Blog 339: Simplying the Complicated

"A person who weighs 200 pounds on Earth would weigh about 32 pounds on the moon. Find the weight of a person on Earth who would weigh 15 pounds on the moon."

This was a real proportions word problem on my daughter's 6th grade honors math homework tonight. To solve the problem:

200/32 = x/15

32x = 200x15
32x = 3000
32x/32 = 3000/32
x = 93.75 lbs.

Ok wait... who the fuck weighs 93.75 lbs? Unless you are like.. I don't know, 14 years old? Lol!

Sorry... I'm high on dark hot chocolate with whipped cream and the thrill of remembering how to create equations from word problems and solving them correctly. :) Out of 32 problems, I found 7 errors. Not to mention, I just realized that my daughter's teacher isn't showing them the proper way to solve the equations... or at least she isn't doing it correctly. I seem to remember my dad looking at my homework when I was a kid and telling me that there was an easier way to solve the problems so that I not only "got it," but was able to recheck my work to make sure it was done correctly. Tonight I was looking at her paper and trying to figure out how the hell she came to her answers... because it looked a total mess. I finally realized that he was teaching them to find lowest common multiples, (a total waste of fucking time,) and dividing or multiplying each side by it. Now... I was a math FREAK in school, and I'm starting to understand why pre-algebra was so difficult and why that was the turning point for my love affair with numbers until geometry came along. I like simple answers and concrete solutions. Geometry was tangible. All that solving for X,Y,A,B or C crap made no sense to me at all. After all, Letters weren't numbers. :)

But now I looking at her homework, it all seems so simple to me. I guess my dad's lessons stuck, (and those years of trig, calc, and that damn probability and statistics class...) I am starting to understand why it takes my daughter so fucking long to do her homework and why she's losing her passion for numbers. We can't have that... now can we?

I suppose we'll be having an impromptu lesson on how to simplify and solve these equations tomorrow before school. :)

In thinking about how convoluted something so simple has become, it gives me pause to think about how so many things in life have become more complicated than they really need to be. Or conversely, how sometimes we approach things as though they are so simple they don't require much thought at all... Both are counterproductive and waste time and energy.

I'm very focused on work right now. I am getting organized and have had 2 days of shoots for my new foot fetish store and shot 10 clips in the last week. Just 4 more clips and I will be ready to launch the new store! Next up I will be shooting content for my fart fetish/ ass worship store, then once completed I will be shooting content for my FemDom/ BDSM store. :)

Today I went to Playboy Radio for a brief meeting to complete payroll paperwork and listen in on Taylor Wane hosting Private Calls to get a feel for the show. I will be hosting the show on this Thursday evening and am organizing my thoughts on great topics to talk about. I've had a few glitches in my schedule... people that want to make what should be simple transactions so much more complicated than need be... so I've been simply cutting ties with them so that I can stay focused. I have never understood people that create drama in situations where there doesn't need to be. I've learned over the years that if you 1) establish the goal, 2) figure out the path to achieve the goal and 3) follow the path with little deviation... anything is possible. I am the Queen of multitasking. Not everyone likes to do it, but sometimes its absolutely necessary. I suppose being a mom its become necessary for me to wear multiple hats all the time. I have learned not to be in such a hurry to get things done, but to rather give myself realistic goals and time frames to complete them so as not to stress myself out.

One of the things I've struggled with in the past is staying on task. I'm so good at multitasking that sometimes I will have 10 incomplete projects going on at once. One of my lessons from last year was to complete projects in order of importance and not straying from task or taking on more than I can chew. I've also learned to delegate responsibility. I have learned to let my agent book my shoots and hired a publicist just before AVN to handle all the requests for interviews, night club and party hosting and in store appearances. I am horrible in getting back to people by email and getting stuff like this on the calendar and find that this may just be the most brilliant decision I've made of the year so far. Now, to just find an editor to handle all the new content I'm shooting! :)

I'm hoping by reducing my work load, I will be able to spend more time doing the stuff I love as promised in my 2008 year end wrap up blog. :)

Now, Off to bed... I'm up in 2 hours to get the kidlet off to school!

~*~ Sinny ~*~

Blog 338: Busy Week, Happy Girl!

Last week was really busy. Monday I went to Playboy Radio for an interview on Nightcalls with Christy Canyon and Nikki Hunter. I hadn't been on the show in awhile, and as usual it was a blast talking about all the stuff I'm up to and taking calls from fans. :)


Last Tuesday I had a great content shoot with Madame Jas. Jas and I met at the Footnight events and recently ran into each other when she came to Vegas for AEE. I was really excited when our schedules worked out to be able to shoot together so quickly! I'd been wanting to shoot content for my new foot fetish site, BlackFootGoddess on Clips4Sale, but hadn't had a chance to break down and do it, so this was a perfect opportunity to shoot with someone else that gets the kink as much as I do. :) She had a wonderful foot slave available, so we shot some great foot clips of us dominating her slave both together and solo. We got some amazing foot worship and trampling clips and 2 of them will appear on the store in the next couple of weeks when I launch it! Yah! Enjoy these photos from last week's shoot!

I will be shooting with Jas again tomorrow and will definitely get some samples up tomorrow evening to share! Be sure to visit her Clips4Sale store as well as be on the lookout for her new website Submit and Serve coming soon!


Madame Jas and I trampling her slave Jeff


Face and chest standing


20 toes on his face and in his mouth!



slave Jeff worshiping my feet!

Thursday night, I attended the Footnight LA party in Downtown at Isabella Sinclaire's studio. The parties lately have been well attended, a bit too much I think. Over 65 girls and an equal number of guys means not nearly enough people to session with! I still had a good time, but didn't make nearly the amount of money I normally would have. I did however meet lots of guys interested in booking private foot and Domination sessions. I'm really looking forward to sessioning more this year with lots of slaves and submissives locally. I've started renting at Sanctuary again, and am looking forward to using their space for sessions and shoots in the next few months. :)

Last night I attended Dr. Susan Block's Eros Day Party in her studio in Downtown LA. It was CRAZY but fun. I met Jessica James and Regan Reese, but had to scurry out of there before the show was over to get home to Jax and a sick little girl. I caught up on a lot of sleep today... but am going to have to crash soon as I'm shooting tomorrow with Jas and one of my foot slaves tomorrow PLUS my fav video guy, Sturgeon Court will be shooting balloon fetish clips of us tomorrow as well! :)

Off to watch Desperate Housewives and make some European Dark hot cocoa with whipped cream...

Enjoy the night!

Blog 337: Love and the Obama Administration

Once the great Love in the White House was known as Camelot... Now there are the Obamas.

This is not going to be one of my more eloquent blogs. I wish it were... but I have so many thoughts going through my head and I just want to get it out. So let me preface this by saying forgive the flow of this blog... but try to understand. :)

Throughout the election I did my bit in expressing my adoration for my candidate's platform and made sure I looked at all the interviews and debates so I would be a well informed citizen... not simply caught up in the hype of a rock star candidate. I voted for the then senator, based on the issues that are important to me and my family, so my voice would be heard. On election night, like many others, I cried after the words, "Barack Obama will be the next President of the United States of America," were recited. The historical impact of Mr. Obama's election to the highest office in our country affected me because for the first time since I began voting 17 years ago, I felt like I was truly going to be represented in the White House, not just because of the color of Obama's skin, but his ideals, his views, his politics and his dreams.

Later on, I began to realize just how significant his election would truly be and the impact it would have on my community... Not only would there be a Black man holding the highest executive position in the country, but there would be a Black family living in the White House that were not servants. There would be little Black girls playing on the stairs and running around the White House lawn, not as visitors, but as residents...

What's perhaps as equally important to me, is the comfort, ease and LOVE displayed between President and Michelle Obama. They have unwittingly become role models for young people, to show just what a relationship can be. So often, we become caught up in our individual pursuits that we fail to acknowledge or bend to fit our partner into our lives. Or on the converse, we fall into the myth that "two become one," that we cease to be ourselves. Michelle and Barack have shown that even within the confines of a relationship, you can still pursue your individual dreams. They have each shown what can be possible with education, hope and perseverance. They have shown what can happen when you have someone to lean on and support your dreams...

Michelle inspires me. I view this Ivy league educated woman, who despite a high powered job of her own, could look at her husband with so much LOVE and agree to set her professional goals aside to support her man on a journey that today lead them to living at 1600 Pennsylvania Ave. She epitomizes the scripture, "Love is not selfish..." You can just tell, when she looks at him, that she loves him more than anything. When he gazes back at her, you can tell that he loves her too. They do not put on airs in public, merely waving at the crowd and smiling... they kiss, they hug they LOVE publicly. I see it in their eyes, their caresses, their smiles at one another. It is so obvious that the love each other unabashedly. That sort of love should be the goal of any couple in love.

When I read President Obama's letter to his daughter's Sasha and Malia, or when I've seen him interact with them on television or in the rare interview, you can tell that this is a man that truly adores his family. His speech the other night about the responsibility of the Black Man to his family and where they have fallen off, it reassured me that this is a man that will hopefully influence how young men in the future will view family and responsibility as well.

But back to the First couple... The youth and vitality of this couple along with their love gives me hope that there will actually be a couple with a healthy relationship in the White House. I look at them and feel reassured that there will be no indiscreet affairs with interns or separate bedrooms for this couple. I see their affection towards one another and envision a President unwinding in bed with his wife, even if only for a moment. I perhaps fantasize of Michelle in a slinky piece of barelly there fabric from La Perla, inviting the Commander in Chief into the Lincoln Bedroom whispering, "Mr. President," in a voice more sultry than Marilyn Monroe... I can only imagine the sexual role-play that will happen in bedrooms across America tonight as people will pretend to be The President and The First Lady... but know that none of it will compare to the real deal.

As I watch CNN tonight, viewing the footage of him excusing himself from his speech at the Youth Ball so he could, "dance with my wife," as he said... I can't help but smile knowing that he claims her so publicly. When he whispers in her ear and she smiles ear to ear.. I can only imagine the very private things they share in the midst of so many thousands of people.

I'm so happy that for the first time in a long time... there is Love in the White House that will hopefully influence how the rest of us Love one another.

Blog 336: Check me out on Playboy Radio TONIGHT!

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X's & O's,
Sinny

Blog 334: Drunken Text Haiku

Middle of the night
I can not stop texting you
Please climb in my bed.

Blog 333: The gift and the curse...

Its 1am at home in the Valley and all is quiet...
The kidlet in fast asleep, the dog's in his kennel and my dad is asleep on my sofa.

But I won't sleep anytime soon...
Not unless I mix this 3rd glass of red wine with ambien at least...

AEE was both amazing an tragic. My new publicist introduced me to they guy that will be doing my new skateboard line... someone is interested in possibly using me as a 3D scan in a video game, and we tested lots of people at the TKNO booth during the convention. I did interviews with Gamelink, Fleshbot, and Streets Magazine amongst many others.. and signed lots of autographs and took way too many pictures. But at least I looked good in my Nurse's outfit... oh, except that I was cramping and thought I was going to start my period s I slipped in a "just in case tampon," and was photographed for a couple of hours with a string hanging and no one bothered telling me...


Hanging at the TKNO Booth in my PVC Nurse's outfit"


My good friend Mistress Delilah stopped by the booth during a break from signing for Kick Ass Pictures. Delilah is Pakistani from the waist up and Puerto Rican from the waist down and 100% True Domina! She's my true heart and I love her dearly like a sister. :)


Kitten, Kapri and I looked fabulous in our Nurses costumes, and drew lots of attention on Friday all dressed up. The other girls changed into their booty shorts and t-shirts later in the day, but I loved my costume and the attention in brought. :)

It feels good to be home. My feet are finally starting to not kill me... and no, my Jax didn't take home Best Director - Ethnic, (Jules Jordan took that honor,) and yes, we spent most of our anniversary tiffing about one thing or another... for various reason, (and yes, to the point of my being pulled off the awards show floor by the lovely Mellisa Monet and into the bathroom when she saw tears in my eyes...) And let's not forget my purse being lifted by some fan asking to take a photo with me on the awards show floor - resulting in losing my phone for the 2nd time in a week along with my ID - but something bigger than all that happened during the convention.

On my way out of the convention on day 3, I had a brief 10 minute conversation with the owner of one of the larger companies in the business about something I've been working on for awhile. Someone close to me mentioned I should take my product to the head of sales of his company but I bypassed and took the opportunity I saw when he was sitting alone for a moment. He listened, joked, and asked me to send him something to look at. Now... its all I can think about. I have some stuff in the can, but my vision is so much more in depth than what I've produced already. I belong at this company... I can taste it.

My vision of an ethnic presence in fetish and BDSM videos is so elaborate.. my knowledge of kink and niche marketing so vast... I know that what I envision will not only sell, but create a new market that others will emulate. In searching databases... titles featuring basic internet keywords that seem so simple and obvious to me, have never been produced as video titles. Jax and I had a conversation this weekend, once again, about working together to create something amazing.... but I can't stop. I can't turn off my brain. I'm already 5 steps ahead and have my 3rd title on paper. I see things... I know things...

We had a conversation tonight about my creative energy and what it will take to harness it. I lack the technical skills but my creativity knows no boundary. I'm a Capricorn with a creative side.. a dangerous combination. I see an empty marketplace and envision a creative solution to fulfilling a void. But instead of waiting for someone else to make it happen, I put down on paper all the necessary steps, in raw detail, of what it will take to bring it to fruition. I'm a planner, an organizer... as well as the creative. I just lack the technical ability to make it happen. *Sigh*

I explained to Jax tonight how frustrated I had become with others profiting from my knowledge and how THIS is my time. I genuinely feel this is my last chance to do something truly great in my industry. It frustrates me because my directorial debut garnered 4 stars from AVN, a pre-nom for best anal sex scene, nominations for best anal and best ethnic series... and yet the review began with, "despite being directed by a woman..." during a time when female directors were rare... and wasn't released with the right company to take home any awards. I've worked with people starting websites, I partnered in a webcam company, I helped produce a magazine and was "almost" named their new publisher before they decided to just pack up and fold due to personal issues... I know a lot about my industry, and after 16 years, it hasn't gotten me a whole hell of a lot.

Don't get me wrong, I didn't get into this for the fame. I got into it as a single mom in college that didn't want to go on welfare. I finished school, but reluctantly became famous along the way. I love my job, I love the life I've been afforded because of it... but I.Want.More. While others dream of award wins for their performances, I want people to see what decadence and deviance lies in my brain. I don't want to direct simple, formulaic hardcore movies and compete with the other 20 talent turned directors out there... I dream of something so much more complex and personally fulling. I know I can do this.

Sex has depth and layers to it. I have always dreamt in technicolor... and finally, after almost 16 years, I can finally get this image out of my head and on wax, err... film... video?

I'm glad Jax and I fought this weekend. I'm glad we are having frank discussions about our wants and desires and hopes and dreams, not just personally and intimately, but professionally as well. I see things... I always have. I'm on the brink of something great and I want... no, I need his help to make it happen. Only because I love him can I let him in to this part of my life.

2009...?

Its on.

I see things... clearly.

...just wait until I show you so your eyes can be opened for the first time too.

~*~ Sinny ~*~