Thursday, April 21, 2011

Love Letter #13: Perhaps...

my love for you is stronger than i ever imagined.
perhaps God intended it to be that way.
for you and i to meet
and fall in love
so that we would know how deep our love could go.
God knew the struggles that would come along the way
and knew we needed one another
to lean against in times of strife
so we would have the strength
and resolve to fight
not just for ourselves
but for one another.
God saw this man and this woman
each with troubled pasts
each with similar vices
each with the desire for change
and the need for love
and directed us to one another.
I was never supposed to be in Miami that weekend
but I'm glad I was.
i needed to meet a man
that would be attracted to me physically
want to engage me sexually
learn my mind and respect me
hear my past and hold me
see my heart and love me
and God sent me you.
its amazing that through all this...
we are still fighting to hold on
out of love
not anger
or hate
or fear...
but because we both see the value
in what God has given us.

In the past I've often fought the gifts God laid before me. Afraid and angry after all the pain life brings. I am so grateful for this life I've been given, and recognize that he has brought me someone that truly loves me for me. All of me. Warts and all. Thank you for taking a walk with me last night. I love you J. Always. In all ways. Warts and all. :)

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Love Letter #12: What You Won't Do For Love - Bobby Caldwell

"I guess you wonder where I've been
I searched to find a love within
I came back to let you know
Got a thing for you and I can't let go

My friends wonder what is wrong with me
Well I'm in a daze from your love, you see
I came back to let you know
Got a thing for you and I can't let go

Some people go around the world for love
But they may never find what they dream of
What you won't do, do for love
You've tried everything but you don't give up
In my world only you makes me do
For love what I would not do

But then I only want the best it's true
They can't believe the things I do for you
What you won't do, do for love
You've tried everything but you don't give up
In my world, only you makes me do
For love what I would not do
Makes me do for love what I would not do"

Monday, April 11, 2011

Love Letter #11: Bob marley "no woman no cry" 1979

I swear. Yesterday was tears because I missed you. Today I have no tears despite listening to your heart bleed. When you figure it out, let me know..."don't worry, everything's gonna be alright."

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Love Letter #10


my heart just breaks in silence.
patience has never been my friend.
i'm hurting and no one understands why.
love is the hardest mountain to climb.
in his absence
my heart acts as though its forgotten how to pump blood
and my lungs deflate from lack of air.
i try...
but can't seem to catch my breath.
i fill my minutes with busy work
so the devil can't take my hands
but all i seem to think of
is counting the seconds
until he holds me tightly in his arms
and kisses away the tears
that streak my face like war paint.
i wish he could understand
the pain his absence brings
the heartache that i endure
just listening to his sweet words
on the other end of the phone line.
i long for the look in his eyes
that tell me i'm the only woman
that's ever loved him
the way that he loved them back.
i miss the way he laughs
and holds me when i'm lost
and brings me back to life
when illness has taken me down.
he encourages a part of me
that no one ever has.
and i miss that...
more than anything...
right now.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Love Letter #9: Nicki Minaj - Moment 4 Life (MTV Version) ft. Drake

Every time I hear this song on the radio I think of you... Instantly, I see flashes in my head of you driving along the beach next to me, jazz playing in the car, you turn and smile at me knowing that its my favorite genre and just what I need to hear. :) I see you standing in your tuxedo on my birthday... tears in my eyes as Beyonce sings so her man can grab a glass. I see all the moments we've shared in our life together. Its been an amazing ride so far.. I can't wait to see what the next 2 years will bring. I love you.

Love Letter #8: The Family - River Run Dry

"How long I cry till the river run dry?

U used 2 see me
But U don't see me no more
U used 2 touch me
But U don't touch me no more

Our love affair I thought would be
6 4evers and a week
Stick pin jab in the middle of a dream
No love at the end of the rainbow

300 tears crystaline
Each one contaning a memory it seems
Stick pin jab in the middle of a dream
No love at the end of the rainbow"

Love Letter #7: Prince - And God Created Woman

"In a deep sleep I fell
And the music starts 2 swell
One of my ribs He took and it shall be
Bone of my bones (bone of my bones)
And God created woman
And we were naked and did not care
There's a time 2 take and a time 2 share
2 in love, all around and all aware
Flesh of my flesh (flesh of my flesh)
And God created woman

Temptation sweet and so much (sweet and so much)
Surely die if neither one of us shall ye touch
(shall ye touch)
Then again we could die from the rush (rush)
Heart of my heart (heart of my heart)
And God created woman (woman)

My-my-my-my-my-my woman

In my darkest hour I find
Many serpents who have lied (lied)
Given half the chance still I'd run 2 your side
(run 2 your side)
Love of my love (love of my love)
And God created woman (woman)

And if I never see u again
It's alright 4 I am guilty of no sin
They can have u, I'll have your love in the end
Soul of my soul (soul of my soul)
And God created woman

(God created woman)
(God created woman) (woman)
Flesh of my flesh
(God created woman) (soul)
(God created, God created woman)
(God created, God created woman)"