit my blog on SinnamonLove.com for a live feed banner of my feed when I'm online. :)

Blog 280: Honeys in Heels Party!

2008-04-12T09:14:00.000-07:00

If you are in LA, I will be hosting and attending the Honeys in Heels event this month! Be sure to contact the promoter if you are looking to attend!

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 279: Thank goodness for email!

2008-04-09T19:30:00.000-07:00

I hate email forwards... but this one was too important to pass up! And a special thank to Kitten for forwarding this to me. I hope you all read this and pass it on... so you too can help out the cause! ;-)

~*~ Sinny ~*~

I must send my thanks to whoever sent me the email about poop in the glue on envelopes because I now have to use a wet towel with every envelope that needs sealing.

Also, now I have to scrub the top of every can I open for the same reason.

I no longer have any savings because I gave it to a sick girl (Penny Brown) who is about to die in the hospital for the 1,387,258th time.

I no longer have any money at all, but that will change once I receive the $15,000 that Bill Gates/Microsoft and AOL are sending me for participating in their special e-mail program.

I no longer worry about my soul because I have 363,214 angels looking out for me, and St. Theresa’s novena is going to grant my every wish.

I no longer eat KFC because their chickens are actually horrible mutant freaks with no eyes or feathers.

I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants even though I smell like a water buffalo on a hot day

Thanks to someone, I have learned that my prayers only get answered if I forward an email to seven of my friends and make a wish within five minutes.

Jesus loves me and will prove it in 5 days when something should have appeared on my monitor. Maybe it was because I didn’t send the money to his PO Box for the special blessing.

Because of someone’s concern I no longer drink Coca Cola because it can remove toilet stains.

I no longer can buy gasoline without taking someone along to watch the car so that a serial killer won’t crawl in my back seat when I’m pumping gas.

I no longer drink Pepsi or Dr. Pepper since the people who make these products are atheists who refuse to put ’Under God’ on their cans.

I no longer use saran wrap in the microwave because it causes cancer.

I no longer have a religion because I didn’t forward a prayer wheel to 7 friends.

And thanks to the e-mail buddy who let me know I can’t! Boil a cup of water in the microwave anymore because it will blow up in my face...disfiguring me for life.

I no longer check the coin return on pay phones because I could be pricked with a needle infected with AIDS.

I no longer go to shopping malls because someone will drug me with a perfume sample and rob me.

I no longer receive packages from UPS or FedEx since they are actually Al Qaeda in disguise.

I no longer shop at Target since they are French and don’t support our American troops or the Salvation Army.

I no longer answer the phone because someone will ask me to dial a number for which I will get a phone bill with calls to Jamaica , Uganda , Singapore , and Uzbekistan .

I no longer buy expensive cookies from Neiman Marcus since I now have their recipe.

Thanks to somebody, I can’t use anyone’s toilet but mine because a big brown African spider may be lurking under the seat to cause me instant death when it bites me.

And thanks to someone’s great advice, I can’t ever pick up $5.00 I dropped in the parking lot because it probably was placed there by a sex molester waiting underneath my car to grab my leg.

I can no longer drive my car because I can’t buy gas from certain gas companies!

If you don’t send this e-mail to at least 144,000 people in the next 7 minutes, a large dove with diarrhea will land on your head at 5:00 PM this afternoon and the fleas from 12 camels will infest your back causing you to grow a hairy hump. I know this will occur because it actually happened to a friend of my next door neighbor’s ex-mother-in-law’s second husband’s cousin’s beautician...

Have a wonderful day....

Oh, by the way.....

A South American scientist from Argentina , after a lengthy study, has Discovered that people with insufficient brain activity read their e-mail with their hand on the mouse.

Don’t bother taking it off now, it’s too late.

Blog 278: 1973 Baby.. yah!

2008-03-29T10:47:00.000-07:00

If you’re under the age of 15...you shouldn’t even read this,
and if you do, you should not repost this.

Just because you were born in ’97 doesn’t mean you’re a 90’s kid.

It’s not like you could remember the original Simpsons.
I am sorry but three conscious years of the 90’s just wont cut it.

You’re a 90’s kid if:

You remember watching:
-Doug
-Ren & Stimpy
-Pinky and the Brain
-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
-Rockos modern Life.
-Animaniacs
-Gargoyles

-Double Dare

-Land of the gnomes (you only watched when you stayed home from school)

-Beackman’s world

-Fraggle Rock

-Pee Wee’s Playhouse

Darkwing Duck

-Alvin and the Chipmunks

You’ve ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"

You just cant resist finishing this . . . "In west Philadelphia born and raised . . ."

You remember:
-Step by Step
-Family Matters!!!
-Dinosaurs
-Boy Meets World!!!!

-Clarissa Explains it all

-Saved by the Bell

-Blossom

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

You remember reading "Goosebumps"

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence . . . not

When everything was settled by:
-rock paper scissors or
-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or
-ms. mary mack

when kick ball was a daily activity.

when we used to obey our parents

You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape.

You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.

You remember The Original Game Boy.

You always wanted to send in a tape to America’s Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny.

You remember watching:
-The Magic School Bus
-Wishbone
-Reading Rainbow
-and Ghostwriter on PBS

You remember when Yo-Yos were cool.
You remember those Where’s Waldo books.
You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gum.

You remember watching:
-the 1st Batman
-Aladdin
-Ninja Turtles
-ghost busters

You remember Ring Pops.

If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB!"

You remember boom boxes .vs. cd players.

Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them.

You played and/or collected "Pogs" :)

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere.

one word. . . . . . . .trolls.

Windows 95 was the best.

You watched the original cartoons of
-Rugrats
-Wild Thornberry’s
-Power Rangers
-Rocket Power.

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.

You collected those Beanie Babies.

Carebears

Lambchop’s song never ended.

Silver dollars, which were cool to have.

Nickelodeon Gak

Everyone watched the WB.

The home alone tape recorder.

If you even know what an original walkman is.

You know the Macarena by heart.

"Talk to the hand" . . . enough said

You went to McDonald’s to play in the playplace.

You remember playing on merry go rounds at the playground.

Before the MySpace frenzy . . .
Before the Internet & text messaging . . .
Before Sidekicks & iPods . . .
Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360 . . .
Before Spongebob . . .
Before Tupac was shot.
When light up sneakers were cool.
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a gallon.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs.
You had slap bracelets!
You Actually played outside until it was dark!

Way back.

Before we realized all this would eventually disappear.

Post this in your bulletin if you remember these days . . . .

Post with the year you were born.

Blog 277: Come see me at the Rouge!

2008-03-29T10:30:00.000-07:00

If you’ve ever wanted to see me dance or meet me in person, you should come see me dance tonight at the Rouge Gentlemen’s Club in Van Nuys on Raymer. I’m not featuring tonight, but instead, I’ve decided that I need to brush up on my dance skills. :) So this will give all my local and visiting fans and opportunity to come see me on the weekends to play. :) I will be starting tonight, and will be at the club Thursdays-Sundays when I’m in town, (and not shooting,) from 10pm-Until? The club closes at 4am on the weekends... but unless I’m having a blast, I won’t be there those hours. The club is sweet to work with XXX Film Stars and not require us to dance on a schedule, but my understanding is that there are lots of porn stars on the weekend... so if I’m not there, or if my dance card is full, you will have lots of others to play with!

So again, tonight:

Rouge Gentlemen’s Club
14626 Raymer St.
Van Nuys, CA. 91405-1217